Energizer Bunny Enlightenment

I have many detractors who are apparently hard-wired to refute my descriptions as a means of defending their own conceptions of “enlightenment” as some nebulous product of a free-willed autonomous ‘self.’

Recognizing that they have no choice in this decision, since they have been traveling subconsciously in this direction since birth (our meeting has been fated), based on being grounded in a predetermined causal order that granted their manifestation exactly as it has thus occurred and must continue to unfold, I have no reason to become agitated or irate by their chronic babbling, resulting from a closed system of filtered neuro-circutry originating from their formative years and, therefore, providing no 'choice' in future neural sculpting that is directed by earlier, already formed circuits.

You can only understand what you are hard-wired to understand, since the '”neural-pruning,” or deconstruction and construction of circuitry, goes on outside your awareness and control and any changes to that wiring occurs in association with the circuits that already exist in your head. Attempting to escape the circuitry is the nature of cognitive dissonance and, I assure you, you will seek to escape that experience as quickly as possible.

Utilizing the colloquial terms “enlightenment” and “awakening” must always result in problematic descriptors, with much gritting, grinding and gnashing of teeth, since individuals without the neuro-cricuitry to go beyond the terms automatically, subconsciously, become fixated on these empty pointers. I recognize this because I was once hard-wired to filter out more pertinent information as well and thought that because I had free-will I must be doing something wrong in my failure be “enlightened,” which only pressed me further toward a singular event that I now understand as patently absurd, but which 99 percent of the "spiritual seeker" population continue to desire.

Henceforth, I will cease and desist from employing those non-descriptive pointers and simply replace them with the term ‘understanding’ which, based on the specific routing of the circuits in your cranium, you either have or have not and both entirely by degrees. Logically, one cannot be held accountable for what he is not hard-wired to understand and the degrees of understanding are seemingly infinite.

It cannot be denied that understanding goes on and on, like the Energizer Bunny, further and further, deeper and deeper, until the grey matter ceases to pulsate with electro-chemical current, necessary to engage consciousness in that very process of understanding, resulting in the understanding that it is pointless understanding anything at all, whatsoever.

This paradoxically implies that your actual purpose for existing is to increase the understanding that your ever understanding anything at all is patently meaningless (and, based on observation, with regard to current occurrences in the world, there are very few whose circuits have reached such a point).

This is why, all your conceptually confusing and futile endeavors to become “enlightened,” all your idolizing of historically infantile ideologies and your vigilant enduring of esoteric “spiritual practices,” are destined to fail in reaching that singular event, because there is only a gradually increasing deeper understanding that is not a singular event or episode one can predict and hence plan for achieving through intentional means. Any singular event can only be employed to go further but, as history demonstrates, most will become stuck on their brain-based temporal lobe whizbangs, proclaiming themselves “awakened masters” mustering the sheep to sit reverently at their holy feet.

Most “spiritual seekers” pursue a singular event that they refer to as “enlightenment” or “awakening” (and the lexicon is growing with newer absurdly confounding concepts defining an exact point in time that can never occur in an expanding predetermined causal order) and this is why a deeper understanding is thwarted by the fixation of an event or episode that can never happen, and has never happened except in fictional mythologies, only an ever deeper understanding that never ceases to increase in intensity.

But, alas, once again, there is no free-will in this journey and, thus, you should simply enjoy the ride until it ends, because the one crucial fact we all understand indubitably, but wish to escape through our revered and egocentrically vainglorious concepts that provide delusions of transcending death, is that it all does undeniably... end.

What more need be understood than that and for what purpose?

The Self-Perpetuated Lobotomy of Neuro-Circuit Deconstruction

You can do anything you want with fictional realities, because they don’t exist anywhere else in the natural order, except in your head (still making it part of the predetermined causal order as is everything else in your head). Nevertheless, fictional realities are contingent on the ability to prove the fiction as fact, not only to your 'self,' but to whichever herd you tend to graze with collectively.

The belief that you are an “enlightened master” is no different than a belief that you are a "policeman," based on the predominant social paradigms of the communal order. Hard-wired behaviors, specific to the role, must be performed adequately in order for others to invest belief in your being a policeman or an enlightened master. You may claim to be a policeman, but if the participants of the social order refuse to invest belief in your role, you are literally powerless to perform it. You may claim to be an enlightened master, but if you tend to use improper or fowl language and have sex with your students, you will lose credibility and have your title and privileges revoked. You must follow the script precisely and only minor, and easily assimilated, variations will be tolerated as you are bound to the scripted performance.

Scripted fictions, such as policeman and enlightened master, are very fragile because they are fictional constructs. Although the physical structures built to emphasize a fiction may stand for centuries, the fictions themselves require the continued “manufacture of consent” to maintain their facticity as part of the natural order. Buddha and Jesus are fabricated ideas personified, but monuments and cathedrals have been built to honor those fictions and those structures will stand for many centuries.

The pyramids were built in response to mythically fictional realities and still stand to this day, although the fictional realities have long since dissolved unto dust. “Disneyland” has a factual location, with solid factual structures, arranged so as to support the fictions conjured up by the cartoonist Walt Disney. “Washington DC” also has a factual locale, with solid factual structures, arranged to support the fiction of American government. Essentially, the social order that provides meaning to your factually vacuous existence is no different than your vacation to Disneyland. Yet, only one you invest in as factually real.

There are a seemingly infinite number of fictions factually hard-wired in your skull and because the hard-wiring is factual, the fictions endure, until death or a paradigm shift make them unbelievable, at which time you will simply terminate electro-chemical impulses, no different than quitting smoking (as the belief one needs to smoke is also a hard-wired fiction). Such fantasies are the fabric of a fictional society and have required daily monotonous indoctrination strategies (the role of public educational system) in order to support the complexity of the interlocking and self-reinforcing socially manufactured fictional mythologies.

The fictional realities of family, community, government, education, media, home, entertainment, etc, all work together to spin the yarn of whatever fictional realities help fuel the illusion of a cohesive fictionally “law” based social order. Do you have even the slightest idea of how much of your everyday existence is entirely based on meanings that are sculpted from past fictional fabrications and have no factual basis whatsoever?

Frequently, in the complexity of a post-modern society, fictions are often in competition with one another through their advocates. "Marriage" is a fictional arrangement with many rules to maintain cognitive adherence to a belief, but the rules are currently in a state of contention (simply because they are fictional and thus, fluid and fragile) based on the fiction of “gender.” To contend that only a ‘man” and a “women” can participate in “marriage,” is to fail to recognize “marriage” as a fiction by framing it with factual rules that must not be broken. To assert that a “family” must consist of a female “wife” and a male “husband” is also a fabricated fiction that has no relevance to the natural order, other than procreation which is entirely instinctual, requiring no conceptual fictions to support and reinforce it.

Why is it so few have the capacity to separate fact from fiction, when fully understanding the difference is a factual “Awakening”? However, there is nothing “spiritual” about this Awakening, because “spirit” is itself a fiction, conceptually superimposed upon certain brain processes, occurring mostly in the temporal lobe (the locale that most "spiritual awakenings" synaptically occur). It’s simply the dissolution of electro-chemical current necessary to maintain the belief circuits that make fictional realities believably pseudo-factual delusions.

This Awakening can be massively uncomfortable for most, because it requires the extinguishing of electro-chemical current to miles of neuro-circuitry whose sole purpose is to maintain fictional realities. It’s a process of extracting ‘belief,’ or neuro-chemically dissociating from various circuits, thereby, dissolving electro-chemical current, as a means of separating fact from fiction. Consider this process a non-volitional, self-perpetuated lobotomy and many are currently deeply involved in such a process today. Unfortunately, they tend to equate it with a free-willed agent, which merely delays the process ( the delay itself a product of causality)

It’s really not self-perpetuating and simply seems as such, because you can’t do it by choice, although many are currently proceeding in this very direction without actually recognizing the process that is factually occurring with no assistance from a non-existing ‘self,’ but only upon arrival does one realize this fact.

Similar to any addiction, if you abstain from the belief that you need to smoke cigarettes, the neural current which maintains that particular circuit (nicotine addiction) will eventually lose electro-chemical power in the synapses and the belief is extinguished along with the behavior (where the mind (brain) is, the body naturally follows). Hence, it is not for the feint of heart or those who demand their fictions define who and what they are.

Which is why you will not do it by ‘choice,’ because, as opposed to nicotine addiction, abstaining from crucial aspects of a fictional society (that endorses your nicotine addiction) is not an impulse your neuro-circuits will facilitate without severe cognitive dissonance. You can disengage circuits that support nicotine addiction, as you no longer wish to be identified with that behavior, but to disassociate from the circuitry that defines other parts of your ‘self,’ may result in chronic emotional disturbances. “Mental illness” is nothing more than symptoms arising from an inability to conform to fictional realities that define a fictitious social order and, hence, in most cases, mental illness should be treated as a guidepost along the path of "Awakening."

To no longer believe in fictional realities, i.e, truth, security, money, career, marriage, employment, compassion, freedom, trust, competition, happiness, love, etc, etc, can be quite disorienting and cause intense cognitive dissonance between your ears, thereby, demanding relief. You want these fictions to be factual aspects of your existence, for without them there would literally be no meaning or purpose to your existence.

You need conceptual paradigms, such as fame, bliss, wealth, fun, enlightenment, prestige, love, awakening, joy, status, spiritual, etc, etc, to fill your abject nothingness, less you should have to face the abyss from which you arrived and to which you will depart. You will fight to maintain the fictions so as to avoid the actual emptiness of your factually meaningless existence. Nevertheless, facts hide behind fictions and fictional realities exist merely to distract you from fact, as they have no other purpose in a predetermined causal order.

As fictions evolve in complexity they tend to crash against and merge into other fictions, thereby, generating confusion and chaotic disruptions in your head and within the fabricated social order. In a fictional society it is beneficial that you have fictional employment for which fictional value, or “money,” can be extracted to support a fictional “government” that is constructed on the fiction of a “democratic nation,” whose fictional role is to fight other fictional governments to acquire access to factual resources used to fuel fictional societies.

Fictional realities are fluid and malleable and have no fixed or concrete mental structures (other than the structures built to support and reinforce the fiction as real). “Democracy” is a fictional reality because it has no factual nature such a tree or rock. You can make democracy anything you want it to be if you’re in a position to do so, and we see this occurring today in the fictional reality called the “United States.” Many have fought and died to defend the fiction of democracy, because it has been defined as a more beneficial social structure allowing egocentrica mammalian’s more fictional “freedoms.” However, today the fiction of democracy appears to be no different than the fictional reality of “communism,” as observed in present day China, and this is because both tend to operate under the more predominant fictional reality of “capitalism.”

Dissecting fictions for some individuals is a rewarding process, while for others it is terrifying and results in anguish, despair and even suicide, demanding the flight into comfortable, but vapid "spiritual" ideologies, such as Buddhism or its more conceptually complex cousin, Zen. It is all “state dependent” and what mental ‘state’ you consistently experience is dependent on hard-wired neuro-circuits, which you did not construct in childhood and still have nothing to do with in relation to the direction the circuitry takes. Hence, most individuals will cling to their fictions, or simply substitute one fiction for another, up to the final breathe.

However, based on final breathes, often the predetermined causal order will decree death, but with a delayed onset. In these instances of "terminal illness," an individual is afforded the opportunity to rip asunder all fictional realities and see through the veil. This is often described as an "Awakening," when only the barest essential circuits remain to filter perception, thereby, allowing a more panoramic view of the actual facts. However, these folks tend to have no inclination to write books about their “enlightenment” and, hence, we have little info on the process (the psychologist Elizabeth Khubler-Ross is a good source).

Other than the terminally ill, who have burned through the stages of grief to achieve acceptance of finality, finitude, finiteness (burning through the rings of fire to arrive comfortably at the clear center) all other prognosticators of enlightened bliss should be completely ignored as silly self-absorbed adolescents seeking attention (and the list is seemingly infinite).

Imagine what would immediately drop from your life upon knowing that an asteroid was about to hit the earth, decimating all life on the planet? Who would “you” be then? What circuits, crucial to self identification, would immediately be starved of electro-chemical current and die? What would a world facing its impending doom look like? What behaviors would immediately be absent from the world, substituted by other less predominant behaviors?

Dissecting fictions without the benefit of impending doom is much more difficult, because often one must continue to participate in the fiction, while knowing it is entirely delusional and this is quite evident in the fictional realities of employment, work, career, education, etc. To see it clearly and proclaim it fictional is to be utterly alone, surrounded by a world that believes fictional realities as factually necessary aspects of human existence, even though they can be found nowhere in the natural order of a causally predetermined universe that allowed human existence in the first place.

However, be careful how far you go in this endeavor of deconstructing neuro-circuitry, because the end product of your search will inevitably be “you.” But, we're all on that path anyway, so have at it!

Artwork by Tommy Ingberg

Wonderfully Scripted Little Snowflakes

“Your thoughts, decisions, emotions, and actions – essentially everything you do—relies on the incredibly complex circuits within your brain. Within these circuits, neurons signal to each other through a process called synaptic neurotransmission, whereby chemicals released by one neuron bind to receptors that are located on a neighboring neuron. This extremely complicated process requires an orchestra of protein interactions and is tremendously quick, taking place over about two thousandths of a second.” LINK

So where are “you” in all that?

Take a minute (or “thousandths of a second”) to locate your ‘self.’ Which specific neurons, receptors or synapses truly represent the “I-me” you identify with as an awesomely special little snowflake?

In what way do you control the synaptic transmissions of 48 billion neurons occurring in “two thousandths of a second”? If the experience of “you,” bouncing around haphazardly somewhere in your head cheese, occurs in “about two thousandths of a second,” are you ever really “there” to control it?

But egocentrica mammalia cannot surrender from the neurally hard-wired illusion that he has control of his thinking and that thoughts don’t just simply arise, but that he chooses exactly what to think, drowning in guilt if the ‘thought’ is not correct, never realizing that surrender of control is his actual freedom, since he never had control in the first place. Just a shadowy wisp of conceptual ‘intentions,’ allowing for a fragile and tenuous illusion of control, belying that he controls absolutely nothing.

The miles of synaptic dendritic matrix that you identify with, and that defines “you,” certainly creates the need for incredible beauty, but only to escape the need for a cranial HELL, and the circuits are so constructed so as to differentiate between both in the delusion that you can “choose” one over the other.

The spiritual purveyors of free-will fantasies continue to proselytize a "choice" to escape from your scripted neuro-circuitry, while the escape plan just gets swallowed up in the tangled electro-chemical mess between your ears, through impulses streaming in “thousandths of a second,” along a trillion miles of dendritic wiring, most having have been constructed long before you even were aware you had a self, but they are undeniably responsible for the kind of self “you” became and will continue to perpetrate.

“You” are not responsible for…anything at all, whatsoever.

Centuries of sacred philosophical and spiritual drivel is being annihilated in one fell swoop by the realization that there is nothing an “I-me” self can do, but exactly what it must do because there has never been a "choice." All your revered, and centuries old, spiritual practices have resulted in nothing but more synaptic transmissions, butting up against one another like a traffic jam on Santa Monica boulevard. Yet,  you had no choice but to plod along wherever the circuits took you, in the delusion that you were choosing a direction, outside that which was predetermined for you.

This idea is so utterly debilitating to some peeps that they have even expressed a desire (in the comment section) that I should “choose” to kill myself, a thought that I have encountered many times in the past. However, that “choice” is obviously not a neurally scripted circuit in my gray matter. Nevertheless, should dendrite connections begin to gradually link up in that direction, I would have no choice but to comply as directed and many have followed just such an arrangement of circuitry, to perform a behavior that was predetermined before they were even born.

Your entire life has been scripted by a predetermined causality that you have no cranial capacity to avert or “think” yourself out of, because those very thoughts are part of the predetermined script.
The script is everything and it’s what you want to be, simply because you've been following it all since birth. Jump off script and you don’t exist and you will do anything to exist, but only as “you.” You will literally fight, and die, to stay on script.

Have you ever wondered why everyday is exactly the same? There is nothing you can be that is not scripted in the neuro-circuitry.  The script defines you because it’s hard-wired in your head. You know nothing else but the script and the script was written long before you were even born.

Would you like to be an enlightened master? Unless it is scripted in the neuro-circuitry, it is entirely impossible and that scripting began long before your existence and even your conception. You did not write the script. The author remains anonymous, except where it has been scripted to be known. Nevertheless, you will do what the script demands, for without the script, you could not exist and existence for egocentrica mammalia is always a scripted affair.

No matter how much you hate the script, you can never leave the script, because the script is “you.” Every single egocentrica mammalian is defined by a script and they play their parts expertly, because it’s hard-wired in their skulls. They can’t leave the script because they can’t exist outside their heads. It’s that simple.

Your life is scripted. You’re pleasure is scripted, just as your pain is scripted. You always know what to do, because what to do is wired into your cranium. You know what to fear and how to fear it, because the synaptic transmissions go only where they must in the universe situated between your ears. “You” exist nowhere else.

Make no mistake my fellow actors, you will follow the script because your lines are crucial to the very continuity of ALL reality and your act has been entirely influenced by the scripts of others, as your lines are absolutely necessary to those who follow your brilliant absurdities.

The show must go on as a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying everything for those who can see the patterns and flow with them.

Do you often wonder why you think the thoughts you do or do the things you do? Can you see the minute causally predetermined antecedents that were required to occur before you could step upon the stage and perform your role? For you to be “born” whole worlds had to be obliterated and the movements of even the most microscopic amoeba had to occur precisely as they occurred, else you would have no script to follow and could not be. Centuries of causally predetermined lines had to have been read exactly as they were for your lines to have significance in the whole performance.

And your death is as crucial to that whole as the evolution of simple organisms into complex. Without your death, similar to your birth, the show cannot go on, as your performance is integral to this entire tale.

You are, most assuredly and without a doubt, a special little snowflake.

Just not for the reasons you think…

Artwork by Igor Morski

Egocentrica Mammalia: Just a Fart in the Wind

There are many out there today, burning down the house in the ‘desire’ to experience the cold winds of the real. They stand outside watching it burn to the ground and then turn and walk away, with the understanding that they're "done."

Remaining in the comfy warmth of your spirituality keeps the fear at bay, but ignorance is your only reward. 

Like cute cuddly cute kittens huddling in a corner, egocentrica mammalia hides in his fabricated symbols, weaving ever more complex and confabulated fictions that fail to veil the death that started at birth and so, he never really lives, but remains in a comfy cozy trance-like state, till death actually awakens him.

Why wait?

You confidently proclaim your spiritually narcissistic blather completely ignorant of the predetermined causal order that gave you life in the first place. You reverently conform to your historically sanctioned sacred rituals and practices (while still proclaiming you've "let go of  the past") in the desire to achieve “enlightenment,” a state different than the one your in now, but forget that if there were no oxygen you would not be in the state your in now. You sit in your meditative reverie, seeking to transcend your made-up, mundane fictional realities by rising beyond your repetitively entrenched egocentric thought patterns, ignorant of the fact that if the earth stopped spinning you’d soon drop dead. Yet, your spiritual search allows you to deftly deny the undeniable fact that you would not be sitting in your spiritually self-absorbed, splendor-on-high, searching for some conceptualized nebulous state of blissful ignorance, if it weren't for the fact that gravity keeps your butt firmly attached to the floor.

But none of this matters in your narcissistic search for a more conceptually defined (what words can do it justice?) and higher order of narcissistic self-absorption. Egocentrica mammalian’s are the only life form that chronically seek a state of mind other than the one he is now experiencing and, in a millennium, has yet to find. Alas, will he never surrender his search?

Furthermore, that “enlightenment” you must have experienced had nothing to do with you at all and if your brain were not wired-up exactly as it is, and if you had not had the exact prior experiences you have exactly had, down to the tiniest detail which, thereby, rerouted neuro-networks exactly in the way it did, then the experience you claim as “enlightened,” would be no different than that whizbang, jiggy-yahoo orgasm you had following a night of furious fornication (and that too was predetermined).

When you attain that illustrious shift in consciousness, achieving your enlightened state of divine bliss, can you then quit your day job? If not, then how will you incorporate the bliss of “enlightenment” into shelf stocking at Walmart or enhancing you company's bottom line through expert stock picks? When you ascend to this higher, more sacred, state of consciousness, how will that affect the rest of the world? Will the earth continue to turn on its axis or will it pause in its infinite revolving to marvel at your new found, self-defined, psycho-emotional status?

Or are you victim of socio-culturally programmed neuro-circuitry?

And when that moment, long sought, of “awakening" has you struggling for just the right concepts to describe it to everybody, will you become expertly adept at peddling narcissistic drivel at discount rates on Amazon.com? Apparently, based on a recent historical perspective, the sole purpose of post-modern, spiritual “enlightenment,” or “awakening,” is to facilitate seminars and post vids on Youtube. What other purpose is served?

Does your “enlightenment” mean anything to the rest of the fooking universe or is it just another useless narcissistic brain fart? If it is intended by an egocentric, how can it be anything BUT egocentric? Nevertheless, it does seem the universe has set aside space for your delusions, else, you would not be deluded.

In fact, many bright and “spiritually” maligned minds claim we are approaching a massive shift in “collective consciousness” and they support this by pointing to the numerous social uprisings occurring around the globe (as if social uprisings are a new feature in the history of egocentrica mammalia). They seem to believe that overturning governments is proof that collective consciousness is somehow “spiritually” shifting, rising, transcending, even though each new fictionally defined “government” repeats the patterns of the last (can this not be observed as a definitive historical fact?).

I keep attempting to watch these “shift in consciousness” videos only to struggle to keep my lunch down as the same useless drivel is spouted with reverence by so-called spiritual teachers. I can only ask, does the predetermined natural order, an order that, if it did not exist neither would you, give a fook about your ability to “vote in free elections”?

The causal order that spawned you is indifferent to your constant whining about “freedom” and demonstrates this indifference by shutting off your heart whenever it damn well pleases and you have no fooking freedom to change that.  But as long as you still have the full capacity to buy boat loads of plastic Chinese sheit, you proudly proclaim you’re free. No doubt when that “freedom' is absent, you too will seek to overthrow governments. Such is the delusional nature of egocentrica mammalia.

After centuries of evolution, post-modern spirituality still looks to the Mayans for truth. Egocentrica mammalia can fly to the moon and back, but still demands 2nd century Buddism inform him how to conduct his life. Egocentrica has tomes of technologically advanced knowledge stored in countless libraries, with the ultimate potential to save everybody and everything on earth, but still relies on a 2000 year old book for its most significant data on how to organize and conduct his life.

Is egocentrica mammalia a causally ordered fooking joke? If so, why does he take himself so seriously? Why can’t egocentrica laugh too?

Why not choose an ideology that provides evidence to support its facts. Why not look to neuroscience, which is rapidly demonstrating that you have no choice in what you believe, since all belief is provided to you from birth and hard-wired into the fibrous fatty tissue betwixt your ears.

Or look to the ideologies of medicine, which demonstrates that, with billions of hormonal, electro-chemical, cellular, molecular, neuronal, dendritic, etc, etc, actions taking place in the body, there is no point in time for which a ‘self’ makes a choice separate from these processes and all of these processes actually serve to define the exact ‘choice’ being made by that ‘self,’ external to any specific deliberation or intention.

If these processes occur entirely without autonomous egocentric “choice,’ what makes you think a “you” exists at all? If science can determine what you think before you think it, then who or what is actually thinking? Where do your thoughts come from, if not “you”? If it ain’t “I-me,” then who or what is doing all this fooking useless thinking that leads to nothing but more useless suffering?

Is the same WILL that intends the planetary orbit around the sun not evident in you?

I have no more responsibility for the sheit I write on this blog, than you have in complaining about what I write on this blog (in the comment section). But I can see with crystal clarity the predetermined causal factors that have led me to write this ridiculous drivel (and not a serious bone in my bod cares a spit). Can you see the predetermined variables that have led you to leave your insipid comment? Something brought you here and keeps you coming back for more. What electro-chemical impulses are being stimulated? What parts of your brain are literally lighting up as you read this, while for others, not even the barest of sparks?

There are some who are getting very close to understanding this WILL, which is only a hop, skip and a jump to the end of “you.” Those peeps are hanging by a fragile tenuous tether, in which any wrong move could snap it completely.

Then what?

An egocentric ‘self’ contingent on free-willed, deliberate, intentionally, self-determined choice is like a fart on a windy day, gone before you can get a good waft of the wretched stench, leaving you to wonder…

…did that fart really exist after all?

Artwork by Mark Ryden