HUMAN EGOCENTRICA PLAGUE: Symptomatic Stoopid...

Human egocentrica mammalia (or ego sapien, sapiens as opposed to homo sapien sapiens which means "wise person" in latin) is afflicted with a genetically inherited brain disorder that has been symptomatically progressing over the last 400,000 years. The symptoms of this plague have magnified with each generation, resulting in a growing incapacity of the neo-cortex to engage logic or reason (a chief purpose of that brain region), resulting in thoughts, emotions and behaviors that can be classified as symptoms of abject stoopid. 

These symptoms are universal and easily available for observation, not only in the behaviors of others, but in the dumb sheit you do as well, which continues to become more bizarre and absurdly ridiculous with each generation, resulting in an ever greater magnitude of justifying and rationalizing your behaviors as necessary for ego-sapien survival, even though the behaviors are indicative of a collective extinction and though you have no idea who or what the fook you are, you can't resist asserting into the nebulous nether some ridiculous concept of a "self" that demands you be offended and outraged when that self concept is negated by the cold, hard facts of brute reality as opposed to the delusions of institutional facts necessary to keep the circuits plugged into the matrix so the slaves have no compunction to even consider leaving the plantation.

METASTASIS CARCINOMA: The disease caused by an uncontrolled division of abnormal cells in a part of the body. Cancer is a disease in which cells grow and divide with little or no control. LINK

This nefarious carcinoma is no different than any other cancerous affliction defined by an uncontrollable division of abnormal cells. With symptomatic stoopid this uncontrollable division specifically affects the neural circuitry of the frontal lobe which, until recently, has served to provide ego-sapiens with the adaptive qualities necessary for surviving in unique environments and in altering those environments to meet his needs.

Yet, human egocentrica has progressively jettisoned his adaptive capacity as no longer necessary to his survival fitness and instead, has engaged a fixated hypnotized trance, inadvertently sculpting his neural pathways to conform to rogue neural circuits that have absolutely zero purpose in surviving or thriving, causing stoopid to become more obviously symptomatic, based on "stupid is as stupid does," the neural circuitry literally multiplies, hijacking circuits pertaining to logic and reason and rerouting those dendrite pathways to accommodate the cartoon logic of symptomatic stoopid.

The post-modern frontal fat (neocortex) of human egocentrica mammalia meets all the criteria of a carcinomic disease. It is abnormal in that no other species in the natural world has such a progressively engorged brain structure and the cells (neurons) of this fat fissured gelatinous mass, directly behind the forehead, are generating delusional associations, resulting in magnanimously jack-shite stupid behaviors, because "neurons that fire together, wire together" in a self-replicating echolalian feedback loop of rinse and repeat.

This inherited cancerous blight is directly associated with the brain's neuroplastic capacity to generate new circuits as a means of accommodating new experiences based on external influence and the need for survival. Yet, as the biological imperatives of survival lose electro-chemical current, cultural experiences become more patently vacuous, hollow and desolate, the brain generates new circuitry to accommodate to this ever increasing level of absurd emptiness, provoking more absurd behaviors (thought-emotion-behavior feedback loop), which then, subsequently, must be accommodated within the grey matter which, as is historically demonstrative, intensifies in perpetuity until you have the incongruously chaotic shit-storm experienced today on a macro and micro level.

In other words, the mirror neurons within your brain, which adopts social mimicry as a means of social attachment, insures the eventual extinction of human egocentrica mammalia, because behaviors indicative of a full blown, collective train wreck are symptoms of frontal lobe metastasis carcinoma and require, above all other criteria, monotonous repetition. Do anything long enough and any doubt as to the truth and reality of the act fades away like a stinky fart in the wind.

Even though the stoopid shite you do is evidently beyond base levels of pure crazy- town, dumb-arse, your brain has naturally accomodated to your bat-shite stoopid lifestyle as entirely normalized and, hence, your behaviors become stabilized and accentuated, changing only as the need to accommodate ever greater levels of bat-shite stoopid become hard-wired and this is simply in conformance to the evolutionary neural "pruning" process that your neurocircuitry cannot evade or escape, because it gave you life in the first place and survival is always the chief prerogative of every functioning brain (at least on a subcortical level)

Make no mistake, every fabricated fictional perspective you regularly magnify as "real" or "true" will become a hard-wired brain circuit demanding you subconsciously adapt behavior to that fictional perspective as "real," no matter how utterly delusional or illusory the belief, action and behavior conformity is automated. For instance, neuro-circuitry culturally programmed to adapt to the sacrificial Christ ideology will unconsciously modulate sensory apparatus to seek out the persecution of Christ everywhere, even in a slice of burnt toast. The body will always seek direction from neuro-circuited commands, resulting in microscopic cell conformity (neurons) to absurd realities and fictional truths provoking moronic behaviors.

Alas, the younger generation are more rapidly amenable to this frontal lobe carcinoma through the current screen-brain interface in which billions of high speed pixels mimic high speed neural activity resulting in a subconscious facsimile of actual existence that ultimately informs conscious real world behaviors, rerouting neuro-cricuits to direct actual behaviors to instinctively seek out and engage a pixelated fantasy world that simply does not exist anywhere but in the neuro-circuitry of the grey matter resulting in a squinting, open-mouth, plasma screen trance.

"For the younger generation, the course of boredom, disappointment, disillusion and demoralization is almost inevitable. As the products of invisible parents, commercialized education, cradle-to-grave marketing and a profoundly insane marketing programme, they must also assimilate into consumer culture while knowing from the outset that its workings are destroying the planet and jeopardizing their future. Understandably, they have become the trance generation, with an insatiable appetite for any technology that can downsize awareness and blunt the emotions. With society in existential crisis, and emotional life on a steep downward trajectory, trance is today's fastest growing consumer market." LINK

Historically, once afflicted, stoopidity cannot escape itself and, based on the Dunning-Kruger effect, can only replicate and magnify, simply because it has no conscious acknowledgement it even exists (anosognosia), let alone any real understanding of how it subconsciously (all rote, repetitive behavior drops into the subconscious/unconscious to preserve brain resources) informs the aberrant behaviors of the physical organism (human egocentrica mammalia) that the organism persists in manifesting, since the symptomatic nature of frontal lobe carcinoma hijacks the adaptive qualities of the neo-cortex for its own uses, which can only be progressively more stoopid.

I have worked with many ego-sapiens who have found a way to heal themselves from this cancerous plague.  Unfortunately, the healing process of disengaging from symptomatic stoopid is often long and arduous requiring complete abstinence from stoopid which, depending on how long stoopid has been the chief mode of interacting with reality (addiction), can result in numerous relapses back into stoopid. Yet, first one has to acknowledge stoopidity as a means of inoculating oneself from stoopid and this awareness, in and of itself, is entirely unavailable to most human egocentrica mammalians, simply because the frontal lobe circuitry of full blown, nutjob stoopid has become concretely hard-wired through incessant repetition over many years and decades, making egocentric stoopid no different than driving a car, requiring no real conscious thought whatsoever but, like driving a car, ego-sapiens demonstrate an effortlessly flawless performance of stoopid, each and every time.

I have also met with many symptomatic stoopids beyond all and any attempts to rehabilitate, because once the hard-wiring is solidified in the grey matter, the thoughts and behaviors become fixated and stoopidity completely takes over all brain based autonomic functions, the most insidious being the circuits dealing with language and emotion (hence, the chief mode of identifying symptomatic stoopid is by the guttural utterances that reflexively are expelled out their mouths, often with much finger pointing and tremorous gesticulation)

Alas, we are all afflicted my friends, as there is no cure, only palliative measures to subdue the symptoms. Even attaining to the enlightened knowledge that this cancerous plague exists, fails to insure immunity. One need only look to the symptomatic stoopidity of the current U.S. presidential candidates to realize the actual predicament we are in as a species. With a greater acceptance and emulation of abject ignorance with each passing year, ego-sapien as a species is surely doomed.

Artwork by InspiredInsanity

DUNNING-KRUGER EFFECT: Stupid is as Stupid Does...

The history of human egocentrica mammalia (you and me!) has conformed to one chief project and that is to remove himself from the natural order, physically (body) and mentally (mind), denying that he is genetically hard-wired to perform only two chief functions in nature: Survive and reproduce. Clearly his ongoing crusade to override his biological imperatives has resulted in a diseased state with progressively worsening symptoms.

Over centuries human egocentrica has constructed numerous physical and psychological protective shells around himself as a means of extraction from the harsh natural order that allowed him to exist, delusionally proving to himself that he is superior to an unfolding causative order that allowed his enormous frontal lobe to construct fictional narratives of superiority as a means of denying his origin.

He has built entire civilizations to escape causal reality, proving to himself that he is master of his fate and not victim to a naturally unfolding causal order that the rest of the entire universe is subject to, and he has developed billions of ideological constructs, tangled up in his frontal lobe, providing an illusion of reassurance that he is not slave to his own natural instincts and drives that nature has endowed him with and, most assuredly, it is these ideological fabricated mind-games that are essentially causing him to rot from the inside out.

Nature has endowed human ego-sapien with biological imperatives deeply hard-wired in his grey matter and "subconsciously" determining the course of his existence, from the very moment of his birth. His chief biological imperative, or natural mandate, has always been twofold: survive and reproduce and his modern protective civilization has so deeply reformatted, rerouted and reconfigured those drives as to make egocentrica mammalian (you and me) a rotting corpse of confusing, maladaptive and dysfunctional brain impulses.

Human egocentrica's autonomic nervous system naturally evolved to engage fight, flight or freeze physiological mechanisms as a way of insuring survival, but human egocentrica has so massively diluted that biological program as to reconfigure it for an illusionary ego-self survival, to the point that the autonomic nervous system is shutting on and off several times a day, every day, resulting in indefinable damage to his brain and body through cortisol and adrenaline, with a growing number of diseases and an ever growing list of symptoms.

As hunter gatherers his brain his wired to seek food and if he suddenly arrived at a large cache of edible products his instinct demanded he gorge himself, since he could never be certain of the availability of his next meal. Yet, modern egocentrica mammalia comes upon a large cache of food several times a day and still instinctively gorges himself. Today, not only is his fat stinking carcass attended to by diseases arising from his daily gorging, but the food he consumes is utterly devoid of nutritious content resulting in ever more symptoms of mental and physical decay.

The reproductive strategies of egocentrica mammalia have become immensely skewed based on the socially indoctrinated priorities of one sex (female) seeking equitable status with the other sex (male) demanding that the male dilute his natural proclivity to masculine pursuits so as to allow for the weaker sex to obtain superior status (3rd wave radical feminism), thereby, flatly denying 2 million years of natural order to allow for fabricated social constructs, or institutional facts, take priority over brute facts, resulting in girlie-men that no female wants due to their biological drive (hypergamy) for superior genetics to insure more adaptive offspring. Hence, marriage rates and birth rates will steadily decline over the next 50 years naturally resulting in a reduction in the fitness of the species insuring less effective immune systems that fail to fight off microorganisms due to egocentrica's need for convenient, comfortable, climate controlled, sanitary living spaces.

Nevertheless, human egocentrica mammalia presses on with his growing list of phantasmagorical fantasies of altered states of consciousness (religion and spirituality), which he pursues with vigor in the hopes that it will alter the diseased state of his external world, that he sees rapidly eroding right before his very eyes and, thus, relieve him of the ever mounting symptoms arising from this omnipresent awareness that his fabricated environment is literally killing him. Yet, his eyes are easily co-opted and engulfed by his essentially useless enlarged frontal lobe (ego-sapien thinking cap) demanding complete and total denial as a means of maintaining his addictive tendencies to support his high dopamine levels through mass unregulated consumption of super-stimuli, that eventually become exhausted, requiring ever greater novelty to replenish his D2 dopamine receptors which, in time, results in anhedonia or the inability to find pleasure in anything whatsoever, subsequently, demanding ever greater novelty and higher levels of stimulation ("Making love with his ego. Ziggy sucked up into his miyind")

Yet, rather than seek to engage the causative flow of the natural order that allowed for his existence to occur in the first place, he simply pushes on developing ever more ridiculous theories to prove his existence is superior to that which gave him existence and this allows for full denial of his disease as the symptoms of his fat deformed brain begin to increase exponentially.

And all of this has occurred, and will continue to occur unabated, as a result of the delusional belief of his own fooking agency and that he has the volitional free-will do whatever his delusional agency devises, denying that his DNA is only 1% removed from apes and it is that 1% that will result in his extinction due to abject stupidity, which seems to be exactly what that 1% represents.

Clearly and unequivocally, human egocentrica mammalia is a collective victim of the Dunning-Kruger Effect in which he is simply too fooking stupid to recognize how fooking stupid he is and this poses grave portent for his existence as a species.

Dumb things do not survive based on darwin's theory of fitness and because, up to the last thousand years, the evolution of ego-sapiens was entirely based on the wit and invention of his fat frontal lobe. 

The problem is language, which once worked to share ideas aiding the ability to thrive in an uncaring nature (nature don't give a rat's arse about anything), but which now serves to magnify stupidity by veiling it in senseless banal concepts like "gender is a social construct" (tell that to the hens and roosters).

Alas, as a famous philosopher once acclaimed, "stupid is as stupid does," and human egocentrica mammalia is clearly demonstrating how stupendously stupid he is rapidly becoming and this would be really scary if it wasn't so damn entertaining.

"Ha, Ha, Ha, Bless Your Soul...You Really Think You're in Control"

Just had an online converse with a nice chap who follows this blog and after wondered, 'why the fook would anyone follow this blog???'

Funny how life unfolds as it does...

Past experience has shaped the very contours of your brain and "you" go on as if none of that has ever happened, making decisions based on the excitatory and inhibitory electro-chemical impulses darting to and fro in your cranium but, as far as "you" are concerned, that's irrelevant to the decisions "you" make that arise from the fat between your ears.

I'm the boss of "me," gawd dammit!

Your entire life was sculpted to bring you right here, right now. Every experience drove you to the next experience, which influenced the next, on and on, wiring up your head fat to bring you here, today, to this moment right...now. In fact, without the 'happening' of a quadzillion historical precedents, "you" wouldn't even exist. But you do exist in your consciousness as a result of everything occurring exactly as it did over the last 4.543 billion years (none of which, I might add, did "you" have anything to do with in relation to how all that shite happened as it did and could not have happened in any other way than as it did)

You can't be anywhere else then where you are right now, because if you could be somewhere else right now, you would be there and nowhere else, especially not here.

I know, I know...(sigh)... it's a fooking suxs that you're here,  right now, reading this stoopid drivel, while you could be doing something important. But here you are, nonetheless.

But whadefook are you doing here? How the frick did you get here?

I'm from Phila and the surrounding subs. Did 6 yrs in the USMC and enjoyed running around in the woods playing combat and so, 25 yrs ago bought a house in the mountains with plenty of woods to run around in, but got bit by a dirty tic and now have protracted Lyme Disease, that I can handle most days, but right now I'm suffering through a full blown flare up. Right now, as I write these words, I am in total pain (not to mention had to shovel out from the snowpocalypse just dumped on me, which fooked up my back, reminding me that I'm a friggin old man...Lol).

But here I am, right now, right here...

I certainly could be somewhere else and, sometimes, God knows, I would like to be somewhere else then here, but ideas like that now quickly fade in the acceptance that I'm here...now. Not there, but here, encountering the experience here provides. I may NOT like the experience, but why deny it. It is and I'm experiencing it as it is, until it is something else entirely, which it, inevitably, will be and I have nothing whatsoever to do with what it will be when it will be something other than what it is, while for now, it is what it is, and "I" am here now, deeply in it, not wishing to extract out of it, cause that ain't up to me and I understand that fact fully without an inkling of a doubt (HINT: definition of "enlightenment")

I know some of my more astute and assertive readers will respond, "oh, how sweet, Mikey's giving us the 'be here now' script that we've all heard a million times before." Ha!

This "enlightenment" shite really sucks sometimes, but when you're here, there's nowhere else to be but here...

"It's my party, and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to, cry if I want to
You would cry too if it happened to you."

Artwork by Naoto Hattori

DOPAMINE: Shut up, sit back...and fry, baby!

I would suggest that anyone seeking to fry his/her motherboard just do nothing for long periods of time, because just sitting back and letting the brain do its shite, without firing up socially programmed neural response circuits, tends to accelerate the burning up of programmed neural response circuits.

In other words, to be more succinct, the more "spiritual" you attempt to be (by adopting "spiritual" ideologies and practices) the more you seem to think you can avoid the boiling putrid Crisco of life that your brain must fry in, the more likely you miss out on the experience of being fried. Just sit around day after day and let all the shite of your don't-worry-be-happy existence just drop in the pan to be fried in the hot oil of nothingness, so that the edges are crispy golden brown and absolutely tasteless.

Besides, since your day to day existence is predicated primarily on subconscious thought processes arising from hardwired genetically programmed instinctual drives, (survival and mating instincts) or that which requires no conscious attention whatsoever, post-modern human egocentrica mammalia seems to have placed entirely too much value on his conscious thought processes, which only result in cascading fountains of anxiety, depression, anger and guilt, because his subconscious processes, those hard-wired circuits endowed him by the determined causal order, has it's proverbial 'hand up his butt, moving his head to and fro, while he vomits senseless words that have no meaning and nobody gives a good rat's arse about, but that he thinks makes a difference in the grand scheme of the unfolding universe that allowed him existence.

I mean, lets face it, Einsteins wonderous theory of relativity has not made one bit of difference in the fact that "all men ever think about is sex" and "why do all women pick jerks" (instinctual drives motivating human egocentrica mammalia since the days he survived on a Paleo diet, which he now desires to return to for some God only knows reason)

But for me to 'suggest' that "you" engage a particular behavior, would require the seemingly tangled mass of brain circuitry in your cranial head cheese be formatted exactly in such a way that my suggestion would provoke a comprehensive engagement of the necessary neurons firing in the precise sequence to light up the brain in a perfectly coordinated transmission of synaptic messages down trillions of miles of dendritic fibers to eventually branch out to the body, ergo, demanding the behavior be performed as 'suggested' and, even then, with slight and gross nuances as to how that behavior was performed, based on other circuits that existed long before the influence of my 'suggestion,' but altering exactly how my 'suggestion' was processed by the brain....

...and all in virtual nanoseconds, without any conscious intent, whatsoever

But I wouldn't recommend adopting any particular ideological practice or meditation (religio-spiritual) since that tends to result in additional circuitry which will eventually need to tossed in the deep frier, and your post-modern brain is already suffocatingly inundated with miles of circuitry that serves little purpose then to insure the cat litter is emptied on a weekly basis and instinctually motivated sexual urges are engaged in a timely manner.

Dump your asanas, your jhana's and your chakra's, etc, etc, etc (cognitive neuro-circuits allowing for additional circuit-forming alliances in the brain to ideological bovine excrement, that only results in the arousal of D2 dopamine receptors in the reward centers between your ears).

Ignore your socially programmed "enlightenment" concepts (which tend to engage amygdala and hippocampus neurochemical transmissions that we call "emotions" based on your imaginary "desires" for some physio-mental state devoid and extracted from nature) and your umpteen million formulations of "awakening" that your dopamine (motivational/seeker chemical) allows you to invest in while paying for the guru's health insurance and 2015 Beemer.

Just jettison all that historical human egocentric mammalian psycho-spirituo-religio-ideo drama and let the brain perform it's natural process of neuro-circuit pruning (weeding the garden). Sit your boring, mundane arse down in a chair, follow the breathe, and let your slow cooker do the work.

I can guarantee that when you come out of it you will be like barbecued pulled-pork. Succulent, juicy and mouth-watering, in that nothing makes any sense and it all falls apart in the bun, while the grease that squirts on your tie doesn't come out in the wash.

Your addictive dependence on neurally programmed mental scripts (beliefs) are no different than the junkies dependency on heroin and, when the drug is absent, withdrawal will be painful (obviously depending on the frequency, intensity and duration of the addiction), because dopamine (the seeker/motivational brain chemical) will demand you pursue your spiritualized drug of choice, until brain 'tolerance' demands you seek another more novel drug, and then another and another and another until...flat earther's (This is an example of what happens when the neuro-circuitry of the brain becomes a tangled thicket of confused excitatory and inhibitory impulses all competing for superiority within an addictive stupor)

You have been in the neuroplastic 'pruning' process since the moment you were born, only neuro-circuit formation was predominant in the development of the younger forming brain, while other needless womb-based circuits were eliminated as useless. But genetics must always precede social programming in that there must be a regression or circuit pruning as age increases (definition of senility). This age-dependent pruning is not contingent on any 'free-will,' just as pruning of circuits outside of Alzheimer's is not contingent on free-will but demonstrates consequences absent senility, but similar.

Human egocentrica mammalia considers 'Alzheimers' a diseased brain state, while "enlightenment," through a long process of circuit shutdown is considered a progression of understanding through pruning of useless circuitry. Yet neither engage any semblance of free-will, since any and all attempts to make it happen are predetermined by a causal order that, from the start, has clearly predetermined every event that has ever been manifested for your full enjoyment or abject suffering.

Hence, my 'suggestion' to simply keep doing what your doing (sex, drugs and rock and roll) and let the brain do it's thing is absurd to programmed brain circuitry that requires constant action and behavior in order to activate dopamine receptors, through which all life is experienced and eventually destroyed, as is clearly demonstrated by human egocentrica mammalia, whose dopamine based arousal addiction motivates him to decimate his ecosystem in complete utter ignorance that his need for arousal will eventually cause his extinction (such is the nature of the dopamine dependent human egocentrically fooked-up brain which nature allowed to unfold in its current structure and so, human egocentric mammalia is slave to that structure because he will never, despite his chronic endeavor to the contrary, extract himself from the natural order that allows his dumb arse to exist in the first place and run around performing the stoopid shite that gives him pleasure by consistently raising his dopamine).

Which makes this entire post a goddamn waste of my fookin' time and, hence, every preceding post equally wasteful, based on socially conditioned beliefs as to what is and is not a waste of fookin' time and anytime spent by your reading it is equally as useless.

But I got a good goddamn dopamine rush outa writing it!

PREFRONTAL CORTEX: "Flying with the Pixies"

"Your mind, your soul, your hopes, your dreams, your emotions is about a cantaloupe size of meat crackling with electricity inside your skull. There's nothing sancrosanct about altered states of consciousness.

You've always been told that altered states of consciousness are higher states of consciousness. The hallmark is that altered states of consciousness is the subtraction of all the mental faculties that make us so special in the animal kingdom. Hypofrontality means that the very pinnacle of human evolution, the prefrontal cortex, must be down regulated, which means that you lose these higher cognitive functions that make us so special. 

All altered states of consciousness are lower states of consciousness. You connect to nothing but your own reduced mind. Some people find the idea repugnant, beneath the significance of the mystical experience and that's alright if you want to hold onto some sort of stone age, medieval sense of spirituality, but I think you will only find this counterintuitive if you hold onto the idea that in those special moments, when you catch a glimpse of some parallel, mental universe, in those very moments, the mind, somehow, can transcend the machinery of the brain, become a ghost in the machine, ride above the fray, and enter some sort of platonian world of eternal truth and beauty in flying off with the pixies." (quote from video below)

The prefrontal cortex is where "you" exist. Right behind the eyes is the "I-me." The ego-self is a product of a huge frontal lobe, the size of which is not found in any other species. It's where self-actualizing egocentric decisions arise and these ego-self conceptualizations influence the neuro-chemistry of the brain, thereby, influencing the body. 

What else could "enlightenment" be, but a complete reduction of prefrontal activity (ego-self) and what other than prefrontal lobe "thought" thrusts you into your own personal heaven or hell based on conceptual interpretations made in that brain region? Suffering is a prefrontal phenomenon occurring right behind your eyes and found nowhere else between your ears.

Hence, as can be clearly interpreted from current neuroscience research, any higher state of consciousness, i.e., "awakening," "enlightenment," etc, is nothing more than a progressive shutdown of the prefrontal cortex and for most, this shutdown is brief, (a kind of spasmodic blip of depersonalization, which occurs naturally for many peeps not seeking "enlightenment") after which the prefrontal then floods with conceptual interpretations as to what just happened, ("I have attained spiritual awakening!" or "Oh my fucking god, I'm going crazy!") which then results in firing up the reward centers of the brain (source of all addictions) or the fear-survival centers, to the point that the conceptual description of the experience becomes an addictive response which, through reward-based synaptic impulses, is pontifically verbalized ad infinitum, ad nauseam (eg, Eckhardt Tolle, Deepak Chopra, etc.), but from fear-based impulses can lead to mental illness and concomitant physiological symptoms.

Yet, alas, without repetitive experiences to reinforce the conceptualized interpretation, the electro-chemical current begins to dissipate and eventually the memory circuits dissolve and you are left with a spiritualized conceptual definition that means nothing, because the experience has dissolved into nothingness.

Pain is immediate, but suffering is simply your chronic, prefrontally generated, complaints of pain, repeated incessantly in the prefrontal cortex (the thinking cap of human egocentrica mammalia). To be more specific, right behind the eyes is where almost all insanity prevails (neuroscience shows how the prefrontal cortex actually shrinks in chemical and behavioral addictions, resulting in poor decision-making and frequent relapses and this is called "hypofrontality").

As Cognitive Therapy proclaims, "it's not reality that disturbs you, but your interpretation of reality," and all interpretation is a product of prefrontal hard-wiring. Interpretation of reality is a conditioned response and after many decades that hard-wiring becomes immune to neuro-plasticity (change) because, for wiring to remain 'hard,' it requires vigilantly filtering out opposing data that might disprove the interpretation to essentially demonstrate how stupid you are (and in post-modern social order, acknowledging your stupidity is tantamount to death).

Since all "enlightenment" is a prefrontal product, while the rest of your brain, bio-genetically functioning to keep your dumb arse alive, has no interest in your prefrontal hocus pocus bullsheit and keeps doing it's thing no matter how expertly you have memorized and repeatedly provide lip-service to the Deepak Chopra quotes that gets you all jiggy in your neuro-circuited reward centers.

So here's the rub, peeps. The difference between my "enlightenment" and the "enlightenment" you seek is that I have arrived at a state where what arises from the prefrontal cortex has absolutely no significance whatsoever...to the prefrontal cortex. In other words, the prefrontal cortex is now hard-wired to cease to care what the prefrontal cortex...'thinks.' In other words, even though the prefrontal lobe (location of the 'mind') cannot stop 'thinking,' it simply has lost the capacity to care (give a rat's arse) what it thinks.

The operative term/signifier is "care," which is indicative of experiencing "emotion" and, contrary to general opinion, emotion is also a neuro-chemically induced brain state influencing bodily/physiological symptoms through the central nervous system (and peripheral nerves), but it is prefrontally 'conceptualized' (while actual emotion is more grounded in the hippocampus and amygdala, yet, engaging reward centers throughout the brain) and this is maintained through fixating on the "enlightenment" concept which is NOT "enlightenment." This is similar to those who experience "panic attacks," in which hypothetical fears, produced in the prefrontal, generate physiological symptoms throughout the entire body, even though the fear is hypothetical or NOT real.

Hypothetical "enlightenment" makes you feel good for a time. But without an accompanying actual experience (depersonalization), those circuits soon wither on the vine and eventually the brain will "prune" them out and your enlightened emancipation proclamation will become more psycho-spiritual drivel to be completely forgotten (i.e, Eckhardt Tolle, Deepak Chopra, etc).

Just as the prefrontal lobe can generate hypothetical terror, and the accompanying psychosomatic symptoms based on unreal fears not oriented to reality, it can also generate intense feelings (symptoms) of joy and pleasure, and the accompanied physical psychosomatic symptoms based on hypothetical thoughts of enlightenment not oriented to reality.

ENLIGHTENMENT: Forgive Them, They Know Not What They Do...

Human egocentrica mammalian's live 90% of their lives entirely from the subconscious, simply because 90% of their life requires no conscious thought whatsoever (ritualistic robotic repetition) and is lived primarily through biological imperatives and programmed mandates conforming to social conventions, keeping him on a chronically reflexive autopilot without any conscious awareness or individual decisiveness indicative of a free-will directed autonomous 'being.'

When you drive your car to a known destination no actual conscious thought is engaged to arrive at that predetermined destination. You did engage millions of unrelated thought-circuits in your conscious frontal cortex, but not one of them involved the act of driving (mostly thinking about dumb sheit, at least from my experience). You've done it a thousand of times, what need to consciously think about it?

90% of your life is, and will  forever be, lived on complete autopilot. "You" are a homogenized amalgamation of biological drives competing with societal mandates for which to subdue and manage those drives, resulting in your despondently depressed disengaged state of hopelessness and, as the brain interfaces with techno-civilization, (determined to be completely devoid of any influence from nature) a state of abject chaotic scizophrenia, mixed with a dash of delusional hope, and mountains of denial, that human frontal lobe conscious thought will eventually save the day...ha!

Your central nervous system is a programmed hard-drive and 90% of your life is lived on complete auto-pilot. Yet, you loudly rejoice and revel in the 10% of your experience you can even consciously access, which is really nothing more than externally influenced sputtering of already engaged ideas, and proudly proclaim the fooking bovine excrement that comes out your pie hole as your "beliefs," to be manna from heaven (I mean, come on...who really gives a shiny rat's arse what "I" believe???)

You've not one unique thought in that gelatinous tangled web securely located behind your eyeballs and within the dark recesses of your cranial cavity. Genetically, your brain is only 1% removed from apes and, hence, you are essentially a moron (but then, me too!)

Many seek to consciously override subconscious hard-wiring, which is remotely possible due to brain neuroplasticity, but your impatience knows no bounds, as you respond to external stimuli with knee-jerk, automatic precision, each response reinforcing that it will be replicated in exactitude when the moment calls for it. Is it any wonder your life is a fookfest and, except for brief moments of respite, has never been but a fest of fook?

Your modern CNS has been unconsciously victimized by routine mechanized behaviors (programmed by previously experienced repetitive stimuli) that you have no control over, simply because of neurally sculpted social conditioning, that began the moment you left the womb, and allowed you to become the docile, mundane indentured servant that your social order required.

Is it any wonder why human egocentrica mammalian's so deeply adore directly seeking the experiences of conscious thought, ideologically accessed through the frontal lobes, with all it's beliefs, opinions, morals, values, etc, all of which makes up a mere 10% of brain activity, but that allows you to assert into the world a "self" that you demand be much more than a mechanized mass of neural circuitry, but can never be anything but that...ever.

"Relax," said the night man, we are programmed to receive, you can check out anytime you like......but you can never leave" - Eagles 

The "subconscious" is nothing more than neuro-circuitry that is lost, and inaccessible, to conscious awareness (the neural realm where "you" seem to reside) and that "you" have nothing to do with, in terms of automatic synaptic messages sent through electro-chemical impulses that "you" do not control, and that "you" live out your life completely unaware of, but are at the mercy of every single moment of your life, yet continually struggle, day after day, to find and assert an 'I-me' into that tangled mass of electro-chemical impulses subconsciously firing off in 3 lbs of fat cheese within a cranial shell that you reverently refer to as "I-me."

We can't say that you're in denial of this, because you actually have no 'knowledge' of it's occurring, as it does, day after day, year after year. There are certain particular processes that you can become cognizant of and change (like addictions), but only because those are blatantly demonstrative and apparent in your constant fooked up behaviors, while all others are subtle, unconscious ripples in the grey matter between your ears, and yet, they have have grave repercussions on ALL your future behaviors.

"In the brain, neurons that fire together, wire together" (quote from a really astute neuroscientist) You simply have NO idea why you continue to do the shite you do, in response to the shite others do, and, most likely, you will never know, because of mental associations unconsciously constructed in your childhood, even before you encountered your 'self' for the very first time, the brain was busy wiring up experiences, unbeknownst to "you."

This poses the question: If 90% of all human egocentrica mammalia's life is performed from subconscious impulses, and those impulses have resulted in the current deplorable state of affairs he now finds himself, is there really any hope that collective human egocentrica mammalia will ever find a way out of the apocalypse he is rapidly heading toward because of his subconscious directives, since his best conscious 'thinking' got him there in the first place?

The revered "enlightenment" and "awakening" practices, that you have been taught by your "master guru" will result in your own enlightened state, are predicated on a conscious mind that only directs 10% of your daily existence and completely fails to account for, or is even aware of, subconscious processes that require 90% of your cranial fatty tissue, the very processes that keeps your physical body alive.

"forgive them lord, for they know not what they do." - The Christ Dude


Obviously, the most profound, and scientifically verifiable, statement ever proclaimed.....

Artwork by Aegis Strife

Freedom Bows to Slavery...

Cries for freedom are absurd, because they ignore the bondage to nature, which ignores social conventions, is not even aware of social conventions and so, couldn't give a rat's arse about what roles you conform to when the roles of the natural world can NOT be denied and all your attempts at denying this merely dump you into a suicidal black hole of despondency.

Yet, if you are dwelling in that black hole of despondency, if your personal "world" is crumbling under your feet, make no mistake, the need for this is paramount and there's nothing "you" can do because you are simply not in charge and every instance of chaos is an attempt to prove this...

...until you get it.

And that is the definition of "enlightenment."

UNDERSTANDING: Your Delusion of Control is Completely Beyond Your Control Because "Your" Life does not Belong to "You"

In a universe predetermined by an unfolding causal order, your life has become exactly what it is and will continue to be exactly what it has been destined to be based on the predetermined route it must continue to follow, in direct proportion to all the influences that impacted upon "you" (and continue to impact upon your brain circuits), and the hard-wired responses that inform you of what to think, feel and do, again, based on the influences that impacted upon you in the past.

This is called imprinting and, like Conrad's chicks, your impressionable neurally programmed brain is no different. You will respond ONLY as you are programmed to respond. What other way could you respond than from the mental scripts provided? 

Yet, you can easily identify your programmed responses if you would only analyze the patterns and, make no mistake, your life has been neurally scripted to acutely follow ingrained patterns and what those patterns display has been demonstrably repetitive.

Yet, the chief conundrum of your life, and attempts at implementing change, is that even after identifying the dumb sheit you repetitively do, you are so deeply hardwired that you cannot fathom a way out of your patterned stoopidity (particularly in relation to subconscious neural circuitry, outside only the most diligent attempts at re-routing).

With each passing year any understanding of why you continually do what you do, drifts further from your capacity to neuroplastically alter the pattern, based on the extensive socially conditioned hard-wired brain circuits that have determined all your responses, because the shaping and molding of your neural pathways began before 'you' even knew you had a 'self' and continue to influence every thought of that 'self,' thereby, determining and directing all subsequent behavior and action...up until the day the brain shuts down.

As long as you consider your "self" the point of origin to the choices you make, you will never "awaken," since the motherboard is pitifully overloaded with useless neural circuitry requiring copious amounts of electro-chemical juice (origin of all post-modern stress/anxiety disorders, based on the stress chemical cortisol).

That understanding has eluded human egocentrica mammalia for millions of years and, as he becomes ever more concretely entranced and transfixed in his techno-fooked existence, that understanding will drift ever further, since he becomes ever more robotically obsessed with the current post-modern, mind-numbing technological psychosis, a delusional matrix psychosocially normalized as real, that now drives his dopamine receptors to seek out pseudo-realities, illuminated by pixels through bytes of fabricated information provided through plasma screens, to achieve varying levels of pleasure, motivation and well-being (dopamine is the chief neurochemical protagonist and has directed you entire life and it, not "you," determines the direction of your life. Learn about dopamine, because everything you have ever learned and every value you hold dear is the result of this brain chemical alone).

The understanding is simple and, contrary to the socialized message that has been mercilessly ground into your neuro-circuited head fat, it is available only by "pruning" away the chaotically ensconced neural morass that is useless to your fully understanding what is actually taking place in between your ears, but robotically directs your every action in a neurally processed dream state. But the brain does that, not "you."

"You" are only along for the ride, which includes the delusion that you are the driver and determine the destination...

Yet, for the few that experience a fried motherboard (not by choice) they grok the simplicity of each and every moment in the realization that...

...your life does not belong to "you."

The brain circuits have determined who "you" are and neuro-chemistry has determined exactly how you feel, what you do and, from the moment of birth, it has been vigilantly developing neural pathways that makes 'who' you were, into what you are now, and will continue along that trajectory until the moment it shuts down, allowing you to be what you were always destined to become...

...dead.

What every famous spiritual guru failed to accurately elucidate is that, to be "in the moment," is to surrender to the brain. Only the mythological "Buddha" understood that "events happen, deeds are done, but there is no individual doer of any deed," and your mind/brain can only rebel furiously over the possibility that this could in any way be true.

If there is no "doer," than what exactly should you be doing to be free?

The brain that determines your thoughts, feelings and behavior is a product of a universal causal unfolding that has determined every moment of your life and has left "you" completely out of that loop, other than allowing the delusion that you were in control, a delusion that is the source of all depression, anxiety, anger and guilt, essentially, all "mental illness" known today.

All mental illness is a rebellion over the complete lack of control and, in post-modern society, is increasing exponentially, as chaos reigns supreme.

Yet, your life seems to belong to "you," even though "you" (and science) have failed to actually identify where in the grey matter "you" actually exist, if "you" exist at all, nevertheless, you proudly (an emotion not available anywhere else in nature) proclaim the thoughts, feelings, behaviors and actions that your brain circuitry demands be engaged, become a factually grounded product of an amalgamated, homogenized, concrete, and clearly irreducible, "you," but you can accurately prove none of it, thereby, indicating it is only a feeling based on faulty data processing that could easily be corrected if enough circuits were constructed to engage this understanding as a means of short-circuiting decades of ignorance (but, of course, that is entirely outside your egocentric realm of control, simply because you have no control).

In fact, if you look closely, the specific direction of your entire life as been influenced by factors completely outside your control and the responses you provided to those influences were outside your control, since you did what you "thought" was necessary, even though now, you kick yourself for not doing otherwise.

Have you noticed the repetitive nature of your life? Have you taken note of your repeat performances? The cyclical nature of the rise and fall of your brief, but highly precious, moments of "happiness"? The chaos and order constantly inherent to all your relationships? The repetitive nature of all your addictions? The rise and fall of your numerous sufferings? The absolute ignorance wrapped up in your delusional dreams of "success"?

"It is only when the ego himself comes to the conclusion, from personal investigation into his own personal experience, that his every single action has been based on some prior happening over which he has had no control, that he is finally compelled to surrender his sense of personal doership, that no one is the doer of any action, neither himself nor the ‘other’, that all that happens at any moment, through any body-mind organism is brought about by the Primal Energy functioning through each body-mind-organism, according to God’s will or the Cosmic Law." Balsekar, Ramesh S. (2012-06-21). Confusion No More: For the Spiritual Seeker (Kindle Locations 88-92). Watkins Publishing. Kindle Edition. 

You have never been in control of anything and even your delusion of being in control is beyond your control. But belief in making free-will choices was necessary to weave a social tapestry with institutions based entirely on your deeply inherent experience of guilt, based on choices you made or failed to make... correctly. And now you are stuck with it. Without the endemic acceptance of guilt, civilization could never have unfolded as it has and your fear of not meeting the standards has been the chief factor of the post-modern capitalistic system of enslavement and the construction of the post-modern world.

You will die, deeply enmeshed in existential guilt that you didn't do enough to be the best you could be, in a culture that demands you experience guilt, because you could never do enough to be the best that you could be, because what that culture only desires is for you to experience guilt and, hence, you have achieved what the culture requires as a means of cultural control.

Game over....



Artwork by Mark Ryden - "Saint Barbie"

The 'Sheit Happens' Prayer

I just completed another day that I had nothing to do with and sheit happened as it always does.

Funny how this seems to be the pattern of each and every day, although, deeply enmeshed within that pattern is the socially conditioned idea that "I-me" is in charge of the sheit that happened within that 24 hr period and that it's completely up to "I-me" how I deal with the sheit that happened.

Looking back on the thoughts, feelings and behaviors of the day it becomes crystal clear...

...my responses to the sheit that happened was, like the sheit that happened, completely outside "my" control and simply more sheit happening.

The responses to the sheit happening was just more sheit happening and was directed by neuro-circuited habituated impulses wired up in cranially based fatty tissue, all firing off under the direction of countless neuro-chemical interactions, i.e. dopamine, serotonin, enkephalins, endorphins, epinephrine, norepinephrine, glutamate, acetylcholine, etc,and numerous hormonal interactions (do you really think you have control over this sheit?), as well as sundry other psycho-emotive medicinals such as oxyticin, progestin, cortisol, etc, etc, etc.

Of all the ways I could have responded to the sheit that happened, my brain chose that particular way, because it had no choice based on trillions of miles of enmeshed dendrite circuits. 

How can "I-me' be responsible for the actions based on the impulses of a genetically/culturally programmed bodily organ (brain) when, in fact, that organ was primarily constructed in my formative years without any active participation on my part. Is "I-me" responsible for keeping the heart beating? Is "I-me" responsible for the lungs filling with air? Of course, most organs do what they are genetically programmed to do and this is no different for the brain that must respond to external influences from survival circuits deep within its core.

Your brain is a part of the grand universal expanse that is the causally predetermined natural order and...

...not a part of "you." 

For those who fully "grok" this understanding, living within the parameters of such an absence of control can be exhilarating. But it is a hard pill to swallow and can take years, even decades to neuro-plastically prune back useless "I-me" responsibility circuits. Although this may seem like an assertion of control, it is actually the brain rerouting unused circuits attributed to free-will and control and it will be the brain and not "you" that engages that process. In fact, that process may eventually deconstruct "you" entirely.

Yet, I cannot deny the reflexive response engaging my "self" to experience guilt when sheit was bad and pride when sheit was good, such is the powerful nature of habituated impulses hard-wired in head fat. Yet, currently, this engagement is consistently brief and I quickly return to my original absence of free-will and, in realizing I have nothing to do with any of this...

...sheit that just happens.

For human egocentrica mammalians the idea of controlling nature, the nature that is simply a part of a predetermined causal order that directs all sentient and non-sentient existence, is paramount and, in a world overly populated by human egocentrics, all the sheit they do to assert control over their unique personal world, which is inextricably enmeshed in other personal worlds, results in an insane cacophony, growing exponentially in magnitude and intensity to a point where most egocentrics are actually beginning to realize that they are in control of nothing and everything is gradually becoming completely uncontrollable

No matter what precautions you undertake. No matter how much education and learning you employ to insure your protected from certain sheit happening. No matter how much planning you meticulously engineer to avoid sheit from happening in ways you desire NOT...

...sheit just happens.

Even when good sheit happens, I no longer seem to care. For a brief moment I'm all jiggy with it, but that fades fast, causing me to fall back into my "sheit happens" baseline mental state, understanding that in a dualistic world, sheit happens dualistically. That's the state I'm in 99% of the time. I move from moment to moment waiting to see what sheit happens, because some kinda sheit always happens.

It's kinda like living in a state of perpetual surprise, I'm always fascinated about the sheit that happens when it happens, as it always does.

Through understanding that your not in control of anything, when sheit happens, it's okay. Simply because you understand, on a deep reptilian brain level (yep, that's how deep the 'understanding' has to go to be truly "done" with the sheit that happens), that in the grand scheme of things the sheit that happened was supposed to happen exactly as it happened or it simply would not have happened as it happened when it happened.

The question you need to ask your "self" is, when sheit happens, "why do I think sheit should have happened differently than the sheit that happened exactly as it did? Why do I think the sheit happening that is my life should be some other sheit happening? Why do I spend my days gritting and grinding over the sheit that is my life, when it had to happen exactly as it did and has to be exactly what it is or it would be different than what it is."

Let us recite the "sheit happens" prayer:

God grant me the serenity to accept that sheit happens.
(good and bad. It's all just sheit happening)
The courage to know that I can't stop sheit from happening.
And the wisdom to just let sheit happen as it happens, when it happens,
cause it always happens exactly as it does and couldn't happen any other way
and my response to sheit happening will happen exactly as that sheit should happen, each and every time.

AhfookingMen.....



Artwork by Igor Morski

The Predetermined Mating Habits of Human Egocentrica Mammalia

After a very long hiatus in the field, studying the behaviors of human egocentrica mammalia, I have returned from their petroleum based habitats to provide a field report.

This report focuses on the genetically predetermined mating habits of human egocentrica mammalia.

However, the important point emphasized throughout this report (a point this blog has relentlessly proclaimed) is that the chief factor differentiating the human egocentrica mammalian species from all other species in the natural world is that egocentrica mammalians believe they have a "self" that makes choices free of external and internal influences, free of biological imperatives, neuro-circuited hard-wiring and other, sundry, instinctual drives.

Such belief is patently absurd when considered in depth, but the human egocentric mammalian, though constantly engaged in thought processes to the point of utter madness, is not very adept at plumbing any real depth attributable to his/her ability to process "thought."

Nature has allowed human egocentrica the gift/curse of 'selfhood' and through it human egocentrica constructs monstrous civilizations to try and further remove himself (albeit, fruitlessly, as will be demonstrated) from the natural predetermined causal order that allowed him existence in the first place, but that will inevitably end up allowing him to entirely destroy himself (those signs can be seen all around him, yet he continues to "deny," which, of course, is the first stage in the "Stages of Grief" process).

The mating habits of human egocentrica mammalia is one of the many aspects of his life that he believes he has complete conscious cognitive/behavioral control (pertaining to both sexes of the egocentric tribe). Similar to 99% of the behaviors he engages in, his mating habits are entirely under subconscious direction, leaving him no conscious idea why he actually does what he does, but nevertheless shaping and molding the behaviors needed to have his instinctual drives satisfied. Human egocentrica remains deeply incarcerated in his sub-neural, subconscious 'hard wiring,' that was originally initiated in the womb, only to become concretely reinforced in his grey matter as he developed in physical maturity, insuring the instinctual directive of the predetermined, and continually unfolding, causal order, would be followed even through the complicated moral conventions of the post-modern world branded into the frontal cortex..

Hence, all his/her mating habits, that he/she believes are consciously and volitionally chosen, are completely and inextricably predetermined and genetically hard wired between his ears and outside the purview of a 'self' engaging the delusion of free-will. The mating habits of egocentrica are no different than the primordial directives to eat, sleep, shit, seek safety and survive and, regardless of all his rampant intellectualizing, he is bound to these natural directives unless he cognitively seeks to ignore them at his peril (suicide).

As evolutionary psychology demonstrates, sexual habits of egocentrica mammalians are entirely based in genetically programmed imperatives that are not that difficult to observe in egocentrica's fabricated world, and have nothing to do with any conscious decision-making the egocentric species prides themselves on. 

The male of the species has a prime directive to engage sexually with all the females because it is biologically imperative that he spread his DNA far and wide. The biological imperative of the female is just the opposite, but just as basic, and requires her choosing the best DNA to insure survival of her offspring (hypergamy). These two genetically programmed imperatives are hard-wired into his/her brain and are just as manifest in modern times as they were when we were tribal hunter-gatherers.

Translate this into our post-modern era and we can understand the need to invent the social convention of pair-bonding/marriage in support of a monogamous lifestyle, since allowing only Alpha males to procreate would serve as a weak foundation for a social order/state that requires a population of obedient workers/soldiers.

Unfortunately, this confinement of mating within strict socially prescribed boundaries failed to consider the opposing subconscious biological imperatives of the sexes and it is becoming ever more clear that monogamy is no longer a tenable strategy resulting in the complete unfolding and disruption of the social fabric, since the female hypergamous nature demands she engage sexually with the Alpha and seek only provisioning from the Beta.

The female egocentrica has complete control of procreation and the sexual act (baring rape), while the male controls his choice of commitment/relationship, simply because the male is hard-wired to want sex often, while the female is wired to engage commitment as a prerequisite of frequent sex and this harks back to hunter-gatherer times and the requiring the protection of the Alpha male. Hence, in the modern world the male egocentrica wants sex often and based on the prevailing social convention has socially contracted (marriage) to have sex often, but with only one female. However, he does not get to choose that female, since his job is to strut around like a peacock in the hopes she will choose him and, if he possesses the genetically valuable Alpha traits that insures the survival of her offspring, she will receive his DNA and his protection/provisioning.

Yet, the problem of marriage is twofold. The female's hypergamy demands dissociation from the betasized male, resulting in reduction or discontinuance of sex, demanding the Beta do more to acquire it, resulting in loss of attraction by the female, since Alphas need do nothing to acquire sex due to their Alpha status. Quite simply, the male seeks extramarital sex due to his imperative to spread his genetics to other females, while the female seeks extramarital sex to entertain her desire to acquire the genetics of the Alpha.

"All men want is sex" and "why do women like jerks" are common refrains of post-modern male/female egocentrica mammalians, in an attempt to deny genetic imperatives, as if they had a choice in the matter. Yet, mother's of male child egocentrics are the chief protagonists in maintaining the social fabric by engineering the neuro-circuitry of the male egocentric offspring to believe that his chief preoccupation should be the adoration and worship of the egocentric female, which is completely counter the actual inclination of the Alpha, adhering to the "fuck 'em and forget 'em" modus operandi. Alpha males do NOT commit to any one female egocentric in their desire to impregnate ALL female egocentrics, yet the Beta male is thus socially programmed to seek out and commit to one female, who will eventually tire and become bored with the Beta, since she is genetically programmed for Alpha attraction, and will thus one day encounter an Alpha for whom she will sacrifice everything to receive his genetic material on a regular basis (resulting in the hugely lucrative "divorce" industry which generates billions annually, of which over 50% of marriages end in divorce and of that 50% over 70-75% are initiated by the female egocentrica mammalian).

Nevertheless, even with the lunacy of this mating strategy, the Beta male is so deeply indoctrinated to follow socially programmed scripting(prefrontal cortex), the genetically predetermined nature of his initial idealistic, Disneyesque, matrimonial bliss will only turn to abject melancholy (Major Depression is rampant for males in the U.S.) when everything he does for the female, to insure her receptiveness to his genetic material, only results in rejection, since Alphas need do nothing based on their status in the social hierarchy, and the more he does to engage it the greater her disrespect and contempt and the farther she moves away (Briffaults law: "The female, not the male, determines all the conditions of the animal family. Where the female can derive no benefit from association with the male, no such association takes place") until one day the Alpha finds his way to her lusting heart and the marital fantasy of the Beta is crushed like a grape and he must part with half of all his shit, rarely see his offspring (if at all) and reward her a monthly salary (alimony) for her choice to engage the Alpha who will use her, until the next willing female egocentrica mammalian engages his fancy, at which point he tosses her aside.

But note that all of this is occurring based on genetically hard-wired directives and no conscious intention is engaged. Egocentrica makes his/her best attempt to conform to the social conventions but, alas, his/her deeper instincts will always run the show. The masculine/feminine sexual instinct of human egocentric mammalia is the absolute driving force of post-modern society and can be identified in every engagement he encounters.

This is obviously why your "enlightened master teacher" fell from grace. His "enlightenment" was a product of a programmed post-modern prefrontal-cortex, while his copulating with the 22 yr old student was motivated by neuro-circuitry deep within his reptilian brain stem, that even his prefrontal cortex could not impede or obstruct.

Your "enlightenment" is entirely based on your recognition that "you" are in charge of nothing at all, whatsoever, and it couldn't be any simpler to finally be..."done," in the illuminating recognition that a "self" in charge of nothing at all, is a self that cannot possibly exist.


Artwork by Enthyros Van Akel

What Happens Next, Just Fooking Happens Next...

I have no idea what will happen next.

Correction. I have many ideas of what will happen next, but I lack the care and concern as to what will happen next, which removes me from demanding what happens next conform to my ideas of what happens next and, hence, what happens next, just fooking happens, exactly as it always does.

Your life has always been fooking happening, regardless of your attempts to make it conform to your ideas of what happens next, because what happens next always just fooking happens. 

In addition, I also realize that what happens next had to happen next, based on what happened before, and how my brain is hard-wired to deal with what happened before and, subsequently, with what will happen next, and that specific hard-wiring was constructed in my formative yrs, in which I was allowed no choice in what experiences impacted my brain and shaped my neuro-circuitry to respond to what happens next, but those un-chosen experiences of early childhood, without doubt, have brought me, over many years, to what happens next, because what happens next requires a response, and I will respond to what happens next as I must, based on the trillions of miles of neural-dendritic connections in my brain, formatted by what happened before and completely influencing how I will respond to what happens next.

What happens next is guaranteed by what happened before. I have no freedom from this because, in this, is my freedom. It is ultimately the refusal to surrender to the predetermined causal order that is the foundation of all suffering. But, that has to happen and has happened exactly as it must since human egocentrica mammalia happened to construct a neuro-circuit that made him ‘think’ he could actually choose what happened next, based on an autonomous WILL free from the influence of everything in the universe that happened before. 

Thinking it could be other than it obviously is, in the moment it obviously is, incarcerates me in a future based on a past wired up in my grey matter, causing me to lose the freedom of this moment as it happens next. But, even that momentary incarceration, demanding what happens NOT happen, must happen exactly as it does, else it would not happen.

Make no mistake, that moment that you demand happen other than as it is happening...you are there, in that moment, and nowhere else should you be, but in that moment of suffering.

And so I sit here, deep in the throes of a despotic depression, completely accepting that this is what is happening, without rejecting what is happening, as it is happening, or demanding something other than what is happening to happen.

Why would you want what is happening to be other than what is happening, when you realize that what is happening had to happen exactly as it now happens? However, if you believe you have a “free” choice in what happens, then you’re fooked (but not really, cause you’re supposed to be fooked, or else you wouldn’t be).

How is it that I was once neurally hard-wired to believe that something other than what is happening should be happening? I no longer think that, so when did those circuits get fried?  I have no idea when that sheit happened, but clearly, it happened, else they would not have been fried.

I have no desire to have happen other what is happening and in my allowing this to happen, as it happens, I am absolutely engulfed in complete freedom, because there is NO thought that this should NOT be as it is if, in fact, it is what it is, otherwise, it would be something different than it is (well, not exactly accurate. First I go, "damn! why is this sheit happening," and then the new circuit kicks in with, "but shiet happens" and I think, "oh right!!")

If the next thought to happen should be to blow my brains out with a gun, why would I reject that happening as something that should not happen?

Many years ago I used to have those thoughts happen (suicidal ideation), but that was before I encountered a “self” that does not seek to control what happens next (and I have no flippin' idea how that "self" happened). Nevertheless, if I should again have those thoughts happen, to the point of actually acting on those thoughts, which would have to happen or they wouldn’t, why should I reject those thoughts as happening exactly as they must happen, requiring I behaviorally conform to those thoughts and blow my flippin’ brains out?

The “idea” that what happens should NOT happen is hard-wired and requires a great deal of deconstruction, or frying of the motherboard, to neutralize. Nevertheless, even that can only happen as it happens and any attempt to make it happen before it’s supposed to happen, is destined to fail, until it’s supposed to succeed.

I must admit, there is a deep peace in letting sheit happen as it happens, because it always is what it is and it could never be other than what it is or it would be.

Artwork by LaraFairie - "Faceless Composition"

No One Is Ever Coming To Stay...

My thanks to a new friend...

The Arousal Addiction of Human Egocentrica Mammalia

The post-modern human egocentrica mammalian is steadily drowning in his need for constant arousal, an addiction that intensifies with each passing year, requiring ever greater levels of mindless consumption.

The growing magnitude of this arousal can only result in the consumption of, not only external resources, but the very neuro-circuits that give psychological reality to all his fictional, made-up, conjured out of thin air, “lifestyles,” since he is clearly devolving into varied and numerous states of mental illness, that are the obvious result of his fictions. The tangled subconscious neuro-circuitry, tightly packed between his ears, simply cannot handle his delusional ideas of reality and are rebelling en masse.

Essentially, he is gradually being neurologically sucked up into his own maladaptive mind games, and self-actualizing fantasies, to a 'tipping point,' resulting in mass confusion over his chronically contradictory and competing “value systems,’ in which he can only experience a neuro-circuit overload, or advanced forms of neuro-chemically based mental disorders. A hunter-gatherer brain, which we still have, cannot comfortably accommodate daily sado-masochistic anal sex fantasies, without experiencing...symptoms.

As opposed to his ancestors, post-modern egocentrica mammalia is afflicted with the potential for chronic “boredom,” which must be avoided at all costs, for if egocentrica mammalia were to remain mired in his self-actualizing boredom for any length of time, he would eventually come face to face with the abject pointlessness of his daily existence and all the banal, insipid everyday actions he feels compelled to perform to deny his pointlessness.

Hence, because of centuries of boredom avoidance, he has gradually developed an arousal addiction, which needs ever greater magnitudes of meaningless distraction to escape the awareness of the empty nihilism of his emptiness. 

Yet, he cannot, regardless of his attempts, through pointless ideologies and systems of belief, escape the emptiness of his hard-wired subconscious (although he continually claims he has free-will), which, regardless of his chronic daily use of synthetic medications, results in major depression, social anxiety, bipolar disorder, panic disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, etc., etc, etc., which all point to a mind-numbing existential anxiety that resists all his attempts to alleviate, and only works to magnify his complete lack of free-will. What possible free-will can exist in socially induced mental illness?

There was a time when human egocentrica used his big fat frontal lobe to question his existence, as opposed to the trivial uses he engages today to maintain and continually stimulate the dopamine receptors (motivation), requiring ever greater levels of motivating stimulation to avoid meaninglessness, yet, which his daily behaviors can only serve to support and reinforce.

If the day to day behaviors your society deems normal, only induce chronic depression, then you have no other alternative than to ingest the “medications” necessary to continue to plod along with that social order.

There was a time when egocentrica mammalians studied philosophy, ethics and morality and these subjects were the chief preoccupation of any “higher education.” Great thinkers were lauded as exceptional and admired for the products their grey matter produced. Now they are simply ignored or marginalized as useless studies, substituted by the endless cornucopia of entertaining drivel that mesmerizes egocentrica mammalia and holds him in a willing suspension of disbelief over the fact that his existence is totally pointless.

Post-modern human egocentrica mammalia lives in a time when thinking deeply about his existence actually impairs his ability to comfortably exist and, except for a select few, human egocentrica mammalians are virtually compelled to seek ever greater levels of entertaining novelty, which they receive through their sexual paraphilias, internet porn, object fetishism, celebrity worship, insipid entertainment, etc., and the seemingly infinite ways they attend to their own self-adoring actualization, fully employing “mirror neurons” which allows them to replicate themselves through others, thereby, sucking dry any degree of personal authenticity that they might achieve, if they had any motivation to do so, except the dopamine receptors are literally exhausted by the mindless cacophony of their daily existence.

Their actions are the same, their words are the same and the thoughts that their brains produce consistently result in behaviors that mirror the actions of a shallow collective, but they adamantly proclaim that they are ‘free.’ From cave paintings demonstrating the magic of discovery, they now employ smart phones as a means of magnifying and reinforcing their blatant mass stupidity.

Their fear of boredom is completely warranted however, since truly becoming oriented to the arid and banal state of their empty existence would no doubt be death defying, and for human egocentrica mammalia, death demands every means of denial at his disposal.

From birth, the absurd socialization of human egocentrica mammalia, to fictional renditions of daily living, provides the experience of death long before the actual event overtakes him, regardless of his attempts to ‘conceptualize’ the conditioned experience as actually “living.”

His self-actualizing goals demand consistent mind-numbing preparation, planning and organization, since every goal, by its nature, must deny the fact that the hand of the universe is up his ass, moving his lips and directing his head to and fro. Yet he believes, with all his metaphoric heart, that he’s a volitional, free-willed, master of him ‘self’ and has control over his dominion, or brain, which is where he exists and nowhere else.

Nevertheless, his extermination seems entirely assured, as he has entirely lost the capacity to ‘be’ (an aspect of existence clearly evidenced everywhere else in the universe, that allowed him to exist in the first place) substituted by an enduring chronic desire to be ‘something,’ as a means of perpetually denying the concrete fact that he is not separate from a natural causal order that has historically demonstrated indifference to all the ‘somethings’  he wants to ‘be’ and couldn’t give a rat’s arse about his career aspirations or his mind consuming goals for an early “retirement.”

Yet, ironically, and paradoxically, it does appear that the actual purpose of his existence, as clearly ordained by a predetermined causal order, that has facilitated the unfolding of a manifest universe, is to rebel against his actual nothingness by creating fictional somethingness to avoid the truth of his nothingness.

Now why the fook would the causal order predetermine human egocntrica mammalia to ‘think’ it was separate and completely free from the dictates of an unfolding causal order that nothing else in the manifest natural world even slightly considers itself separate from?

And why is it that the only way human egoncetrica mammalia can actually experience total freedom is by allowing itself to experience complete containment and incarceration by that predetermined causal order?

Fook if I know….

Artwork by Cristiano Siqueira

The End of the Free-Will Paradigm

In your formative years “you” were hastily indoctrinated into a “free-will" paradigm of "personal responsibility," and your ego-centered, cranial-based existence (all experience occurs in the brain) is now virtually suffocating in an ocean of 'choices,' made and to be made (but you continue to proclaim you are "free"). As you advanced in age, so did the oppressive burden of making "right" choices, in order to finally experience "happiness," even though a great many of your choices have only induced suffering and this demands an ever greater attentiveness to making the 'right' choices.

Free-will magically grants you "personal responsibility” and dumps a heaping sheit-load of guilt on "you" for choices made in the past that turned out to be miserably "wrong" in the future and, as a result, you live in a chronic state of anxious contraction about the choices you must make as a means of sculpting your precious future because, as you righteously proclaim, this is "my life" (as if you were completely unfettered and non-originated from the predetermined causal order of space and time). You had absolutely no choice in your birth, nor will you have a choice in your death, so why the fook would it matter what you choose in-between? Does the universe care about your self-esteem or career choices?

Such are the results of the "free-will" paradigm. A paradigm that is patently false (and can easily be observed as such through a  basic analysis of the variables that have determined your current life trajectory). Nevertheless, 99 and 44/100 percent of human egocentrica mammalians wholeheartedly endorse free-will, without question and without doubt, and conduct their every waking moment on free-will being undeniably true, resulting in a pandemic of depressed zombies, chronically rejecting what is as is and, year after year, slogging through mind-numbing routines of abject pointlessness, which they have no choice in, but believing that things should be different than they are, which they cannot possibly be else they would be, they suffer as they inevitably must.

They live woefully miserable lives in constant rejection of the variables currently representing their own personal “life.” They are consistently gritting and grinding over “personal responsibility” and go though numerous years of "education" to painstakingly develop the skills of making ‘right choices,’ which, subsequently, and regardless of their esteemed education, they consistently fail to make anyway, over and over, ad infinitum, ad nauseam.

This results in 'neurological exhaustion,' requiring constant, moment to moment, distraction in finding ways to avoid their own fooking minds (which the spiritual-entertainment industry makes billions on) and the thoughts that arise, denying that they have NO "personal responsibility" for those thoughts (thoughts that are clearly victim to a free-will paradigm of 'personal selection regardless of social conditioning and outside influence) and they do ALL of this because they have no choice.

Yet, what if, from birth, you were indoctrinated into a paradigm absent free-will and contingent on a predetermined universe in which nothing was separate from an infinite unfolding causal order and that every choice made had to be made exactly as it was made or it would NOT have ever been made at all?

How would "you" conduct your life if you knew it was predetermined to unfold exactly as it did and does? Would it matter what you do, if what you did had to be done exactly as you did it, in each and every moment, or it would not have been done? What type of 'self' would exist absent free-will? Could a "self" absent free-will even exist? What would that 'self' be like? How would you think, and react to your thoughts, if you knew you were not responsible for any of them? Would you sit around moaning that, since "I'm not a 'self' that makes choices free of influence, I'm NOT gonna do a fooking thing at all"? Or would knowing that you are not separate from an infinitely unfolding predetermined causal order result in your deeply engaging whatever unfolded before your eyes and completely without fear? Would the concepts of "right" or "wrong," "good" or "bad" totally cease to exist in human discourse?

What if we raised children to believe the fact that they had NO personal responsibility for what arose between their ears, since 86 billion neurons, and billions of miles of dendritic connections, fueled by chemical processes in trillions of synapses, are obviously outside their capacity to control? How would we 'choose' to teach them if they had no 'personal responsibility' for their actions?

There are a few who currently live under such auspices. They have no anxiety regarding the future and no guilt of the past. They tend to exist in a state of "surprise" over what unfolds before them and the individual ‘choices’ made based on that unfolding (which is, of course, part of that predetermined causal order).

They have not developed tendencies to reject reality, as that which is not wanted, while another reality would be more suitable to their tastes. Momentarily, they may not like what has unfolded but, nevertheless, they accept the emergent variables as inevitable and adapt accordingly.

They see very clearly that they are not separate from the whole timeless tapestry of a predetermined causal order, and every choice made being part of that timeless unfolding, and in that understanding they experience absolute freedom.

As a result, they tend to play infinitely in a finite world....