Showing posts with label Peace. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Peace. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

The Ego Hates the Ones You Love

You believe that parenting children must cause conflict since it means setting limits and teaching discipline. Notice how the world of egocentricity demands conflict even from love.

Yet, Love is NOT aware of conflict and if you ARE, then you are NOT aware of love and other goals are clearly more significant to you. If love were the precedent guiding your actions then conflict would be substantially diminished and perfect peace would reside “within” you.

However, in your world love is never the guidepost because the world was made from the conflict inherent from competitive division and, therefore, it is fervently expected. Wherever conflict is expected love is always absent.

Sometimes your egocentric concepts seem to lift you, while other times you suffer from what you believe.

Yet, beyond all the ego’s many concepts of love is a love that cannot be conceived of, or even exist, in partnership with conflict. You wish to believe that you love your children very much and there is a part of YOU that is aware of love, but YOU are unaware of that part.

The ego is aware of many different concepts of love, all demanding different conditions, and these you superimpose upon all your relationships, thereby, applying limits and boundaries against those you claim to love.

The world teaches that sometimes love must hate and, although you adamantly refuse to believe that you could ever hate those you love, your moments of anger are composed of the same ingredients that you reserve for those you most despise. In fact, ironically, often those you profess to love the most, can momentarily become the most despised.

You certainly don’t feel like you hate your children in your moments of anger, but only after the moment has passed, at which time the ego seeks for a rational explanation to dissolve your guilt. Make no mistake, your comforting rationalizations are no different from the thoughts that rationalize continued war.

You learned to experience many different levels and types of fear in your world and this demonstrates the proficiency of the ego in minimizing what is entirely the same in ALL situations. Love cannot possibly be present in anger and, although you will seek desperately for its return, in the moment you banished it you merely delay your greater goal. Frequent delay wastes time and makes the goal seem entirely unattainable. Goals evaluated as unattainable (love) will inevitably be substituted by more attainable goals and when love is absent, the many faces of fear easily fill the void.

Through reliance on fear your world was made meaningless, because a world perceived from a filter of fearful self-protection is patently absurd.

Nevertheless, you refuse to accept that your standards, of teaching your children how to effectively negotiate the world so that they can be “successful,” are meaningless. However, look closely at your past and recognize how your greatest successes are now interpreted as failures and your failures erroneously evaluated as success. These are the confused standards that cause your suffering and therefore, you expect others suffer through the same because as you teach, "life ain't easy and you have got to be tough to survive."

What you wish to know is truth, therefore, you must teach IT instead of your confused standards and this is because essentially the only one who must learn is YOU. Dig deep down below your conventional thoughts and the ego’s status-quo “wisdom” and learn what’s true and cannot be taught through the world’s standards.

Teaching “success” in a senseless world is always absurd, yet, you deny the absurdity by applying more nonsense, only you call it “common sense.”

Yet, you believe you cannot sit idly by and watch someone you love fail in life and become unhappy and miserable. In SEEING someone you love “fail in life,” you have applied standards that exclude love, but idolize what the world values and the world certainly values "success" over love. How much has been lost in the name of success?

Love does NOT see success or failure, but only Perfect Peace, regardless of actions or behaviors. Indeed, Perfect Peace sees a world where concepts like failure and success do not exist and therefore, all conflict is abolished completely and love is seen in perfect clarity.

What you SEE is in direct proportion to what you believe and, although this seems to have no bearing on the objects of perception, the world conforms directly to belief. Perception gives you “failure” and “success” in direct correspondence with your confused standards, but neither concept has any relation to Truth and so chaos reigns supreme. Look at your world. Can you honestly claim that chaos is NOT growing in crescendo? Are the standards and values of the world NOT becoming increasingly more relative and nonsensical?

Nothing can disturb the mind in Perfect Peace and, therefore, nothing could “exist” that does NOT exactly conform to those peaceful parameters and this includes all your relationships. The problem is NEVER outside your mind. But, if you continue to believe it resides “there,” then there is where it must be experienced as perpetually irresolvable and, therefore, compulsively repetitive. History must continue to repeat itself if we continue teach what we learned in the past, because this is ALL we can look for in the future.

Artwork by David R. Choquette - "untitled"

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

CHRISTMAS NEUTRALITY: The Gift of NOT "Loving it All"

I often find myself in disagreement with my non-duality buddies, who continue to recommend that we “love it all.”

....as if an ego has any comprehension of love. 

Oh sure, egos have relative ideas of “love” (over 6 billion, in fact), but after centuries of such relativity, we have come little closer to what love IS, thereby asserting “dualism” in the world of conscious experience or....what love IS NOT.

This makes me wonder why “loving it all” is so frequently advocated by non-dual teachers. Of course, hypothetically speaking, a non-ego might “love it all,” since relative concepts of "love" would not be superimposed upon experience.

But then… show me a teacher who has NO ego and I'll show you an elephant that flies.

However, its easy to understand the ‘feeling’ dimension of an egocentric 'self' and “loving it all” would certainly seem to 'feel' better than NOT “loving it all.” But this is the trap of presupposing that love has something to do with 'feelings' and egos should probably NOT make assumptions that they have NO way of testing for truth (like knowing what “love” should 'feel' like... feeling THAT... and then pronouncing that you’re “loving it all”).

However, stop feeling love for "it all," even for a nanosecond, and guilt may very well be the very next feeling...

This Christmas, I would suggest you cease your attempts to “love it all” simply because relative love merely asserts its relative opposite, resulting in the usual combative contrasts that egos never fail to identify and, unfortunately, act upon (in fact, couldn't we say that it's all this relative "love" in the world that's the world's number one problem?)

For instance, let’s say this Christmas, somebody snubs your precious gift giving. Well, of course, instantly the ego will assert relative suffering, or 'hurt,' which will then threaten the ego's "loving it all" perspective, causing it to quickly rush to reframe it’s relative suffering into relative “love,” which it can only suffer from equally, due to it’s relativity...

...because deep down you know your only scamming your ‘self.’ Notice the circularity?

This Christmas, seek neutrality... it's so much easier than "loving it all." (of course, your ego is telling you that you MUST "love it all' or else you're not being non-dual, but just ignore all that)

Egos fear that if they don't "love it all" than they will subsequently adopt the opposite perspective. Yet loving "it all," as a means of replacing fearing/hating “it all,” is probably not a ‘best practice’ for egocentric individuals stuck in relative perspectives of “love” (but still wanting some kind of "practice"). This is because relative love can only assert a dualistic opposite and, as we all know, the opposite of relative love would be relative fear (and corresponding relative hate).

Now, some would say that since we “are it all” we must then “love it all" (kind of in-sequence) Yet this is a story of mixing metaphors. Stating that we “are it all” is an excellent non-dual “pointer.' However, “loving it all” is an egocentric relative concept, since egos do not know love, only relative love.

It seems logical that once we can finally give up our relative concepts of “love” we might then be open to apprehending what love is, which might then result in discarding all relativity (hypothetically speaking).

Until then, it seems logical that a neutral perspective might be more advantageous than a relative “love it all” perspective. Yet, it does seem that some “non-dualists” are really stuck in the egocentric, relativity of Pollyanna love. But who can blame them, social conditioning is deeply pervasive (relatively speaking).

So this Christmas, instead of “loving it all” give neutrality a whirl. 

This way you can't go 'wrong,' simply because you have not adopted one way or the other and your “loving it all” will no longer interfere with what LOVE can be...if you weren't out tryin' to "love it all."

Perfect Peace holds no perspective... one way or the other..so neither should a Peaceful Self.

So have a very neutrally merry Christmas!
(and avoid kissing hamsters.... kiss a Lemur instead)


Surreal image by Olivia - "Lemur Christmas"

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Are You LIVING....or Protecting from Fear?


The ego is composed entirely of fear.

Yet, ironically, it has convinced you of the need to protect from fear, requiring you trust in IT to spot threats and alert you to danger.

This is a pact from hell (that literally makes hell “real”). How can what is created from fear protect you from fear? Therefore, in your trusting reliance on the ego-self, an experience of ‘hell’ is your reward.

The ego convinces you that fear must be avoided and it will help you do so. Yet, to be completely without fear would be to annihilate the ego, because the ego relies on fear for its very existence. In your fidelity to the ego-self, what you fail to realize is that the ego constructs the very fear it seeks to protect you from.

That which causes you the greatest fear is that which reflects back to you the fearful nature of your ‘self'...

.... other people.

It is not fear of death to be dissolved, but fear of other people. This is because when fear no longer comes between you and those you experience, life will finally be lived because death is no longer a consideration when one is finally living.

Are you living.... or just protecting from fear?

The chief defining aspect of hell is fear projected into a future based entirely on a past. This is the purpose you apply to everyone you meet and they, in turn, apply to you (notice the reflective effect of duality).

On the surface, our cordiality may often seem evident, but deep down what we deny is that fear keeps us alienated and estranged from one another (even in our closest relationships). Non-duality does not end separateness (or duality), but dissolves alienation (or dualism).

The non-dualism of Christ Consciousness realizes perfect peace because in eradicating its fear of others, fear no longer reflects back upon itself.

Without fear, time has no purpose and the present is all there is. As long as you are in time, you are relying on an ego that requires fear in order to know itself through time. This reliance on your "protector" automatically requires you fear the present, because the ego cannot protect you in the present, simply because in the present the ego does NOT exist.

Therefore, the ego must advise you to avoid the present at all costs and it does this by assuring you that the present could not possibly exist and you must rely on the past to inform the future. This is why every experience you encounter has been manufactured from a past solely for self-protection, providing an illusion of safety in the future. Yet, only in the present can you be free of protection, since the ego knows nothing, and prepares for nothing, but a past projected into a future. This is why your experiences often seem so typical and mundane simply because you only experience what you come prepared to experience and anything else is deemed unsafe and fearful.

There is only one way to secure your present as extended into a future (thereby dissolving both future/past). See no one else as having a past and be free of the need for protection, since all protection from others was learned in the past.

Avoid not one encounter, especially those you distrust. Engage fully without a care for protection, no matter how vehemently the ego screams in condemnation of your ignorance. Recall that the ego constructs experiences that reinforce itself and the only means of reinforcement it knows is fear. This has nothing to do with bodily protection, because our everyday fears seek to protect the ego and not the body.

If you take away its food (fear), it will starve and you will realize its death throes by the joy and peace you experience with, and through, others.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Dissolving the Conditions of Fear



The most incredible joy you will ever experience is in relationship with others.

But you doubt that this is true.

The ‘self’ can invent all manner of experiences for which to extract an exclusive, individual sense of satisfaction and pleasure for itself. But let’s make no mistake, any solitary satisfactions are ephemeral and based in fear.

The ‘self’ was constructed through interaction and engagement with others, although you think of it exclusively as ‘you’ and, therefore, have found it easy to deny this cooperative exchange.

"I don't really fear other people," you say, "I just don't trust them very much."

Ah... and so begins your self-reliance, as if you conceived your 'self' out of thin air and thus, need not rely on anyone but yourself to transcend that which "you" made. Unfortunately, this is delusional. "They" made "you" as you made them, and neither faction will give up so easily.

Nobody leaves alone.

The ‘self-concept’ is a creature of the world and cannot exist without that correspondence. Your belief system has been constructed in direct correlation with those who share in constructing the experiences of a 'world.' Quite simply, the self looks to others as reference for its own 'self-construct,' because we share in everything (by the way, who taught you that you could "transcend" the 'self'?).

Yet, the ego-self must deny this in fear for its very 'existence.'

So get ahead, hunker down on your cushion for a long meditation in seeking self-transcendence. Is that your goal? Maybe "we" will let you transcend your 'self' (but I doubt it). Ha!

Do you really think "you" can leave without "us"?

One of the chief ingredients of every self-concept, and that which we all share equally, is fear. Relationships conditioned by fear eventually wither and die (and thus, we're constantly seeking the means of 'resurrecting' our "love" from the dead). Fear stunts growth and impedes evolving consciousness, because it demands conditions, or limits, be imposed.

An enlightened perspective is absent all fear and naturally extends from unconditioned consciousness. Fear demands conditions be fortified against fear and those conditions are what we superimpose upon our relationships (and then wonder why our relationships suck).

Deep Spirit engagement is stifled by conditions, but rarely do we engage the world, others and ourselves without conditions. Failure to engage others from Deep Spirit, causes our experiences to become desensitized, blunted and apathetic. This is why so many become numb, and immune to joy in the "declining years", as the ego’s conditions have walled off Deep Spirit engagement almost entirely, allowing only the fear of death to predominate.

Nevertheless, even engaging with others from Deep Spirit will automatically predispose one to egoic fear.

There have been times in your life when you have engaged with others from this deep well of unconditioned awareness. However, most likely the engagement was brief, as the ego quickly clamped down on the mind, imposing conditions, thereby, squelching the intense freedom within the experience. This is called 'being in the moment' and, contrary to your guru, you cannot avail it alone.

The authentic guru can facilitate an end to conditions, but if he/she cannot unconditionally reciprocate in the exchange, neither will touch the joy of unlimited freedom.

The ego-self fears Deep Spirit engagement, simply because such engagement requires absolutely nothing from an ego-self. It comes from a natural space of consciousness that identifies with no concepts and is intricately unified with others and the world.

There are very few moments in your life in which identification with your ego-self is nonexistent. However, in corresponding with Deep Spirit, dissociation from the ego is experienced and the experience is utterly intoxicating. Nevertheless, in order to engage with Deep Spirit, another 'self' is required because it cannot be accessed alone (sorry...).

Although brief, such an experience is rarely forgotten, although it can remain dormant for many years and, for some, may never again see the light of day. The brevity of the experience is associated with a fear of self-annihilation or the loss of self. Becoming unified with your experience of another, directly threatens your egoic identity and the ego-self will forcefully resist by quickly inserting conditions upon the exchange. Conditions are always the result of fear. Conditions assert an autonomous ‘self’ in opposition to other selves, all competing for control and dominance.

Very simply, two or more can agree to engage without condition and, thus, relate without fear. Such a mutual goal demands peace be the underlying foundation. The conditions of fear must always create conflict and, whether between nations or loved ones, conflict will eventually result in war.

You can come from a different place in all your relationships if you so choose. However, you must choose, otherwise the ego will always choose for you, because the ego always comes from the past.

To relate without condition is not a difficult as it would seem. Recognize that all conflict is born from conditions determined by your individual egoic fear. Simply admit this to each other and allow Deep Spirit to rise up and gradually dissolve egoic conditions.

Deep Spirit engagement is known for its excruciating honesty, since all reasons for hiding, or concealment, is dissolved, along with the fear that commands concealment. Deep Spirit, when fully realized, has no conditions whatsoever and is an experience of "perfect peace."

Between two or more 'individuals' no other experience comes close to the freedom of letting go of your conditions, or "perfect peace," in mutual engagement. It is the most natural joy one could ever encounter and many have described this ineffable feeling with the label of “enlightenment,” while others believe it a correspondence with God.



Wednesday, July 1, 2009

The Audacity of "Knowing" Truth






Just admit it, you have no friggin' idea why you’re “here,” nor do you have any idea what your purpose is or what you should be doing.

Deep down you know this. Unfortunately, that doesn't seem to stop you from attaching to all kinds of nutty religious schemes and ridiculous "spiritual" behaviors.

You still act as if you know what is needed to end your suffering and conduct your life as if this were true. Unfortunately, this “knowledge” has defined your suffering.

When you finally give up your self-identified purposes, you can stop identifying mine and I need not conceptualize a purpose for you. Therefore, neither of us remains confined to our self-imposed conceptual prison cell. We are then free to learn of one another unencumbered by the past. Until then, we will impose our imperatives upon one another and this will act as a wedge between us that will condition and define who we are to one another. Until then, we have the world as it is today and, most likely, will continue to be tomorrow.

Ego religiously attaches to the concepts of “knowledge” and therefore, we can only continue to define each other through ignorance. It really doesn’t matter what concepts you employ to define your ‘self,” even defining yourself through the concepts of "non-duality" (which seems a silly way to define oneself, but some seem to enjoy it).

Rather, it's how you define me that counts. How you see others is how you will define yourself, because the moment you locked them into concept, you sentenced your ‘self’ to conceptual bondage, because there is no division.

The only thing you are here to learn is that you don’t know who or what you are, so first, you must realize you do not know them? They are your 'salvation,' because in setting them free, you free yourself. Neither of us need be victim to the ‘world' and emancipation will occur when what the world teaches is no longer desired.

Consider the conditions of “knowledge” because ‘hell’ is conditioned by such “truth.” Pretending that you know a way out of hell, is to deny your conditions made it real. Trust that an exit strategy will materialize the moment you realize you don’t know the truth. When we both agree that we don’t know, then we can dissolve the conditions between us that we created by defining a purpose and conducting our lives based on that "truth."

To not “know” is a frightening prospect to the ego you have come to know as “you.” Can you conduct your life as if you have no idea what your purpose is? Can you give up your grand theories, your spiritual rules and your enlightened equations on the hereafter? Can you simply forget what the “awakened master” taught you? Can you burn the “Great Book”?

When you finally give up your notions of truth, you will be amazed at how audacious you were in deciding between pain and joy all those years, as if you actually knew the difference.

You can no more terminate or dissolve your ego-self, than you can dissolve the world, since both are mutually interdependent and indivisible. However, you can reinterpret your perceptions and, thereby, reinterpret your ‘world.’

The chaotic ego is fear dominated because it was fear produced. The peaceful self dissolves the fear of chaos by seeking peace in its relationships, because they are its ‘world.’ The peaceful self does not seek the guru in the world, but makes the world 'enlightened' and learning becomes a communal affair, simply because nobody “knows,” but together they can learn.

Monday, June 8, 2009

The World Is An Illusion When Your Purpose Is Unknown



If your mind is at war, how can you be at peace in your relationships? Minds at war with one another inadvertently create an illusory world, since this is not the purpose of the mind, nor is it the purpose of your world.

Make no mistake, the peace in your relationships will be experienced in direct proportion to the peace within your mind and the peace of deeply engaging others will magnify the mind's state of peace in a reinforcing loop.


Are you in the loop?


Do anxieties and fears consume your mental energy? Are you easily engaged by the outcomes and goals that the world prescribes as crucial to living? Does work and career demand most of your time and energy? Do you find yourself frequently moody and snapping at loved ones? Do you often feel bored and exhausted by the mundane chores of existence? Do you plod through the week in anticipation of the weekend? Do you find yourself feeling disillusioned when expected rewards, that the world provides, fail to satisfy?

Do you often find yourself wondering if this is all there is?

Peace of mind is easily transferable to those around you, but so is a conflicted mind. A mind in conflict is like a spinning vortex that sucks in those close to you. The conflicted seek the cause of conflict outside the mind and attempt to control others. The peaceful deeply engage with others in discovering the love “within” by recognizing that this is their purpose.

A conflicted mind seeks the cause of disturbance in others and swings blame like a sword of vengeance. You have chosen them to provide happiness, therefore, if happiness is absent, who else but they are to blame? If your mind is at war, you will bring that to your reality and find enemies were none existed before. War is waged by strangers and there is no love in battle.

Your only purpose in this world is to fully engage with others in the deep understanding that discovers love. Until it is discovered with another, it does not exist and this makes the world illusory, since the world then serves a purpose other than intended. You will see that unintended purpose instead of the truth and you will suffer accordingly.

Love does not exist until it is created by two or more and transposed upon the mutual experience of a ‘world’ and in that way it is discovered. Until then, your world is nothing more than an illusion because it serves a purpose other than intended. If you conduct your life in ways that do not allow for love to be discovered then you have denied your function and choose your goals from what the world determines is your purpose, thus maintaining the illusion. Look outward and see your world absent of love and clearly you have mistaken its purpose, thereby making an illusion of it.

However, there are pockets in the world where enlightened minds have learned their purpose and have attempted to teach it by learning to engage deeply. What other purpose could the world serve? What other purpose could your existence serve? What else is the reason for your Being?

Self-development? Yes, but only to disengage from self-absorbed egoic needs, thereby, dissolving the obstructions to self-discovery through others. Acquisition of wealth? Only if used as a conduit to deeply relating and not idolized as a means to an end. Improved health? Of course, since we can engage deeply when not thwarted by sickness and disease. Every goal the world teaches as useful and necessary can be used to learn your purpose and that purpose is to discover love by extending it and seeing it in the world.

Discover love and discover the real world.

Discovering love is the “enlightenment” that the ancient masters spoke of and it requires an unconflicted and quiet mind to be realized. A conflicted mind cannot possibly discover its purpose and will blame others for that failure.

The ego learns what the world teaches it and if you rely on that learning you will fail to learn your purpose and your experience will conform to the same patterns of war that the world believes is truth.

Make your experience of the world a pocket of peace and sink beyond the ego’s demands in realizing your purpose comes from a well much deeper than conditioned thoughts of finite outcomes and goals. Outcomes and goals may give fleeting pleasures, but not the deep and abiding joy generated by engaging with others in discovering love. Your purpose is with them, as theirs is with you. Enlightenment comes to the relationship that chooses a different path. Otherwise, it does not come at all.

Yet, you both have no idea what love is.

This is why it must be sought beyond appearances and it will be discovered through mutually realizing the obstructions, or walls, you constructed to protect the 'self.' Intimate Awakening demands you accept your vulnerability in surrendering your need for self-defense.

This is your purpose, which the ego self-construct (your belief in a 'self') has impeded by adopting goals that distract from that purpose. Now you remain victim to the past, since all goals and outcomes not established to actualize your purpose, come from the past and merely delay your truth, making the world an illusory place where, no matter how hard you try, you will never feel at home together. The past has no involvement in discovering truth, since love is experienced in the present and does not relate to a past or future.

Love is the "now" spoken of by the ancient enlightened master's and mystics.

A world that does not serve its purpose must be an illusion, until that purpose is discovered. Your experience of a world cannot be real if it serves the purpose of war. However, you can see it differently if love becomes the purpose that you share with others. Make this the purpose of everything you perceive in choosing to mutually discover love in your small microcosm of the world.

Change the world by changing your mind about your purpose. Realize why you are here. Until this occurs you will continue to perpetuate the same patterns of war that the world exhibits and those patterns have become very weary to your tired mind.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Perfect Peace is "Enlightenment"







Peace has always been the purpose of this blog. Contrary to the fact that I tend to stir the pot of the conventional ego-games, that we refer to as "spirituality," and get some folks a bit irritated in my questioning of the accepted sacred concepts.


However, the problem is that your ego-self is rarely at peace and defines itself specifically through conflict. It grits and grinds against its experience of reality as if that experience were actually opposing it. Why would an ego-self construct experiences that seem to be against itself? Why else would it engage in the conflict of adopting a spiritual path (often grueling) if not to acquire (get) a complete cessation of conflict?

Ahh… but are conflict experiences really counter to the ego or do they in fact give it a sense of 'real' existence?

Who would “you” be without conflict? The ego-self constructs dualistic experiences for which to know itself as separately engaged in its 'world.' What would life be like without problems to solve, justified battles to wage or obstacles to overcome? Doesn’t life often seem like nothing more than a series of problem-solving events? What are you competing for in all the ego-games you play? Through what rewards and outcomes do you define "happiness"?

If your ‘self’ experienced no conflict how would it know itself? Could you know your ‘self’ in Perfect Peace , totally and completely absent of all conflict? Could you experience a conflict-free world and still know your ‘self’?

To understand your ego-dynamics is to be at peace because you realize the "true nature" of the 'games' you play. The mind that is completely conflict-free is in perfect peace. Variable “happiness” is actually to experience, at varying degrees, reduced conflict and requires nothing external be acted upon to in order to achieve it. You need do nothing and it just may be all your relentless 'doing' that promotes experiences of continued conflict.

However, your ego-self knows itself through acting upon its experience of world. For an ego-self, not to be 'doing' is not to BE. Is it any wonder that "productivity" is worshiped as the means to "happiness."

Think of all the times you have felt truly "happy." Were they not times when conflict seemed no longer present in your experience? Win the Lotto million dollar jackpot and you will believe that "happiness" has finally been secured, because in that instant you will simply conceptualize your ‘self’ free of conflict (no doubt it will return along with the conflict that money inevitably brings). When you got that raise at work recall that, briefly, conflict dissolved. That new relationship or that new car or house seems to momentarily ease your conflicted mind. Are you happy you lost weight? Make no mistake, you believe you 'got' something valuable and all value in acquisition is nothing more than a belief that conflict has been resolved.

All your acquisitions serve to construct a conscious experience of momentary conflict alleviation. But, sadly, it never seems to last, because for an ego-self it MUST not last.

The ego-self must reject anything that demonstrates consistency since this would smack of an absolute. Note that the ego’s chief goal of ‘getting’ or acquisition allowed you to think that whatever you got solved your problems and in that moment conflict was gone. Yet, it only returns upon the realization that whatever you ‘got’ (ego-game rewards and outcomes) essentially solved nothing and frequently only brought more conflict.

Infinite players realize nothing needed be acquired for Perfect Peace to be realized. You need DO nothing. There is no such state of mind as “happiness” and seeking happiness is a hoax and a fraud that keeps you playing the ego-games of life in the hope of acquiring greater happiness. This allows no rest for your conflict weary mind.

Time to rest awhile….

What you seek is an absence of conflict and you can have that without even leaving your chair. A mind in perfect peace is an “enlightened” mind. To experience a complete and total absence of conflict is to be “awakened.” Isn’t this your “true nature”?

Nirvana is conflict free. Heaven is perfect peace. Perfect peace is perfect thought and this is attainable without the need for esoteric ideologies or austere practices.

Just recognize that conflict is a choice and choose differently in every moment.

Such an experience has nothing to do with an external world, but will radically alter everything you see. In fact, it’s available now, simply waiting to invigorate your experience of "self," if you could only be free of your conflict.