Thursday, February 14, 2013


Actually, on average, it strikes me about 5 to 6 times a day, and in seemingly 'normal' times too, and that number is growing. I imagine I will soon wake to my own raucous laughter over all the absurdities I will engage with throughout the coming hours....Ha!

Sadly, there are few this can be shared with....

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Who am I? Damn…I forgot.


“It takes a lot to make a memory. New proteins have to be synthesized, neuron structures altered. While some of these memory-building mechanisms are known, many are not. Some recent studies have indicated that a unique group of molecules called microRNAs, known to control production of proteins in cells, may play a far more important role in memory formation than previously thought.” LINK

Indeed, neuron by neuron, science is deconstructing “you" down to tiny little incoherent, totally chaotic, microdots of electrochemical goop.

“And it looks as though miR-182 may be promoting local protein synthesis, helping to support the synapse-specificity of memories.”

Egocentrics are defined exclusively by a past they seek to alter due to its lacking, even though the memory of the past exists as nothing more than synaptical spurts of electrochemical current, lighting up in tandem with current thoughts. Note once again, how you never really leave the moment, because each moment is nothing more than instantaneous brain firings provoking other synapses to engage and fire. Even a memory is… NOW.

And “you” have absolutely nothing to do with any of it....

You have about as much to do with reading this post as I had in writing it…NOTHING, Zero, zilch, nill, nada.

No need to defend any of our brief, episodic, spur-of-the-moment “truths” anymore or…go ahead and defend till your hearts content. You will only ever go where the neurons take you. There is no choice in the matter and that ultimate absence was initiated upon your birth.  

"My mind is preoccupied with past thoughts."

"This idea is, of course, the reason why you see only the past. No one really sees anything. He sees only his thoughts projected outward. The mind's preoccupation with the past is the cause of the misconception about time from which your seeing suffers. Your mind cannot grasp the present, which is the only time there is. It therefore cannot understand time, and cannot, in fact, understand anything.

The one wholly true thought one can hold about the past is that it is not here. To think about it at all is therefore to think about illusions. Very few have realized what is actually entailed in picturing the past or in anticipating the future. The mind is actually blank when it does this, because it is not really thinking about anything.

The purpose of the exercises for today is to begin to train your mind to recognize when it is not really thinking at all. While thoughtless ideas preoccupy your mind, the truth is blocked. Recognizing that your mind has been merely blank, rather than believing that it is filled with real ideas, is the first step to opening the way to vision."
(ACIM, Wkbk Lesson 8).

Artwork by Shaytan666 - "Neuron"

Sunday, February 3, 2013

"Thoughts Just Emerge in Consciousness"



"If you pay attention, you can see that you no more author the next thing you think than the next thing I say...thoughts simply arise in the mind"
-Sam Harris