As much as you wish to "believe" that your thoughts, beliefs and emotions originate in some nebulous kumbaya “consciousness,” even that idea is a charged electro-chemical event in neuro-circuitry. Do you channel ancient cosmic travellers? (guess where that occurs?) Are you blessed with precognition? (not without a brain you ain’t) That ghost you saw was purely a neuro-chemical event, and your outa body experiences happen right there between your ears (hence, you have gone nowhere).
Without serotonin and dopamine there’s a high probability Jed Mckenna would not have achieved the illustrious non-dual “awakening” that he seems so proud of proclaiming. To be “done” is nothing more than allowing the circuits to fire as they will, since it has never been up to you.
If your thoughts are not a matter of choice, why fret about what you think? Attempting to control the direction of impulses firing from 48 billion neurons is hopeless and the cause of all your misery. Why not just fugitabout it? Let it do whatever the fook it wants...Your neuro-circuits are completely locked into the laws of a predetermined physical universe and there is no free-will available in what must happen exactly as it does. You cannot extract yourself from any of it, because you have no responsibility for any of it. It goes on with you and without you.
The sculpted wiring in your cranium has insured that your responses are always as they should be. There is no free-will in alternating electro-chemical currents.They go where they must and travel the same circuits they have always traveled.
Many claim it’s necessary to believe in free-will, else we’d all become a bunch a fat, lazy, do-nothing, sloths. If “believing” in free-will insures your conformance to a specified agenda, then this only emphasizes external influence and the absence of free-will.
Like a well oiled machine, not one microscopic particle in the universe is free of influence by other particles in that universe. There are no coincidences. You may not like what you get, but you can rest assured, you got it for a reason (even if the reason is not presently apparent or never seen).
The electro-chemical illusion of free-will, orbiting your grey matter, is as much a part of the causal order as the orbiting of the planets around the sun.New conditioning, based on day to day experiences, can alter or modulate hardwired responses (i.e., certain daily stressors become mitigated and diminished over time due to increased tolerance). Nevertheless, you are completely imprisoned within your formative years, (which is why they are referred to as "formative," since you were quite literally sculpted to be precisely what you are right now without any volition or "choice" on your part).
New stimuli is responded to in old ways, generating additional circuitry linking up with other circuits. There is no such state as a “subconscious,” merely dormant circuits that could be easily influenced to fire at any time, often causing unwanted actions and behaviors.
The core self, or ”personality,” is hard wired and the direction the rest of your life takes is entirely predetermined by all the experiences that impacted your grey matter by age 5, in which you were genetically predetermined to respond just as you did. Circuits influence circuits, as the sculpting of grey matter continues on until the current ceases.
You are nothing more than a mechanistic sack of electrified meat. But what’s so bad about that? You are free to do what you do, because you cannot do anything but what the meat demands.
It’s the same old song and dance, because “there is nothing new under the sun.” Your life always seems the same, simply because it is a pattern of scripted impulses enmeshed in a neural network and interconnected to a grand tapestry of billions of other repetitive networks all influencing you as you influence them. Neuro-circuits respond to the world thus insuring that the world will unfold as it must because your responses are guaranteed.
As neuroscience is gradually demonstrating, the predetermined causal order knows exactly what you will think before you think it.You are nothing more than a product, an outcome, a result, influencing additional results that end up influencing you in a unified infinite feedback loop that began long before you became a predetermined product of that causal order. The universe set the conditions for your material manifestation and your manifestation is a necessary component of an unfolding natural order. Everything that happened to you today was predetermined to happen in order for tomorrow to be exactly as it must be.
You are both cause and effect, because the universe from which you emerged, and that has shaped your entire life, has itself been shaped by what you do within it. Neither you nor the causal order that shaped you, "chooses" a direction, because that direction has always been certain, regardless of the circuits in your skull that emphasize uncertainty and doubt. It has always been certain that you would experience doubt and uncertainty and, for most, it is certain that will never change.
You are product of a predetermined causal order that has shaped and sculpted every experience that your brain encounters and every response it subsequently projects into that causal order, thereby, generating additional emergent properties that will stimulate more of this same unfolding.
Looking back on your life it is easy to see that everything that happened had to happen exactly as it did. Every electro-chemical ‘thought’ impulse had to arise exactly as it did for you to “think” exactly as you do now.
I have isolated myself from the world in waves of abject despondency and fully engaged it with relentless vigor and vitality. Then one day, I saw the pattern with crystal clarity and recognized “I-me” had nothing to do with it.
Hence, I simply kept on doing what I was doing.
Your fate is sealed. Your destiny is entirely predetermined and what you do in the next moment will be exactly what should be done, no matter how you wish to evaluate it afterward. In a predetermined causal universe, the sinner is as necessary as the saint and neither are responsible for what they must do.
So whatever you wish to do, go ahead and just fooking do it.
You will anyway, whether you want to or not…
Artwork by Igor Morski