Climb Aboard the Dream Weaver Train

The ego-self, or that abstract package of beliefs you identify with as your “self,'” idolizes its symbolic world as “real,” but fails to recognize that a symbolic “reality” is only conceptual.

You do not see a “world,’ but merely organize concepts (Kantian-like) or weave together a symbolic tapestry as a means of making sense of what, otherwise, would be an amalgamation of complete absurdity.

What you see in your “world” are symbolic representations of reality firmly entrenched in your mind prior to “perception” (concept). But you have little doubt that the symbols in your mind reflect FACTS and this is how you organize the symbols into a “reality.”

Unfortunately, you’re not so sure your mind is a FACT, but you do accept that it symbolizes “you.” Nevertheless, you do experience concepts and many arguments have been made that the mind is all you experience, but only through symbolic concepts.

An ego-self does not really see a tree, but only a symbolic conceptualization of a “tree” and, in that concept, the “tree” is only what the concept requires and NOT what it is in truth. “You” (concept) could never know what it means in TRUTH, because all egocentricity ever “knows” are its own concepts and concepts can only symbolize what is TRUE. They can never actually be TRUE simply because they are symbolic facsimiles of what you believe MUST be “true” and what you wish to be “true” today is always contingent on what WAS true yesterday.

A facsimile may look and feel like the original, but you know it’s only a copy and, if you look close, you’ll see all the tiny imperfections that demonstrate its inauthenticity.

An egocentric self-concept does NOT see a world, but sees its symbolic representations of a “world,” or a facsimile of a “world",” in the form of conceptual constructs within its own inner-experience of an individual MIND. “You” do not live in a realistic world, but in a world of concepts which serve to symbolize a ‘reality’ that you believe is FACTUAL.

Egocentricity demands Facticity in order to actualize an existence as “real.” Facticity is the superimposing of specific separate parameters to enhance belief.

Yet, concepts are bland beliefs without emotion. But “emotion” is also a concept, since it too is experienced in the mind and an egocentric mind only experiences concepts. Nevertheless, your concept of a “tree” may do little to stimulate any further conceptual dream weaving. While the concept of “money” may stimulate ever increasing conceptual configurations that egocentricity considers “real.”

The non-dualist idea that there is “nothing there” merely emphasizes the fact that concepts are only symbolic. If they are only symbolic then how can they affect you? But this is completely opposite what you experience. You experience a “world” for which you have NO doubt of its reality and are victimized by that “reality” on a daily basis.

Hence, the only difference between real and facsimile is your own victimization, because no one would fall victim to a facsimile in knowing it is not authentic or genuine. 

However, if an ego-self is nothing more than a package of beliefs and those beliefs are conceptual symbols representing reality, then the ‘self’ you idolize as real is nothing but a well packaged aggregate of symbolic representations. Hence, there is nothing REAL about “you” and what is NOT real can only make lame attempts at representing the REAL.

Is the body “real”? Certainly, as you conceptualize it, it does seem authentic. But the self-concept of “you” cannot know the body free and clear of concepts and, therefore, what you experience as “body” is inauthentic and disingenuous.

Is there a difference between the image of a blue sky and thinking the thought “the sky is blue”? Is the thinking that is composed of words different from the thoughts composed of images? Could they be made of the same stuff and, if so, who made them? Even though both thoughts and images are experienced in your mind, you believe the thoughts are yours, while the images belong to the world. Hence, your thoughts are minimized as less important and even false, in comparison to the images, having little to no power to alter your experience because you have determined that your concept of a “body” is the only concept that can provide accurate representations of your world. Clearly, the concept of a “self” is minimized next to the concept of body. Hence, the ‘self’ can be full of doubts, but never regarding your concept of “body.”

But are they not both experienced in the mind? Do you experience a blue sky outside your mind? How could you, when ALL experience is IN and OF the mind? Could it be that the blue sky is nothing more than a symbolic representation of what may not be “there” after all?

Ah, but your egocentricity assures you that it MUST be there, because if it’s NOT really there at all, what does this say about “you.” If it’s NOT “there,” then “where” are you?

Everything an egocentric self-concept experiences MUST be experienced to insure the reality of that ego-self.

Clearly, you live your entire “life” (concept) counting on the images (concepts) to give you truth, but doubt your own thoughts. Your mind is inconsequential to the grand order that you have strung together with concepts. Your conceptual weaving of a “reality” is the only thing occurs from moment to moment and never to you question whether or not the concepts accurately represent reality. You just weave your concepts together because they must fit together adequately. If even one concept is determined to be illusional, then the whole foundation must crash of its own fraudulence.

Is it any wonder you’re so damned exhausted all the time?

Yet, be prepared for the day when you finally come to doubt even the images you have always experienced as “real,” because…

as the world fades away…

…so must “you.”

But fear not!

“You” were never really “there” in the first place.

I've just closed my eyes again
Climbed aboard the dream weaver train
Driver take away my worries of today
And leave tomorrow behind

Ooh dream weaver
I believe you can get me through the night
Ooh dream weaver
I believe we can reach the morning light
Fly me high through the starry skies
Maybe to an astral plane
Cross the highways of fantasy
Help me to forget today's pain

Though the dawn may be coming soon
There still may be some time
Fly me away to the bright side of the moon
And meet me on the other side

Artwork by Mark Ryden - "Girl Eaten by Tree"  

Dreaming of Insanity

You are beginning to recognize that your rationale for living is wearing mighty thin. Your raison d’ etre, or reason for being, is no longer keeping your head above water. You, my friend, are drowning.

Good!

Nothing is as reliable as complete insanity. The  total break with reality. Hahaaa!

Eventually, you will learn that what you “do” has NO value. That your entire life has been of no value. Yet, note how your “self” demands value and fights vigorously against this as a viable choice. Because if its world has NO value…

… then neither does IT (Ooops!)

A dream can be whatever you want it to be, but NO part of it is valued, because you recognize it as ONLY a dream.

To be victim in a dream means you have failed to recognize it as ONLY a dream and, as a result, the dream controls you. Nevertheless, although you choose to be controlled by a dream, it is still ONLY a dream and you can choose to SEE it differently.

You will soon learn that you can do anything you choose. However, every choice asserts VALUE and what you value you will idolize as “real” and forget that it is all ONLY a dream.

In a dream, there is no right or wrong choice, simply because ALL of it is ONLY a dream. No choice is more or less important than another, because every choice is made IN a dream.

The only real choice to be made is to wake the fook up. No other choice matters. If you idolize certain choices IN the dream as “real,” then the dream controls you and you will feel as if you have no choice.

It's very simple....make every choice in a dream, prove to you it is ONLY a dream.

Choices can only become valued as necessary in a world interpreted as “real.” Your only option is to alter that interpretation.

You have tried to make perception fit your grand plans.

You've given great value to specific parts of what you perceive, while attempting to devalue other parts. You've tried to deny, ignore and even hide. You’ve applied progressively greater control to what you perceive, often through anger and attack. You’ve cried tears of despair and begged the "world" to give you what you need. You've prayed, meditated and raged. You've used chemicals to numb yourself to what you perceive and have sought to overhaul your constant suffering through idolizing pleasurable experiences. You've tried many things to make it all better.

Nevertheless, nothing has yet mitigated your dream of suffering. None of these measures have worked and, if they have provided any relief at all, only a brief time elapses before your misery again rises up to consume your mind. What more can you do? What other “choices” are left to you?

ALL of the options you have so far chosen demand your world be “real.” You have done many things to end your suffering in the dream, except realize it IS a dream and this is the only option left to you. I recommend you choose the only option that is guaranteed to work without fail.

When you know it is ONLY a dream, the dream no longer controls you. Yet, you must recognize it ALL as ONLY a dream. There can be NO doubt. No part of what is ONLY a dream can be of more or less importance than any other part. Otherwise, you will idolize specific parts as valuable and what is assessed as valuable becomes more “real” for you. This is the dream you now believe, and suffer accordingly, as “real.”

I simply recommend a means of escaping enslavement to what you believe “real.” You made war “real” because, in your dream, some parts are to be feared and hated. In your dream, some parts must be destroyed, else you believe they will destroy you. In your dream, you CAN be destroyed.

Accept it all as ONLY a dream and realize you are infinitely invulnerable.

Of course, your dream will not react positively to knowing it is ONLY a dream. But that's okay because it's ONLY a dream. Ha!

To fully understand and SEE this is to experience a JOY that is beyond anything you have experienced or could even imagine experiencing. It is a freedom that offers infinite peace and a love that will encompass every part of your mind. For in this VISION is the realization that ALL suffering has never been “real” and, in understanding this, suffering takes on new meaning.

Yet, there is still another world for you to see.

However, no “eyes” will show it to you because IT IS REAL. Words from the dream cannot describe its utter beauty and, hence, I cannot tell you what you will experience because there are no “dream words” that fit such a description. Although, your dreaming does not suffice to keep you much longer from this experience. Let's not deny that you want it more than anything else.

Because you REMEMBER, and have NOT forgotten, you are teaching your ‘self” again what you have always KNOWN.

It is only a breath away and waits patiently for you to accept its VISION.

But first, you must accept that it's ALL ONLY a dream.


Artwork by Suzzan Blac - "Tension"

Hey Everybody!… EGO is in the House, Yo!

Ego must naturally resist all your attempts to transcend it, all the while, providing assurance that you are indeed making progress in becoming a more spiritual being. Egos love to feel “advanced.”

Ego does not wish for you to realize that YOU are in complete control and NOT IT.

Seek not to control IT and it will dissolve of the weight of it own delusional system. Why seek to control what is NOT real, except by imagining? Recognize that it is delusional and it can trouble you no more. You do NOT wish to control the world but to control the ego’s experience of a world.

Therefore, control the ego and the world conforms accordingly.

HOWEVER... the paradox is that to control egocentricity, you must relinquish ALL control. Obviously, "you" cannot possibly grasp this idea egocentrically, but why resist what is NOT real and has NO basis in TRUTH?

The ego really does not know what you should “do” and this is why you “change your mind” so often. One day you enjoy your work, the next you suffer through it. Today you love those you are close to, only to hate them or feel indifferent tomorrow. The body provides satisfaction until the times it must betray your trust in it. You fluctuate between the love of being “alive” and lamenting your "lot in life." Satisfaction is never steady and there is NO consistency or logic to the irrational chaos of egocentric decisions.

Therefore, it makes NO difference what you “do,” except to an egocentric, abstract and nebulous self-concept that must actualize itself through the actions, behaviors and movements of a body in order to realize it exists. Yet, clearly, the actions of the body have never sustained you and soon the body must decline to provide you satisfaction as it approaches its demise. Eventually, there will come a “time” when you’ll no longer look to the egos advice to “negotiate” your world...

...since your experience of a “world” was constructed by the ego to be non-negotiable. Do you really think that from a position of egocentricity, you have any control?

Just sit back and simply wait for the hopelessness of your situation to dawn upon you as it eventually MUST.

In the meantime, feel free to do whatever IT demands, only recognize it is the ego that makes the request and NOT YOU or the world you see. The world, of itself, can do nothing to you (except when you insist on egocentricity).

Do anything it demands. Only recognize from where the demand comes. If IT demands “happiness,” then give it up and if it demands the opposite of happiness, do as it asks and really grit and grind in your suffering. You may think that this means the ego is in control. However, the big difference is that you now KNOW you are UNDER control. This is contrary to your previous state of mind, which was that of denial, as if decisions made belonged exclusively to some REAL entity you referred to as “me.”

To switch from ego control to Christ Control requires you first become aware of the ego and identify all its many methods of control. Awareness, in and of itself, is the most powerful weapon you have against egocentric control and it requires you do nothing at all but... KNOW. With every move you make, every action taken, every thought/feeling experienced...inquire as to THE PURPOSE.

To “Know thyself” is an admonition promising freedom from your ‘self,’ because it has always been “you” that you seek freedom from. It is not the world, but your experience of the world that torments you and there is NO world apart from YOUR experience.

“Doing” is always of the ego, because it involves the body. This is why Christ Consciousness cares little for what you DO, but only for what you THINK.

Ego controls THOUGHT only when you deny it HAS control. 

Examine your thoughts right now. You feel disappointment in reading this, because egocentricity expects something more individually profound and “enlightening". You wish to be saved from the hell of your own mind and the ego informs you that what I provide is insufficient to that CHOSEN task (ego's love choices). The ego continues to demand that you learn to “transcend” IT only from those who claim to conform to the official transcendence rules. In addition, your body has not felt well for years and the ego continually reminds you of your nagging sense of angst from a general disillusionment with your routine and repetitive “life.” Hence, ego requires your frequent fixation on money, bodies and the demand that others meet your egocentric expectations. Mostly, you feel as though you've made little progress and are becoming bored with this whole silly “spiritual” game because, as the ego continues to inform, there is always a better "you" to experience. So keep on truckin' bro!

These thoughts that fill your mind are entirely egocentric, but you feel compelled to THINK them as you always have. But worry not, the ego informs you of the many ways to seek relief and so you turn to TV sitcoms, alcohol/drugs/medications, mindless fornication, shopping at the mall for shit you don't need, reading doomsday predictions, manicuring your lawn, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera, over and over, round and round it goes. And then, of course, you die…Ha! (the most fun you'll ever have!)

But these thoughts are NOT yours. They come from an aspect of mind, constructed out of fear, that has convinced you of the need for self-preservation. But that aspect does NOT exist and so these thoughts have no basis in reality. They do not exist and could not be thought at all, simply because that aspect you identify with does NOT exist.

Yet, still, you allow your "life" to be managed by that which is fucking NOT THERE.

The ego does not exist and all that is required is for you to be aware of it, in order to see it’s just NOT THERE (keeping in mind that "existence" is nothing more than an egocentric concept, no different than the "let's pretend" of childhood games)

Yet, you continue to claim that “I am me, goddammit!” Therefore, it is best that, during the times you insist on claiming to your ‘self’ that “I am me,” you simply remind yourself that you are under the egos control and if fear continues to plague your mind in any degree or level, realize that your reminder has gone unheeded and remind yourself again and again. Most of all, do not seek to control, overcome, appease, placate or punish your egocentricity for being what it IS. The ego is immune to its own control techniques and any attempts to use it against itself will only result in reinforcement and continued claims of “I am me!”

Christ Consciousness employs no forms of control, but merely watches in complete awareness. The most important tool of control the ego employs is your denial that IT exists. The paradox is that your awareness of it dissolves it immediately by admitting to its control, so that you can realize that there is nothing there. Be aware that it is NOT you who think thoughts of hell, causing you to suffer through an imaginary world.

The world appears entirely different to those who finally SEE the ego and realize it is NOT there.

Artwork by Suzzan Blac - "Bashing an Angel"

It's ALL in Your Head

To play infinitely in a finite world, simply dissociate from your significance.

To dissociate from the ego is to extract oneself from finite outcomes and the beliefs that determine such outcomes as valuable. However, this is liable to cause much suffering initially because, for a very long time, you have experienced value where none exists. To learn that everything you have ever valued is worthless, is a shock that many could not endure. Therefore, they remain fixated on valuing useless outcomes believing them rewards, when in fact, they merely maintain the suffering of a finite existence.

The seemingly omnipotent belief of your 'world' is to “rise above” and this is the outcome you pursue, but always in opposition to those who seek the same. The ego wants MORE. Therefore, to rise above what is below and always less, it must compete so that IT can know itself through the opposition of inequality. 

To SEE equality by equalizing your experiences, is to avoid being victimized by the ego-self you idolize as “you.” Your significance relies on that power alone. Make no mistake, the vision of equality is infinite, because IT has NO opposing forces.

Attach no significance to what you are shown from a state of egocentricity, because there is NO such state, hence, what IT sees cannot be real. The ego points out what it requires you see, because the ego manufactured the experience to be SEEN. Because you are fixated on the ego, you believe it is “you” and so you allow it to direct you. It demands you believe that what it shows “you” was there before you looked. This maintains your attachment to egocentric perception. Attach NO significance to what you SEE and learn that nothing was ever there to begin with. It is how you interpret what you SEE, that maintains egocentric suffering.

The groundwork is laid long before events are experienced. Belief is like a magic carpet that unrolls to disclose exactly what you expect to be “true.” Expectations are the molecules of experience and, when they oppose one another, experiences must conflict and demonstrate to you a chaos of your own invention. And you will suffer through the need to control what you made "true," by denying the fact that it is YOUR experience of opposing inequalities.

On many levels you do understand this, since you recognize that with every experience you have a choice on how to respond. Yet, how would you respond if you knew that your response has determined the experience prior to responding?

If nothing leaves your mind, then both situation and response are on equal terms. Although, you have divided experience in two, it is still unified because its origin is not split. The mind is whole, although you have split off parts of that experience to accentuate your separate egocentric fixation. The ego must experience parts for which to contrast and oppose itself against. Therefore, by dividing experience the ego remains a part of your mind and, by fixating on that part, you experience nothing as whole, simply because an ego can experience nothing as whole.

While parts must conflict and cause suffering, the whole is known by absolute peace in unifying all the parts into ONE. While the whole is infinite, the parts must expire because they cannot be sustained of their own accord, separate from the whole. This is why an ego-self must “die,” because it has rejected awareness of the whole in the delusion that IT can exist of its own accord. All finite experiences must expire because they have no basis to exist divided from the whole. Experiences that engage the mind from an egocentric perspective DIE, because nothing exists separate from the whole including YOU.

You desire egocentricity and your experiences conform to that criteria. Therefore, the ego requires controlling the conditions that make IT real. NOT to control is NOT to “exist.” A world unopposed and equal to the ego is a world an ego could NEVER exist in, because the ego exists through the opposition and conflict of inequality. Equality is infinite and can only dissolve all finite delusional experiences that the ego manufactures to prove IT exists.

The mind holds both the situation and your response, making both experiences equal because they originate from a whole. Yet, the ego must divide them up, accepting ownership of the response, but rejecting the situation as separate from itself. Yet, by taking ownership of the situation, your response must change in realization that the mind is the origin of ALL experience, since all experience is OF the mind ONLY.

Nothing leaves the mind.

Artwork by Adnrey - "Cook in Brain"

Egocentric Survival

"You" are an ego-self and the ego defines itself so profoundly by what it suffers through that to be absent of suffering is to be absent of identity.

However, for an ego not to identify with its experience of itself is not to exist and therefore, suffering emphasizes your “survival” and hence, continued existence. The main purpose of egocentricity is to “survive” (or remain centric or ‘centered’ in a ‘self’) and inherent to that survival is suffering. Therefore, an ego must seek out suffering as a means of identifying its main purpose of survival and, thereby, self-actualize. Your survival is the prime objective of egocentric identification and the more self-actualized and developed your ego is, the better your chances.

Simply look at your ‘self’ now, as you suffer through your days in the drive for momentary pleasures. You feel your pleasures indicate actual “living” but, make no mistake, it is your suffering that symbolizes your experience of being  “alive,” because the end of suffering would be the end of “you.” Without the suffering inherent to survival, who or what would you be?

You identify with a concept of self that does realize this, since it is associated with all the ego’s experiences. Yet, also inherent to that egocentric concept of ‘self’ is UNAWARENESS. Wrapped up in your egocentric identification is an unawareness that has become completely natural for you. This MUST remain “natural” as long as identification persists and there can be NO extraction from this predicament. The ego is what “you” believe you ARE and to terminate that belief requires the ego’s allegiance, which is impossible for an ego contingent on survival for self-actualization, although you may adopt a “non-dual” perspective and pretend that it doesn’t matter as a means of mitigating your pain. But then… every egocentrically adopted ‘perspective’ MATTERS, or why else would it be adopted and everything that matters must be suffered through.

Have you finally recognized that, in all your supreme and profound efforts to dissolve your egocentricity, amazingly it finds a way to remain INTACT and persist in suffering?

You could never escape your ‘self,’ since “you” require the participation of your ‘self’ to begin with. There is a part of your mind that is egoless, but in your belief that “you” are an egocentric, you have no way of communicating with that part and merely attach to egocentric concepts like “soul” or “spirit.” Although the ego-self can masquerade as “egoless,” by parroting the many ‘exalted’ in your world that make such claims, it could never adopt a belief that denies its egocentricity (exaltation is the height of egocentricity and that’s why you seek to emulate those models). This is contrary to the prime objective of “survival.” Thus, your only alternative is to dissociate from the prime objective.

Does this mean you should want to die?

It is your fear of death that makes the “idea” of death real for you, thus reinforcing and strengthening the ego’s appetite for survival. The ego has easily incorporated “wanting” death into its repertoire, since death reinforces its existence and facilitates “survival” as the chief means of self-actualizing in a “world” where death is treated as profoundly "real." Everything you do is in rebellion from death. But your rebellion inadvertently makes it real for you. Lay down your arms and embrace the enemy, for in your acceptance it easily dissolves, as you learn that it never existed in the first place. Some learn this only upon the moment of death.

So what’s the difference between wanting death and not wanting to survive?

You have NO personal experience of death, but you do experience your numerous means of survival. In fact, it takes up your mind and the whole of egocentric existence. Every day you seek to further actualize yourself in a world perceived as honoring DEATH and you demand your idea of a body conform to your idea of death. Every choice you make is made to further accentuate and improve your chances of survival based on your experience of a world that reflects these needs everywhere you look.

The objective of the ego is survival, but only because it has assured you of death. Survival opposes death, thereby, confirming the idea of death as real and unraveling the entire dualistic experience of ‘self’ and ‘world’ in chronic opposition in the battle to survive and maintain the idea of a 'life' prior to death.

If you wish to maintain the ego-self, then you must defend its experiences and that includes the numerous means of experiencing its ideas of death. The main method of defense is fear. You fear awakening to truth and thus, construct experiences to keep that fear alive and kicking. As long as you identify with these experiences, so long will survival be desired as a means to reinforce DEATH.

In the egos estimation the whole purpose behind the idea of your birth was to do battle with your idea of death and to the egocentric mind, there is no other reason to the inner experience you call 'life.' In identifying with the part of your mind that conceptualizes “death,” this delusion is camouflaged through ‘unawareness.' Simply look closely at your experience of a world and your complete indifference to the suffering and death of others (except for token efforts to appease egocentric guilt). Death is so absolutely REAL to you, that survival seems to be your only alternative.

Then why should you care about the death of others, when in fact their suffering and death merely reinforces the prime objective of SURVIVAL and, as we all know…

…only the fittest will survive and, thus, “life” becomes nothing more than vain and deluded attempts at reinforcing your survival needs.

Artwork by Jaroslaw Kukowski - "Poland"

Real or Illusion? (it makes NO “difference”)

You have so many things to take care of in your life. In fact, you often feel overwhelmed by too many problems and worries. But if you resist truth, existence must always seem overwhelming as you remain victim to one ‘problem"’ after another.

Truth cares little for what you ‘do’ and, because of that, is always IN everything you do and when you are certain of this, what you do will reflect that fact and be true for YOU as well.

But you’ve got a kids, work, bills, etc, etc. How can you ever expect to be aware of truth when life pulls you in so many directions?

Yet, why seek to make truth absent to specific circumstances? All your resistance come from the need to differentiate between levels of truth. The ego struggles to judge what is true as opposed to what is NOT true, beautiful as opposed to ugly, innocent as opposed to guilty, etc, etc, etc. Differences between the starving child of Ethiopia and the billionaire in Manhattan must be perceived by the ego in order to assert itself into its experience of a ‘world.’

Yet, truth has no levels and NO differences, because it includes NO opposing contrasts and attaches to NO specific circumstances or conditions. There is truth in everything you do, if only YOU didn't need to perceive ‘differences.’ Otherwise, you will only continue to seek out the differences and fail to realize the certainty of truth.

All experiences are true. Yet, because the ego requires truth be what it determines, it judges truth as absent in some circumstances, while present in others. Truth does not conform to egocentric expectations and therefore, is never absent when you choose, nor is it present by choice.

Thankfully, you have nothing to do with it.

However, many religions and philosophies teach you that the world is “illusion.” This obviously invites the individual egocentric ‘self’ to make determinations based on past experience (since the ego-self is entirely composed of past experience) in order to press itself INTO its experience of a “world.”

Yet, if every experience is true, your seeking differences demonstrates that you have determined otherwise and will subsequently continue to differentiate between true and false experiences. Truth is easy to understand and does not require learning. However, although your lack of understanding does NOT change Truth, YOU require it be learned and so, YOU have yet to understand it and this is why it makes no difference to the ego whether or not the world is all REAL or all ILLUSION.

Truth is certain. If it were not, it could not be true. Certainty places all the ego’s plans in jeopardy, because if ALL is certain, then everything the ego does makes NO difference TO that certainty. This invokes fear for an ego requiring the world remain uncertain, because the ego’s experience of itself is manufactured entirely from uncertainty. An ego convinced of certainty could NOT exist. Your world is a product of uncertainty, but because truth is certain, an uncertain world could NEVER exist.

Make no mistake, everything you DO is as certain as what is NOT done. Every action, every thought, every feeling, every mood that seems to spontaneously lift you up or press down upon you, is as certain as your reading these words in this very moment.


But you believe there is no certainty. You could die on your way home from work today. You can’t predict the future and that’s the only way you could be certain of anything.

An uncertain world can be seen through truth, which would naturally dissolve all uncertainty and doubt. Actually, YOU CAN predict the future and YOU HAVE. Yet, you have predicted it to be uncertain and so IT IS. Yet, how could any predictions, divorced from truth, be valid? What you expect from uncertainty is NOT True and what is NOT True could never be real.

You could experience yourself dying in a car accident. But this does not make it true except to perception that SEES differences through uncertainty. You believe in the products of uncertainty and this is what you experience because perception always FOLLOWS belief.

Yet, you protest, “Wait a minute! First you say all my experiences are true and then you say that my experiences from uncertainty are not true. Which is it?

You have NO experiences from uncertainty, although you believe you do. However, such belief does not make it true. You believe you can have experiences from uncertainty, but this is impossible, since uncertainty does NOT exist. Every experience you have is true, yet, only BECAUSE uncertainty does NOT exist.

Behind all your uncertainty and doubt is the certainty inherent to your experience of Being and fortunately for “you,” nothing is free of that and, therefore, everything IS free. Engage your world from certainty and naturally reformulate your perception completely free of all fear.

It is your uncertainty that demands that you control conditions arising from ‘chance.’ Engage your world from certainty and be free of the need to control the very conditions you impose. Everything is certain and you need control nothing.

You believe “free-will” allows you more control and more choices. This misinterpretation of free-will has led to centuries of suffering. Only when control is no longer needed is your WILL free. Yet, as long as you feel you must control the conditions that arise from uncertainty and doubt, you will always believe your are victim to the world. This is simply not true and I recommend you conduct your life as if it were false.


Artwork by Eli Tiunine - "Shizophrenie"

“YOU” are Scripted

Do you you revel and rejoice in your unique individuality? Are you ‘special’? Do you seek attention by pressing your “unique” attributes against your experience of a ‘world’? Does your ‘self’ shrivel when ignored or negated? Do you find the need to compare and contrast your ‘ego-self’ against other egos in your experience of a ‘world’? Do you have an ‘ideal’ of what a well-developed ‘self’ really is and thus, seek to make it 'real'?

Well, rest assured my friend, this need not be. You are a fully scripted “individual” with as much uniqueness as a grain of sand.

There is NO unique individuality and every role you play has an attached script that you follow to the letter. 

Closely examine all the spiritual blogs you love so much and you will see scripts being wonderfully adhered to in order to present a spiritual ‘self’ to the world. Note that all egocentric interactions are nothing more than scripted engagements.

Recognize that even my identification of scripts is itself scripted.

Ah…but note also how this grates against your ego-self, that demands its uniqueness be glorified as “you.” Note how you follow the script of anger and resentment that I would have the audacity to deny your unique individuality. Note the scripts your immediately choose to contradict my assertion.

Will you protest? Scripted! Will you ignore and avoid? That’s scripted too. There is not much you really have to choose from and attempting to become unscripted has its own script as well.

Whew!…isn’t it a relief not to have to struggle and sacrifice to uphold your “uniqueness” anymore. Isn’t it wonderful to be free of all the stress that comes from demanding your individuality be recognized as “you” Ha!

Now that’s freedom!
(of course, your “freedom” is also scripted..... sorry)


Artwork by Michael Hussar - “White Rooster”

The Mutual Actualization of Truth

The ego-self is a powerful mechanism of individual self-actualization.

Ironically, the sole reason for the ego-self 's existence is to continually maximize itself to prove it ‘exists’ and is as ‘real’ as everything else it senses and judges as existing. 

The more self-actualized, the more certain is existence to an ego-self. This is because without continued self-actualization the ego must doubt its existence, since an ego-self cannot conform to the same empirical standards it uses to prove (science) the existence of the world it experiences.

The world is physically measurable through sense impression, but an ego meets no such standards, since it takes up no space and it is the very mechanism that judges the existence of empirical reality through sensation. The ego cannot sense itself as existing without the physical body that seems to contain and limit it (and which it suffers from). Except for continued conceptual self-actualization, the ego has no means of proving it is real in the same way it has come to believe in the reality of its ‘world.’

Therefore, the ego must continually self-actualize (compete) by pressing itself into, and against, what it experiences, and then defines, as empirical or physical reality. As an embodied 'self' it must contrast against other bodies in order to know that it, the ego, is as real as what it experiences through sensation. This makes the body paramount to ego existence and, if the body were to disappear, the ego would then automatically judge itself as non-existent, since it would have nothing for which to measure self-actualization in an empirical world (and this tends to define 'death' for the ego-self).

To an ego-self there must always be conflict between bodies. This is the only way an ego can actualize and believe in itself as 'real.' This is because an ego-self is conceptual (based on nothing more than identifying with ‘ideas’ of what it is and is not). It has no physical properties other than the body it believes contains it. Yet, it does realize that the body is NOT IT, simply because a body can still exist without an ego, but an ego cannot exist without a body (in relation to conditions of comatose or unconsciousness). Therefore, the ego must always include the body as part of itself, because without a body it could not actualize and hence exist.

An ego is impervious to peace (absence of conflict) simply because peace is an absence of conflict between bodies and such an absence would negate the egos ability to continually actualize proof of its existence. As long as the ego-self (“you”) defines itself as an individual IT MUST experience conflict, because individuals must be defined by limits and boundaries in order to contrast and conflict with other individual bodies.

If you stub your toe, a bodily limit has been breached. However, have your toes stepped on by another and, although the pain (reminder of a breached bodily limit) may dissipate and dissolve, the breach to self may linger on. Thus, you must always be vigilant against breach of bodily limits but, more importantly, breaching the conditions and limits of the self is often more threatening, since it impairs self-actualization which negates existence. This is why the ego may seek out bodily risks as pleasurable (dangerous sports, auto-racing, sky-diving, etc) but will avoid psychological/emotional pain as holding a much greater risk to 'self.'

As long as you are aware of yourself as limited by (and to) a body, you must experience conflict between bodies. However, if a body breaches your limits, it is always the self of that body that is condemned and attacked, because without a 'self,' the body can do nothing at all.

There is no escape from this need for contrast and conflict and it is endemic to an embodied ego-self. 

The world teaches self-actualizing values that reinforce egocentric existence, setting the limits and boundaries to that existence. The ego looks to the world for instruction on self-actualizing and all you need do is decide to ignore those means of egoic self-actualization simply because they promote limits and conditions (which, of course, will be significantly uncomfortable to the ego-self conditioned by the world's values of self-actualization).

The chief method of overcoming egocentric actualization is to actualize with another. But an ego-self must be convinced that mutual actualization enhances itself and not just another.

When boundaries lose relevance and become unnecessary, egoic need for conflict between embodied selves becomes less antagonistic and threatening. Mutually engaged actualization dissolves conflicting interests and opens up communication channels, previously seen as too threatening. This promotes depth of understanding and a psychological intimacy that increasingly builds upon itself by further discarding limits and conditions.

Very simply, bodies no longer take priority when minds join in discovering truth. 

When two or more share a common interest in recognizing and discarding limits and boundaries, egocentric individuality can become unlimited, because increased trust and safety naturally overrides fear. As fear recedes, limits dissolve (since ALL limits are fear-based) and individuals engage in a mutual exploration of each other, through each other, thereby, increasing self-actualization of both, equally.

You will know and understand your ‘self’ through knowing and understanding another. There is NO other way to fully understand your ‘self’ than to fully understand another and be understood by another. This is what we long for and the ego recognizes that longing, but can only be confused by, since it clashes with all egocentric goals. Therefore, it interprets this longing for itself only.

This is why love is a victim of relativity in the ego's world and fails to sustain or even remain.

Nevertheless, such mutual actualization of truth has always been your deepest goal. This is the path to awakening together and discovering a truth available to all minds, but never to individual minds seeking alone. This is how it was supposed to be, until the ego collapsed love into fear and 'individuality' became the means of communicating with nothing, creating a world where nothing is communicated of any substance and, although everything seems to change, repetition rules the world.

Artwork by De Es Schwertberger - "Vision One"

To Experience the Opposite of "Meaningful".......Choose the Red Pill!

Eventually you must choose between the blue or the red pill.

It’s either meaningful or it means nothing at all.

If it is meaningful then, by all means, feed you head. But, what if all the important meanings you superimpose upon your experiences do nothing more than impede experiencing what is beyond your egocentric narcissistic meanings?

But can the meaningless BE experienced?

When you’re through superimposing your egocentric meanings upon the 'world' (that you experience), what will you 'have'? What will “you” experience?

Obviously, the ego-self fears the meaningless. To believe it could experience the meaningless would assert that the meaningless could exist.

If something with NO meaning could exist, then this would place grave doubt upon the existence of the ego-self, because an egocentric 'existence' is entirely predicated on meaning. Meaning is vital to all interpretations of experience. Therefore, the ego affixes meaning to every experience. Even to say something is generally “meaningless” asserts the opposite, since if it did not mean something, how would you be aware of it in order to judge it meaningless? However, to assert something as "meaningful" has no opposite, since the ego could never be aware of that which means nothing.

Yet, the ego-self believes there is nothing beyond what it experiences. This is why it invents concepts of transcendence (religion/spirituality) to aid in providing meaning to its experiences of "transcendence" (notice how even the word "transcendence" is packed with meaning).

A transcendent experience can never mean nothing and must always mean something and this is why you regularly fail to experience your "transcendence," simply because you have been taught what it means and that is precisely what you experience...egocentric meaning.

Eckhart Tolle claims to have experienced ego transcendence. Nevertheless, it was only after running his experience through the ideological meat grinder of past interpretations, that he was able to apply an egocentric interpretation that helped him make sense of what it WAS …

…but is that what it IS?

First, the ego injects meaning into the world. It then has an extraordinary experience, not easily identifiable from the normal menu of world-based interpretations. Nevertheless, it looks to the meanings already in the world to aid in making sense of its extraordinary experiences. Notice the ‘circularity of meaning’ applied to the meaningless, thereby rendering it virtually useless. (this may be difficult to understand for those who believe they have “discovered” what it all means).

The ego must superimpose meaning upon the meaningless in order to maintain its own experience of itself as meaningfully “real.” Not to experience itself as meaningfully real would be a one-way ticket to the looney bin (or non-existence). Therefore, the ego must SEE the meaning it imposes into the world and this is exclusively an internal operation and has little to do with an external world.

In fact, an external world need not exist at all (if it even does!) for the ego to superimpose meaning.

If you experience a "happy" or pleasurable world, then it is the ego that gives it that meaning. If you see a cruel, destructive or fearful world, again, the ego has superimposed this meaning upon its interior experience of a world. Yet, whatever meaning you apply must always presuppose its opposite as also ‘existing’ and this determines the inconsistency of egocentrically imposed meanings. Superimpose "happy" and an experience of "sad" is made "real." Such is the “dualism” of the egocentric This is why we often fail to accurately evaluate what it is we are experiencing and why “bad” experiences are frequently re-evaluated as beneficial or “good” only in retrospect.

But can an ego-self ever experience the opposite of meaning or complete meaningless?

If the meaning of all your experiences are egocentrically determined then, subsequently, this can only mean that the world you experience is meaningless until you give it meaning.

Therefore, the ground, or foundation, of all meaning is entirely absent of all meaning. 

The meaningless is infinite, while egoic meaning is finite and changes with time, since that's the meaning egocentrically applied to time (otherwise how could it exist as it does?).

For an ego-self to identify with its own egocentricity it must always choose the blue pill over the red pill. Choose the blue pill and you invite the ego to continue to impose meanings that it asserts as “real,” thereby insuring experiences continue to enhance or detract from itself (this is interpreted as "suffering"). To choose the red pill is to plummet from your warm and comfortable bed of meanings into an infinite universe of meaninglessness (this too is interpreted as "suffering," although it's a misinterpretation).

But don’t be afraid…because when “you” give up the finite games you’ve imposed meaning to, it all becomes infinitely meaningful (but not in anyway you could imagine at the moment).

One pill makes you larger
And one pill makes you small,
And the ones that mother gives you
Don't do anything at all.
 

Go ask Alice
When she's ten feet tall.

And if you go chasing rabbits
And you know you're going to fall,
Tell 'em a hookah smoking caterpillar
Has given you the call.

Call Alice
When she was just small.

When the men on the chessboard
Get up and tell you where to go
And you've just had some kind of mushroom
And your mind is moving low.

Go ask Alice
I think she'll know.

When logic and proportion
Have fallen sloppy dead,
And the White Knight is talking backwards
And the Red Queen's "off with her head!"
Remember what the dormouse said:
 

Feed your head.
Feed your head.
Feed your head

(Jefferson Airplane)

Artwork by Fred Weidmann  - "Evolution Without Goal"

Sex, Drugs and.......Meditation!

The research is indisputable and there is no denying the beneficial effects of meditation upon the body and mind. It lowers heart rate and cholesterol, normalizes blood sugar, strengthens the immune system, improves sleep, etc, etc, etc, on and on and on (Sedona Meditation Research).

If this is all we expect than there shouldn't be any problem. But oh, how we love to stimulate our brain chemicals! Some people live for it (and, as I remember, not much else).

Drug addiction is a misnomer. The addiction is to neurochemicals stimulated through the potentiating effects from introducing a synthetic chemical to the natural mix, creating a lovely neurochemical cocktail.

Nobody’s really addicted to sex, but to the end product of sexual activity (orgasm) which is nothing more than the hyper-stimulation of neurochemicals, i.e., serotonin, dopamine, melatonin, and the opiate receptors of the brain.

It seems there is always a reward that drives us ever onward and for some, that goal is nothing more than neurochemical stimulation.

In fact, some have made that neuro-stimulation a “sacred" reward.

The wonders of science has accurately identified the stimulation of brain chemicals through meditation (Spiritual Competency.com). It is now scientifically established that if you sit in seclusion for long enough, eventually you can be certain that some degree of neurochemical stimulation will occur.

In fact, just like heroin or LSD (been there done that) can cause one to sink into an effortless reverie of pure bliss or synethesia (hearing colors, seeing sounds), meditation is equally effective (just takes a bit longer) at stimulating the pleasure centers of the brain and providing the same neuro-stimulation without the dangers and illegalities of heroin or LSD.

In fact, it seems reasonable to expect that the longer and more disciplined your meditative efforts, the more intense might be your neurochemical stimulation (the Big Buzz!). Therefore, you can essentially train yourself to get 'high.'

However, this appears to pose a problem, since the more intense your brain chemical stimulation the more likely the ego will superimpose some grandiose “sanctified” interpretation (extracted from past religious/spiritual ideologies) upon the neurochemical experience. This inadvertently results in the desire to interpret these intoxicating whiz-bang neuro-stimulative encounters as episodes of spiritual “enlightenment” or “awakening,” “revelation,” “nirvana,” etc, etc, etc.

Unfortunately, the ancient wisdom traditions could not benefit from modern medical science and knew nothing of neurochemical imbalances. However, today when we read about the excesses of the modern gurus, the sexual indiscretions, the greed, corruption (and frequent need for lawyers) we can be confidant that it’s nothing more than clinical bipolar disorder or significant neurochemical imbalances resulting in mood disorders.

If you want your mood-altering neurochemical states to be ‘sacred’ than by all means, call it an “awakening” or even "enlightenment."

However, most likely God will refuse to meet with you until you get off the neurochemicals.

Picture yourself in a boat on a river,
With tangerine trees and marmalade skies.
Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly,

A girl with kaleidoscope eyes.

Cellophane flowers of yellow and green,
Towering over your head.
Look for the girl with the sun in her eyes,
And she's gone.

Lucy in the sky with diamonds,
Lucy in the sky with diamonds,
Lucy in the sky with diamonds,
Ah... Ah...

Follow her down to a bridge by a fountain,
Where rocking horse people eat marshmallow pies.
Everyone smiles as you drift past the flowers,

That grow so incredibly high.

Newspaper taxis appear on the shore,
Waiting to take you away.
Climb in the back with your head in the clouds,
And you're gone.

Lucy in the sky with diamonds,
Lucy in the sky with diamonds,
Lucy in the sky with diamonds,
Ah... Ah...

Picture yourself on a train in a station,
With plasticine porters with looking glass ties.
Suddenly someone is there at the turnstile,
The girl with kaleidoscope eyes.

Lucy in the sky with diamonds,
Lucy in the sky with diamonds,
Lucy in the sky with diamonds,

(Beatles)


Image by Martina Hoffman - "Lysergic Summer Dream"

Toxic Being or "Pure Being" is Pure Bullshit.

Here is a typical non-dual quote: “Awakening is the experience of Pure Being.”

Abstractions such as this compel the non-dualer wannabes to consider "Pure Being" as individually attainable and then work to attain it.

“Hey, Joey, look at me! I’m Pure Being, bro!”

The problem is that "Pure Being" is another egoic delusion and, therefore, you will never access it, because it’ll never be “pure.”

So maybe you should accept the toxicity of Being?

If it’s relating to the world that you find ‘toxic,’ and thus seek to ‘purify,’ than count Being out of that equation (oh, it’s still there, you just don't realize it because you consider it 'impure').

Of course, you can conjure up all manner of meditative neurochemical imbalances, get some great whiz-bangs, and call that an experience of “Pure Being.” But then, you can also have an exhilarating bowel movement and call that an experience of Pure Being. What's the difference? (had one just this morning!).

Being is experienced in relationship and it is never “pure,” or free of engagement, although the depth of that engagement may be self-limiting. Pick and choose a "path" to Being and, make no mistake, your engagement with Being may Be significantly curtailed.

Being don’t need no stinkin “spiritual path” to Be.

You certainly experience a separate ‘self,’ but that self is always in relationship to other separate selves. Being knows it is Being through engagement with an experience of a ‘world.’

Hey, maybe that’s why the experience was conjured up in the first place! Ya think?

Your Being is never NOT in relationship. Being does NOT exist free of engagement and the fact that you believe it does, results in your failure to experience it (because you’re off on some mountain top seeking “Pure Being”). Being is always engaged and Being NOT in relationship, is just NOT Being and that’s impossible! (so furgetboutit).

Just because your not all comfy cozy with what you’re Being with, is not the fault of Being. Nope, that’s just ego-self informing you what you should and should not Be with (or ‘do’). But that’s Being too, only you think not and decide to meditate for 20 years to find it (lucky for you that too is Being, only stop complaining about needing to "awaken").

However, you may find that the deeper you engage the ‘world’ you are Being with, the more intense that relationship is experienced and the more Being is accentuated and 'known.' (so come down from your mental mountain top and engage with your experience of a 'world').

The “I AM” is another mirage of an ego-self relating to its own self-construction at the expense of Being.

There is no “I” separate from Being engaged with “them.” You will know your Being through Being with others, all Being in a ‘world.’ However, you’re gonna need to BE with all of it. Exclude parts and ego has taken over and you’ll just complain about it not Being the way you want.

BEING WITH OTHERS IN A 'WORLD'

However, one day your ‘self’ will choose another ‘self’ to deeply engage with and we all feel that pull eventually (although we erroneously attribute it to bodily drives and instincts). This can actually be a quick and easy way of experiencing Being. Unfortunately, the very nature of your ego-self (“I”) will impede and limit the depth of that engagement and you will come close to the opportunity to experience Being (as 'one,' with and through another), only to extinguish it with "your" conditions.

You may never forget the intensity of that experience, and how it caused you to fully and deeply engage WITH your ‘world,’ but you may fail to realize that it was “you” who chose to end it. Nevertheless, when this is finally realized, you can always choose again and this time make the right choice. Eventually the right choice will be made and that's certain, so don't sweat it.

(Artwork by Leo Plaw)

The Healed Moment of Vertical Time

A healed moment is one in which you have escaped from the concepts of your mind, which imprison others and cause you to suffer because they fail to meet your criteria. The concepts are still there, but they cease to capture you based on what you demand from others and the 'world.'

We could say that in a healed moment the 'world' still exists. However, you no longer experience yourself as its victim because of how you now ‘see’ it and others in it.

When two or more share perfect equality, in a ‘world’ of confusing hierarchies, levels and degrees, time is experienced as vertical and not horizontal.

This does not negate ‘time’ just allows it to be realized from a Deep Spirit perspective. Vertical time takes up no space and everything needed is contained in one moment and experienced in one moment. But it cannot be experienced alone, since that continually reestablishes the incompletion of your autonomous egocentric identity, which continues to require time and space, or horizontal time, for which to achieve its completion.

A healed moment is entirely absent of all conflict, because there is no right or wrong for which to distinguish needs. A perspective that emphasizes lack or deficiency seeks to blame the world for what is lacking in the belief that what is needed must be found in the 'world.' This is always cause for conflict and is why all true 'awakenings' involve the world. No one awakens alone, because "it takes a village" to teach and learn fear.

Therefore, only a collective can awaken to its own unified completion in order to end all fear and conflict for its members. This literally alters the physical landscape because space/time is useless to those who need nothing because they experience NO lack or deficiency.

If you experience a world of lack and deficiency, make no mistake, that experience is entirely 'within' you and is not contingent on an external world and in no way related to anyone but your ‘self.’ However, dissolving that experience must involve another; otherwise, it only serves to reinforce your egoic construct of autonomous fear. The ego will always fear what it experiences as apart from itself and this is why you often experience the world as a very fearful ‘place’ to be.

Examine closely any problem you experience and you will understand the causal interdependency of collective consciousness. All conflict must involve another and every individual problem is intricately interrelated to your experience of a world full of other minds interacting with yours. This is because every problem you experience comes from a lack and the ego will always recognize what it lacks based on what it believes others HAVE.

Did you find the “soul mate” who will finally complete you? Did you seek your completion through another only to find that they could not give you what you lacked, even though you perceived them as having what you needed? Does someone you 'love' reinforce your lack by what they have? Are they withholding from you because they believe you withhold from them? Do you really have what they need?

The ego seeks to claim from others what it lacks in itself and this is often misinterpreted as complementarity. Unfortunately, the ego that fails to access Deep Spirit will fail to realize the futility of such a search and only continue searching more persistently.

You lack nothing. However, the ego-self is nothing more than a belief in lack and everyone who has what you need, also wants what you have, because lack and need is how an ego-self defines “love.”

A healed moment experiences no lack because, in desiring to see another as complete, you immediately experience your own completion. In fully trusting another, you trust yourself. In seeking to experience perfect peace with another, perfect peace becomes yours and an experience of perfect peace is a healed moment of vertical time.

Although a healed moment is an experience of perfect peace through unified equality, the commitment to time returns. Nevertheless, the desire for another breathe of infinity is irresistible and you will seek out others for which to share in it. This results in an increase that exponentially magnifies its effects in the world each and every time it is shared.

The only resistance encountered is by those who still wish to awaken alone and pursue a continuance of that autonomy.

But resistance to truth is a futile endeavor and merely delays time. The non-dualism of unified atonement is an unbreakable chain that grows with the linking of each 'individual' mind and this provides an experience of accelerating time. You cannot know what is rapidly approached, but you feel it is ultimately momentous and profound and this feeling is always available when experiencing from Deep Spirit.

Therefore, since it is only a matter of ‘time,’ why delay?

More Egoic 'Do-Do' from the Enlightened Master of Bullshit

The question respectfully posed is “Out of curiosity, is there a goal attached to dispelling all indoctrinated conditioning and beliefs? What would the world be like, in your opinion?”

Obviously, to an ego-self writing these essays, a goal is assumed, no matter how mightily the writer may wish to assert being goal-free or egoless. Every post on this ‘blog’ has some degree of conditioned belief due to the very fact that “I” am conveying some sense of meaning to “you,” which must always rely on what was learned from the past, since that’s “where” I come from (as do you).

Therefore, I could never convey any sense of "The Unconditioned" (serious stuff), other than to say that it will be a delightful 'surprise' beyond anything you or I could possibly conceive (obviously, since all conceived is conditioned). But, alas, my friends, even that expression is conditioned from the past and should be blatantly ignored.

There have been many reports of breaks with reality or the “reality orientation model” that we seek to be free of. Unfortunately, these are conventionally interpreted (through that same model) as insanity or “enlightenment.” We disregard insanity, yet, you will find such "enlightenment" interpretations all throughout the internet, usually beginning with “because Buddha said….”

Most of the spiritual 'doers' teach you to “discipline” your thinking. Ha! Discipline?! As one who spent 6 years active, in the United States Marine Corps, discipline facilitates many types of thought processes, but “Awakening” is not one of them.

Nevertheless, notice how many modern masters rely on previous teachings, as if the past was in any way valuable. This is done in order to assert credibility (because only the credible can win finite “awakening” games), as if somebody named “Buddha” actually existed.

Buddha says: "Get down and give me twenty, maggot!”

So what would the world look like if there was no “truth”? This is because truth doesn’t exist until you make it up. It doesn’t ‘exist’ and has never existed and, therefore, it cannot be found and there’s nothing “you” can do to find it. Therefore, "truth" can be anything you want it to be...

... and it's always what you expect.

Whoa! I just lost 1000 readers! Damn, how will I ever make divine, superconscious, “master” grade, unless I can drum up the required credibility.

You demand techniques from ideologies and I come along to inform that it’s all friggin’ bullshit (which negates my credibility and any chances of attaining the coveted title of 'awakened"). All of it and, yes, even this, is bullshit. In fact, in contrast to your "Enlightened Master," I’m the "Master of Bullshit" so ignore all the 'do-do' I prescribe.

You (ego-self) need to ‘know’ the facts and so you seek out the proprietors of truth who specifically delineate a prescribed “path” or a ‘way’ that always involves ‘doing’ something and the ego must do-do all over the place in order to feel meaningful.

If you keep demanding this 'shit,' they will keep providing it.

This 'opinion' goes against the conventional pop-spirituality views and it is why this blog will soon be resigned to disintegration, simply because it deviates from the spiritual status-quo (I sense it is fading away even now). The ego demands a plan, but this blog asserts that there’s nothing “you” can do to find truth. Yet, only when “you” finish up all your ‘doing’ will you realize that nothing needed to be done. Isn’t it wonderful to “know” that “you” need do nothing to find truth, simply because there’s nothing you can do? But is that the “truth”?

Absolutely NOT!

Simply because that makes absolutely no sense to an ego-self determined to 'know.' So go ahead, homeboy, “crack that whip!” Make “truth” happen!

Crack that whip
Give the past the slip
Step on a crack
Break your mommas back

When a problem comes along
You must whip it
Before the cream sits out too long
You must whip it
When somethings going wrong
You must whip it

Now whip it
Into shape
Shape it up
Get straight
Go forward
Move ahead
Try to detect it

Its not too late
To whip it
Whip it good

When a good time turns around
You must whip it
You will never live it down
Unless you whip it
No one gets away
Until they whip it

Now whip it
Into shape
Shape it up
Get straight
Go forward
Move ahead
Try to detect it
Its not too late

To whip it
Whip it good

(Devo)

Awakening From The Dream of Dreaming You're Awakening

Can you really awaken from the "dream"? What will you find? Who will you be? Nirvana, pure bliss, absolute truth, heaven, universal consciousness, pure awareness, yourself, God?

Or will you merely awaken to another dream? Much like the last dream, but still, a different dream in which you again dream of "awakening" from the dream? Only to "awaken" to another dream of "awakening" and then another and another?

If truth is infinite is there a point at which the dreaming stops and finally becomes "real"?

Why seek to transcend the illusion, when there is nothing "real"? Note that your term "illusion" is entirely dependent on its contrasting opposite, the "real." Maybe “real” is a concept your ego conjured up so that you wouldn’t have to take responsibility for the "illusion"? Gee, isn't that convenient.

You seek to transcend the illusion, rather than change it, simply because it's not "real" and is an "illusion." Whew! Lucky for you. Just imagine if all that death and destruction were real! Then who would you be? Obviously, you would then have no choice but to seek to change the "hell" you made and if you experience "hell," then no doubt you made it. If it's all illusion, then make no mistake, it's your "illusion."

What about your loved ones? What about your children, are they illusion? Why would you love what is NOT "real"? Or maybe your "love," too, is illusion?

If it all just "arises," do you ever wonder why it arises specifically as YOU seem to experience it? Why do some seem to experience great wealth, abundance and happiness? Obviously, to be conscious OF something is to make it "real," isn’t that what quantum physics now tells us?

Maybe parts of the illusion are real, since how would your ego-self finally come to the conclusion that the world is illusory, if there was not something real IN the "illusion" that informs it of this fact? What part of the illusion informs you that it's all illusion? What are you using to illuminate the contrast between your illusion and the something else you call "real"? If it weren't for the "illusion" you would not be chasing the "real." Therefore, are you not grateful to your "illusion"? But would your gratitude make it "real"?

“Real” and “illusion” is one experience that you split in two. Illusion is as much a part of truth as anything else, otherwise why would you be 'aware' of it. Stop throwing out the baby with the bathwater. Illusion is real and real is illusion. Wrap your mind around that and stop trying to judge between the two. You can’t split truth in two. The whole is not available to the parts, but all the parts are included in the whole. Attach to one part, in contrast to another, and miss the whole entirely.

What’s the matter, don’t you like it 'here'? Then stop your spiritual whining and fix it. But then, why engage an "illusion," right? The perfect copout!

"The world is an illusion" teaches an invalid conclusion based on a faulty premise. The premise being that there is something other than “illusion” that is not "illusion." So rather than remain fixated on your spiritual brainwashing, by continuing to repeat the tired old slogan, "the world is an illusion," try closely examining your concept of ‘real.’

The ancient teachings that point to the "real" come directly from your experience of being IN a world and are part of that whole. However, the teachings seek to negate part of your experience as illusion.

But the illusion is what is teaching you it’s an illusion.

Non-dualism seeks to separate off parts based on the dualistic premise that there are some experiences that are NOT 'part' of the illusion. If it’s not illusory then, of course, this means there is a part of your experience that is "real" (or more "real") than what you now experience. Unfortunately, you just haven’t had the "real" experience yet. Too bad for you.

So what part is "real"? Well, the rules state that the ultimate reality cannot be talked about, since words only relate to the "illusion" and are symbols of symbols. Therefore, you must follow the path of austerity and realize "the real” and this realization is referred to as “awakening” or “enlightenment.” Yet, this premise has resulted in your negating one experience, while seeking out another and the villain in that negation is not the real “you,” but your ego-self.

Thus, the illusion seeks a way out of the illusion.

The claim is that, without the ego-self creating all these illusory experiences, you would be free to experience the real "you" instead. Note how the illusory “you” must now search for the "real" you, which you have not yet been acquainted with (experienced). But don’t worry, says the illusory “you,” we will find the real "you" someday, if "you" sacrifice and struggle hard and long enough in your spiritual practices. HA, what a maroon!

The ego informs you that your “Being” will finally become the ‘experiencer’ of reality, while the ego will essentially cease to exist. Yet, does an ego-self not have Being? Maybe "Being” is nothing more than experience, experiencing itself as ego? Without an ego-self, who or what will experience anything?

Ally yourself exclusively with any part and you deny the whole and this includes "real" vs "illusion." There is no separation to experience and if you choose a part of your experience of ‘world,’ as teaching you that there is no world, then you have divided experience. Experience is what you ARE. It's ALL in your experience. It comes from “you” as a whole and “you” split it in two by negating a part as unworthy of your "awareness." To "Be of one voice" is to be of one experience. The only awakening you need to experience is understanding your ego-dynamics and, not for the purpose of rejection or exclusion of the ego-self, but simply to "know thyself" (Socrates).

Know your experience of ‘self’ and experience surprise in what “you” really are, which does not exclude anything, but includes all of it. The game is infinite because truth is infinite, which means "awakening" never ends. Therefore, this means that there is NO "awakening" and dreaming never ends.

It's all a dream and the dream is real.

Sweet dreams. Hahaa!
mikeS