HUMAN EGOCENTRICA PLAGUE: Symptomatic Stoopid...

Human egocentrica mammalia (or ego sapien, sapiens as opposed to homo sapien sapiens which means "wise person" in latin) is afflicted with a genetically inherited brain disorder that has been symptomatically progressing over the last 400,000 years. The symptoms of this plague have magnified with each generation, resulting in a growing incapacity of the neo-cortex to engage logic or reason (a chief purpose of that brain region), resulting in thoughts, emotions and behaviors that can be classified as symptoms of abject stoopid. 

These symptoms are universal and easily available for observation, not only in the behaviors of others, but in the dumb sheit you do as well, which continues to become more bizarre and absurdly ridiculous with each generation, resulting in an ever greater magnitude of justifying and rationalizing your behaviors as necessary for ego-sapien survival, even though the behaviors are indicative of a collective extinction and though you have no idea who or what the fook you are, you can't resist asserting into the nebulous nether some ridiculous concept of a "self" that demands you be offended and outraged when that self concept is negated by the cold, hard facts of brute reality as opposed to the delusions of institutional facts necessary to keep the circuits plugged into the matrix so the slaves have no compunction to even consider leaving the plantation.

METASTASIS CARCINOMA: The disease caused by an uncontrolled division of abnormal cells in a part of the body. Cancer is a disease in which cells grow and divide with little or no control. LINK

This nefarious carcinoma is no different than any other cancerous affliction defined by an uncontrollable division of abnormal cells. With symptomatic stoopid this uncontrollable division specifically affects the neural circuitry of the frontal lobe which, until recently, has served to provide ego-sapiens with the adaptive qualities necessary for surviving in unique environments and in altering those environments to meet his needs.

Yet, human egocentrica has progressively jettisoned his adaptive capacity as no longer necessary to his survival fitness and instead, has engaged a fixated hypnotized trance, inadvertently sculpting his neural pathways to conform to rogue neural circuits that have absolutely zero purpose in surviving or thriving, causing stoopid to become more obviously symptomatic, based on "stupid is as stupid does," the neural circuitry literally multiplies, hijacking circuits pertaining to logic and reason and rerouting those dendrite pathways to accommodate the cartoon logic of symptomatic stoopid.

The post-modern frontal fat (neocortex) of human egocentrica mammalia meets all the criteria of a carcinomic disease. It is abnormal in that no other species in the natural world has such a progressively engorged brain structure and the cells (neurons) of this fat fissured gelatinous mass, directly behind the forehead, are generating delusional associations, resulting in magnanimously jack-shite stupid behaviors, because "neurons that fire together, wire together" in a self-replicating echolalian feedback loop of rinse and repeat.

This inherited cancerous blight is directly associated with the brain's neuroplastic capacity to generate new circuits as a means of accommodating new experiences based on external influence and the need for survival. Yet, as the biological imperatives of survival lose electro-chemical current, cultural experiences become more patently vacuous, hollow and desolate, the brain generates new circuitry to accommodate to this ever increasing level of absurd emptiness, provoking more absurd behaviors (thought-emotion-behavior feedback loop), which then, subsequently, must be accommodated within the grey matter which, as is historically demonstrative, intensifies in perpetuity until you have the incongruously chaotic shit-storm experienced today on a macro and micro level.

In other words, the mirror neurons within your brain, which adopts social mimicry as a means of social attachment, insures the eventual extinction of human egocentrica mammalia, because behaviors indicative of a full blown, collective train wreck are symptoms of frontal lobe metastasis carcinoma and require, above all other criteria, monotonous repetition. Do anything long enough and any doubt as to the truth and reality of the act fades away like a stinky fart in the wind.

Even though the stoopid shite you do is evidently beyond base levels of pure crazy- town, dumb-arse, your brain has naturally accomodated to your bat-shite stoopid lifestyle as entirely normalized and, hence, your behaviors become stabilized and accentuated, changing only as the need to accommodate ever greater levels of bat-shite stoopid become hard-wired and this is simply in conformance to the evolutionary neural "pruning" process that your neurocircuitry cannot evade or escape, because it gave you life in the first place and survival is always the chief prerogative of every functioning brain (at least on a subcortical level)

Make no mistake, every fabricated fictional perspective you regularly magnify as "real" or "true" will become a hard-wired brain circuit demanding you subconsciously adapt behavior to that fictional perspective as "real," no matter how utterly delusional or illusory the belief, action and behavior conformity is automated. For instance, neuro-circuitry culturally programmed to adapt to the sacrificial Christ ideology will unconsciously modulate sensory apparatus to seek out the persecution of Christ everywhere, even in a slice of burnt toast. The body will always seek direction from neuro-circuited commands, resulting in microscopic cell conformity (neurons) to absurd realities and fictional truths provoking moronic behaviors.

Alas, the younger generation are more rapidly amenable to this frontal lobe carcinoma through the current screen-brain interface in which billions of high speed pixels mimic high speed neural activity resulting in a subconscious facsimile of actual existence that ultimately informs conscious real world behaviors, rerouting neuro-cricuits to direct actual behaviors to instinctively seek out and engage a pixelated fantasy world that simply does not exist anywhere but in the neuro-circuitry of the grey matter resulting in a squinting, open-mouth, plasma screen trance.

"For the younger generation, the course of boredom, disappointment, disillusion and demoralization is almost inevitable. As the products of invisible parents, commercialized education, cradle-to-grave marketing and a profoundly insane marketing programme, they must also assimilate into consumer culture while knowing from the outset that its workings are destroying the planet and jeopardizing their future. Understandably, they have become the trance generation, with an insatiable appetite for any technology that can downsize awareness and blunt the emotions. With society in existential crisis, and emotional life on a steep downward trajectory, trance is today's fastest growing consumer market." LINK

Historically, once afflicted, stoopidity cannot escape itself and, based on the Dunning-Kruger effect, can only replicate and magnify, simply because it has no conscious acknowledgement it even exists (anosognosia), let alone any real understanding of how it subconsciously (all rote, repetitive behavior drops into the subconscious/unconscious to preserve brain resources) informs the aberrant behaviors of the physical organism (human egocentrica mammalia) that the organism persists in manifesting, since the symptomatic nature of frontal lobe carcinoma hijacks the adaptive qualities of the neo-cortex for its own uses, which can only be progressively more stoopid.

I have worked with many ego-sapiens who have found a way to heal themselves from this cancerous plague.  Unfortunately, the healing process of disengaging from symptomatic stoopid is often long and arduous requiring complete abstinence from stoopid which, depending on how long stoopid has been the chief mode of interacting with reality (addiction), can result in numerous relapses back into stoopid. Yet, first one has to acknowledge stoopidity as a means of inoculating oneself from stoopid and this awareness, in and of itself, is entirely unavailable to most human egocentrica mammalians, simply because the frontal lobe circuitry of full blown, nutjob stoopid has become concretely hard-wired through incessant repetition over many years and decades, making egocentric stoopid no different than driving a car, requiring no real conscious thought whatsoever but, like driving a car, ego-sapiens demonstrate an effortlessly flawless performance of stoopid, each and every time.

I have also met with many symptomatic stoopids beyond all and any attempts to rehabilitate, because once the hard-wiring is solidified in the grey matter, the thoughts and behaviors become fixated and stoopidity completely takes over all brain based autonomic functions, the most insidious being the circuits dealing with language and emotion (hence, the chief mode of identifying symptomatic stoopid is by the guttural utterances that reflexively are expelled out their mouths, often with much finger pointing and tremorous gesticulation)

Alas, we are all afflicted my friends, as there is no cure, only palliative measures to subdue the symptoms. Even attaining to the enlightened knowledge that this cancerous plague exists, fails to insure immunity. One need only look to the symptomatic stoopidity of the current U.S. presidential candidates to realize the actual predicament we are in as a species. With a greater acceptance and emulation of abject ignorance with each passing year, ego-sapien as a species is surely doomed.

Artwork by InspiredInsanity

"Ha, Ha, Ha, Bless Your Soul...You Really Think You're in Control"

Just had an online converse with a nice chap who follows this blog and after wondered, 'why the fook would anyone follow this blog???'

Funny how life unfolds as it does...

Past experience has shaped the very contours of your brain and "you" go on as if none of that has ever happened, making decisions based on the excitatory and inhibitory electro-chemical impulses darting to and fro in your cranium but, as far as "you" are concerned, that's irrelevant to the decisions "you" make that arise from the fat between your ears.

I'm the boss of "me," gawd dammit!

Your entire life was sculpted to bring you right here, right now. Every experience drove you to the next experience, which influenced the next, on and on, wiring up your head fat to bring you here, today, to this moment right...now. In fact, without the 'happening' of a quadzillion historical precedents, "you" wouldn't even exist. But you do exist in your consciousness as a result of everything occurring exactly as it did over the last 4.543 billion years (none of which, I might add, did "you" have anything to do with in relation to how all that shite happened as it did and could not have happened in any other way than as it did)

You can't be anywhere else then where you are right now, because if you could be somewhere else right now, you would be there and nowhere else, especially not here.

I know, I know...(sigh)... it's a fooking suxs that you're here,  right now, reading this stoopid drivel, while you could be doing something important. But here you are, nonetheless.

But whadefook are you doing here? How the frick did you get here?

I'm from Phila and the surrounding subs. Did 6 yrs in the USMC and enjoyed running around in the woods playing combat and so, 25 yrs ago bought a house in the mountains with plenty of woods to run around in, but got bit by a dirty tic and now have protracted Lyme Disease, that I can handle most days, but right now I'm suffering through a full blown flare up. Right now, as I write these words, I am in total pain (not to mention had to shovel out from the snowpocalypse just dumped on me, which fooked up my back, reminding me that I'm a friggin old man...Lol).

But here I am, right now, right here...

I certainly could be somewhere else and, sometimes, God knows, I would like to be somewhere else then here, but ideas like that now quickly fade in the acceptance that I'm here...now. Not there, but here, encountering the experience here provides. I may NOT like the experience, but why deny it. It is and I'm experiencing it as it is, until it is something else entirely, which it, inevitably, will be and I have nothing whatsoever to do with what it will be when it will be something other than what it is, while for now, it is what it is, and "I" am here now, deeply in it, not wishing to extract out of it, cause that ain't up to me and I understand that fact fully without an inkling of a doubt (HINT: definition of "enlightenment")

I know some of my more astute and assertive readers will respond, "oh, how sweet, Mikey's giving us the 'be here now' script that we've all heard a million times before." Ha!

This "enlightenment" shite really sucks sometimes, but when you're here, there's nowhere else to be but here...

"It's my party, and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to, cry if I want to
You would cry too if it happened to you."

Artwork by Naoto Hattori

UNDERSTANDING: Your Delusion of Control is Completely Beyond Your Control Because "Your" Life does not Belong to "You"

In a universe predetermined by an unfolding causal order, your life has become exactly what it is and will continue to be exactly what it has been destined to be based on the predetermined route it must continue to follow, in direct proportion to all the influences that impacted upon "you" (and continue to impact upon your brain circuits), and the hard-wired responses that inform you of what to think, feel and do, again, based on the influences that impacted upon you in the past.

This is called imprinting and, like Conrad's chicks, your impressionable neurally programmed brain is no different. You will respond ONLY as you are programmed to respond. What other way could you respond than from the mental scripts provided? 

Yet, you can easily identify your programmed responses if you would only analyze the patterns and, make no mistake, your life has been neurally scripted to acutely follow ingrained patterns and what those patterns display has been demonstrably repetitive.

Yet, the chief conundrum of your life, and attempts at implementing change, is that even after identifying the dumb sheit you repetitively do, you are so deeply hardwired that you cannot fathom a way out of your patterned stoopidity (particularly in relation to subconscious neural circuitry, outside only the most diligent attempts at re-routing).

With each passing year any understanding of why you continually do what you do, drifts further from your capacity to neuroplastically alter the pattern, based on the extensive socially conditioned hard-wired brain circuits that have determined all your responses, because the shaping and molding of your neural pathways began before 'you' even knew you had a 'self' and continue to influence every thought of that 'self,' thereby, determining and directing all subsequent behavior and action...up until the day the brain shuts down.

As long as you consider your "self" the point of origin to the choices you make, you will never "awaken," since the motherboard is pitifully overloaded with useless neural circuitry requiring copious amounts of electro-chemical juice (origin of all post-modern stress/anxiety disorders, based on the stress chemical cortisol).

That understanding has eluded human egocentrica mammalia for millions of years and, as he becomes ever more concretely entranced and transfixed in his techno-fooked existence, that understanding will drift ever further, since he becomes ever more robotically obsessed with the current post-modern, mind-numbing technological psychosis, a delusional matrix psychosocially normalized as real, that now drives his dopamine receptors to seek out pseudo-realities, illuminated by pixels through bytes of fabricated information provided through plasma screens, to achieve varying levels of pleasure, motivation and well-being (dopamine is the chief neurochemical protagonist and has directed you entire life and it, not "you," determines the direction of your life. Learn about dopamine, because everything you have ever learned and every value you hold dear is the result of this brain chemical alone).

The understanding is simple and, contrary to the socialized message that has been mercilessly ground into your neuro-circuited head fat, it is available only by "pruning" away the chaotically ensconced neural morass that is useless to your fully understanding what is actually taking place in between your ears, but robotically directs your every action in a neurally processed dream state. But the brain does that, not "you."

"You" are only along for the ride, which includes the delusion that you are the driver and determine the destination...

Yet, for the few that experience a fried motherboard (not by choice) they grok the simplicity of each and every moment in the realization that...

...your life does not belong to "you."

The brain circuits have determined who "you" are and neuro-chemistry has determined exactly how you feel, what you do and, from the moment of birth, it has been vigilantly developing neural pathways that makes 'who' you were, into what you are now, and will continue along that trajectory until the moment it shuts down, allowing you to be what you were always destined to become...

...dead.

What every famous spiritual guru failed to accurately elucidate is that, to be "in the moment," is to surrender to the brain. Only the mythological "Buddha" understood that "events happen, deeds are done, but there is no individual doer of any deed," and your mind/brain can only rebel furiously over the possibility that this could in any way be true.

If there is no "doer," than what exactly should you be doing to be free?

The brain that determines your thoughts, feelings and behavior is a product of a universal causal unfolding that has determined every moment of your life and has left "you" completely out of that loop, other than allowing the delusion that you were in control, a delusion that is the source of all depression, anxiety, anger and guilt, essentially, all "mental illness" known today.

All mental illness is a rebellion over the complete lack of control and, in post-modern society, is increasing exponentially, as chaos reigns supreme.

Yet, your life seems to belong to "you," even though "you" (and science) have failed to actually identify where in the grey matter "you" actually exist, if "you" exist at all, nevertheless, you proudly (an emotion not available anywhere else in nature) proclaim the thoughts, feelings, behaviors and actions that your brain circuitry demands be engaged, become a factually grounded product of an amalgamated, homogenized, concrete, and clearly irreducible, "you," but you can accurately prove none of it, thereby, indicating it is only a feeling based on faulty data processing that could easily be corrected if enough circuits were constructed to engage this understanding as a means of short-circuiting decades of ignorance (but, of course, that is entirely outside your egocentric realm of control, simply because you have no control).

In fact, if you look closely, the specific direction of your entire life as been influenced by factors completely outside your control and the responses you provided to those influences were outside your control, since you did what you "thought" was necessary, even though now, you kick yourself for not doing otherwise.

Have you noticed the repetitive nature of your life? Have you taken note of your repeat performances? The cyclical nature of the rise and fall of your brief, but highly precious, moments of "happiness"? The chaos and order constantly inherent to all your relationships? The repetitive nature of all your addictions? The rise and fall of your numerous sufferings? The absolute ignorance wrapped up in your delusional dreams of "success"?

"It is only when the ego himself comes to the conclusion, from personal investigation into his own personal experience, that his every single action has been based on some prior happening over which he has had no control, that he is finally compelled to surrender his sense of personal doership, that no one is the doer of any action, neither himself nor the ‘other’, that all that happens at any moment, through any body-mind organism is brought about by the Primal Energy functioning through each body-mind-organism, according to God’s will or the Cosmic Law." Balsekar, Ramesh S. (2012-06-21). Confusion No More: For the Spiritual Seeker (Kindle Locations 88-92). Watkins Publishing. Kindle Edition. 

You have never been in control of anything and even your delusion of being in control is beyond your control. But belief in making free-will choices was necessary to weave a social tapestry with institutions based entirely on your deeply inherent experience of guilt, based on choices you made or failed to make... correctly. And now you are stuck with it. Without the endemic acceptance of guilt, civilization could never have unfolded as it has and your fear of not meeting the standards has been the chief factor of the post-modern capitalistic system of enslavement and the construction of the post-modern world.

You will die, deeply enmeshed in existential guilt that you didn't do enough to be the best you could be, in a culture that demands you experience guilt, because you could never do enough to be the best that you could be, because what that culture only desires is for you to experience guilt and, hence, you have achieved what the culture requires as a means of cultural control.

Game over....



Artwork by Mark Ryden - "Saint Barbie"

The 'Sheit Happens' Prayer

I just completed another day that I had nothing to do with and sheit happened as it always does.

Funny how this seems to be the pattern of each and every day, although, deeply enmeshed within that pattern is the socially conditioned idea that "I-me" is in charge of the sheit that happened within that 24 hr period and that it's completely up to "I-me" how I deal with the sheit that happened.

Looking back on the thoughts, feelings and behaviors of the day it becomes crystal clear...

...my responses to the sheit that happened was, like the sheit that happened, completely outside "my" control and simply more sheit happening.

The responses to the sheit happening was just more sheit happening and was directed by neuro-circuited habituated impulses wired up in cranially based fatty tissue, all firing off under the direction of countless neuro-chemical interactions, i.e. dopamine, serotonin, enkephalins, endorphins, epinephrine, norepinephrine, glutamate, acetylcholine, etc,and numerous hormonal interactions (do you really think you have control over this sheit?), as well as sundry other psycho-emotive medicinals such as oxyticin, progestin, cortisol, etc, etc, etc.

Of all the ways I could have responded to the sheit that happened, my brain chose that particular way, because it had no choice based on trillions of miles of enmeshed dendrite circuits. 

How can "I-me' be responsible for the actions based on the impulses of a genetically/culturally programmed bodily organ (brain) when, in fact, that organ was primarily constructed in my formative years without any active participation on my part. Is "I-me" responsible for keeping the heart beating? Is "I-me" responsible for the lungs filling with air? Of course, most organs do what they are genetically programmed to do and this is no different for the brain that must respond to external influences from survival circuits deep within its core.

Your brain is a part of the grand universal expanse that is the causally predetermined natural order and...

...not a part of "you." 

For those who fully "grok" this understanding, living within the parameters of such an absence of control can be exhilarating. But it is a hard pill to swallow and can take years, even decades to neuro-plastically prune back useless "I-me" responsibility circuits. Although this may seem like an assertion of control, it is actually the brain rerouting unused circuits attributed to free-will and control and it will be the brain and not "you" that engages that process. In fact, that process may eventually deconstruct "you" entirely.

Yet, I cannot deny the reflexive response engaging my "self" to experience guilt when sheit was bad and pride when sheit was good, such is the powerful nature of habituated impulses hard-wired in head fat. Yet, currently, this engagement is consistently brief and I quickly return to my original absence of free-will and, in realizing I have nothing to do with any of this...

...sheit that just happens.

For human egocentrica mammalians the idea of controlling nature, the nature that is simply a part of a predetermined causal order that directs all sentient and non-sentient existence, is paramount and, in a world overly populated by human egocentrics, all the sheit they do to assert control over their unique personal world, which is inextricably enmeshed in other personal worlds, results in an insane cacophony, growing exponentially in magnitude and intensity to a point where most egocentrics are actually beginning to realize that they are in control of nothing and everything is gradually becoming completely uncontrollable

No matter what precautions you undertake. No matter how much education and learning you employ to insure your protected from certain sheit happening. No matter how much planning you meticulously engineer to avoid sheit from happening in ways you desire NOT...

...sheit just happens.

Even when good sheit happens, I no longer seem to care. For a brief moment I'm all jiggy with it, but that fades fast, causing me to fall back into my "sheit happens" baseline mental state, understanding that in a dualistic world, sheit happens dualistically. That's the state I'm in 99% of the time. I move from moment to moment waiting to see what sheit happens, because some kinda sheit always happens.

It's kinda like living in a state of perpetual surprise, I'm always fascinated about the sheit that happens when it happens, as it always does.

Through understanding that your not in control of anything, when sheit happens, it's okay. Simply because you understand, on a deep reptilian brain level (yep, that's how deep the 'understanding' has to go to be truly "done" with the sheit that happens), that in the grand scheme of things the sheit that happened was supposed to happen exactly as it happened or it simply would not have happened as it happened when it happened.

The question you need to ask your "self" is, when sheit happens, "why do I think sheit should have happened differently than the sheit that happened exactly as it did? Why do I think the sheit happening that is my life should be some other sheit happening? Why do I spend my days gritting and grinding over the sheit that is my life, when it had to happen exactly as it did and has to be exactly what it is or it would be different than what it is."

Let us recite the "sheit happens" prayer:

God grant me the serenity to accept that sheit happens.
(good and bad. It's all just sheit happening)
The courage to know that I can't stop sheit from happening.
And the wisdom to just let sheit happen as it happens, when it happens,
cause it always happens exactly as it does and couldn't happen any other way
and my response to sheit happening will happen exactly as that sheit should happen, each and every time.

AhfookingMen.....



Artwork by Igor Morski

What Happens Next, Just Fooking Happens Next...

I have no idea what will happen next.

Correction. I have many ideas of what will happen next, but I lack the care and concern as to what will happen next, which removes me from demanding what happens next conform to my ideas of what happens next and, hence, what happens next, just fooking happens, exactly as it always does.

Your life has always been fooking happening, regardless of your attempts to make it conform to your ideas of what happens next, because what happens next always just fooking happens. 

In addition, I also realize that what happens next had to happen next, based on what happened before, and how my brain is hard-wired to deal with what happened before and, subsequently, with what will happen next, and that specific hard-wiring was constructed in my formative yrs, in which I was allowed no choice in what experiences impacted my brain and shaped my neuro-circuitry to respond to what happens next, but those un-chosen experiences of early childhood, without doubt, have brought me, over many years, to what happens next, because what happens next requires a response, and I will respond to what happens next as I must, based on the trillions of miles of neural-dendritic connections in my brain, formatted by what happened before and completely influencing how I will respond to what happens next.

What happens next is guaranteed by what happened before. I have no freedom from this because, in this, is my freedom. It is ultimately the refusal to surrender to the predetermined causal order that is the foundation of all suffering. But, that has to happen and has happened exactly as it must since human egocentrica mammalia happened to construct a neuro-circuit that made him ‘think’ he could actually choose what happened next, based on an autonomous WILL free from the influence of everything in the universe that happened before. 

Thinking it could be other than it obviously is, in the moment it obviously is, incarcerates me in a future based on a past wired up in my grey matter, causing me to lose the freedom of this moment as it happens next. But, even that momentary incarceration, demanding what happens NOT happen, must happen exactly as it does, else it would not happen.

Make no mistake, that moment that you demand happen other than as it is happening...you are there, in that moment, and nowhere else should you be, but in that moment of suffering.

And so I sit here, deep in the throes of a despotic depression, completely accepting that this is what is happening, without rejecting what is happening, as it is happening, or demanding something other than what is happening to happen.

Why would you want what is happening to be other than what is happening, when you realize that what is happening had to happen exactly as it now happens? However, if you believe you have a “free” choice in what happens, then you’re fooked (but not really, cause you’re supposed to be fooked, or else you wouldn’t be).

How is it that I was once neurally hard-wired to believe that something other than what is happening should be happening? I no longer think that, so when did those circuits get fried?  I have no idea when that sheit happened, but clearly, it happened, else they would not have been fried.

I have no desire to have happen other what is happening and in my allowing this to happen, as it happens, I am absolutely engulfed in complete freedom, because there is NO thought that this should NOT be as it is if, in fact, it is what it is, otherwise, it would be something different than it is (well, not exactly accurate. First I go, "damn! why is this sheit happening," and then the new circuit kicks in with, "but shiet happens" and I think, "oh right!!")

If the next thought to happen should be to blow my brains out with a gun, why would I reject that happening as something that should not happen?

Many years ago I used to have those thoughts happen (suicidal ideation), but that was before I encountered a “self” that does not seek to control what happens next (and I have no flippin' idea how that "self" happened). Nevertheless, if I should again have those thoughts happen, to the point of actually acting on those thoughts, which would have to happen or they wouldn’t, why should I reject those thoughts as happening exactly as they must happen, requiring I behaviorally conform to those thoughts and blow my flippin’ brains out?

The “idea” that what happens should NOT happen is hard-wired and requires a great deal of deconstruction, or frying of the motherboard, to neutralize. Nevertheless, even that can only happen as it happens and any attempt to make it happen before it’s supposed to happen, is destined to fail, until it’s supposed to succeed.

I must admit, there is a deep peace in letting sheit happen as it happens, because it always is what it is and it could never be other than what it is or it would be.

Artwork by LaraFairie - "Faceless Composition"

The End of the Free-Will Paradigm

In your formative years “you” were hastily indoctrinated into a “free-will" paradigm of "personal responsibility," and your ego-centered, cranial-based existence (all experience occurs in the brain) is now virtually suffocating in an ocean of 'choices,' made and to be made (but you continue to proclaim you are "free"). As you advanced in age, so did the oppressive burden of making "right" choices, in order to finally experience "happiness," even though a great many of your choices have only induced suffering and this demands an ever greater attentiveness to making the 'right' choices.

Free-will magically grants you "personal responsibility” and dumps a heaping sheit-load of guilt on "you" for choices made in the past that turned out to be miserably "wrong" in the future and, as a result, you live in a chronic state of anxious contraction about the choices you must make as a means of sculpting your precious future because, as you righteously proclaim, this is "my life" (as if you were completely unfettered and non-originated from the predetermined causal order of space and time). You had absolutely no choice in your birth, nor will you have a choice in your death, so why the fook would it matter what you choose in-between? Does the universe care about your self-esteem or career choices?

Such are the results of the "free-will" paradigm. A paradigm that is patently false (and can easily be observed as such through a  basic analysis of the variables that have determined your current life trajectory). Nevertheless, 99 and 44/100 percent of human egocentrica mammalians wholeheartedly endorse free-will, without question and without doubt, and conduct their every waking moment on free-will being undeniably true, resulting in a pandemic of depressed zombies, chronically rejecting what is as is and, year after year, slogging through mind-numbing routines of abject pointlessness, which they have no choice in, but believing that things should be different than they are, which they cannot possibly be else they would be, they suffer as they inevitably must.

They live woefully miserable lives in constant rejection of the variables currently representing their own personal “life.” They are consistently gritting and grinding over “personal responsibility” and go though numerous years of "education" to painstakingly develop the skills of making ‘right choices,’ which, subsequently, and regardless of their esteemed education, they consistently fail to make anyway, over and over, ad infinitum, ad nauseam.

This results in 'neurological exhaustion,' requiring constant, moment to moment, distraction in finding ways to avoid their own fooking minds (which the spiritual-entertainment industry makes billions on) and the thoughts that arise, denying that they have NO "personal responsibility" for those thoughts (thoughts that are clearly victim to a free-will paradigm of 'personal selection regardless of social conditioning and outside influence) and they do ALL of this because they have no choice.

Yet, what if, from birth, you were indoctrinated into a paradigm absent free-will and contingent on a predetermined universe in which nothing was separate from an infinite unfolding causal order and that every choice made had to be made exactly as it was made or it would NOT have ever been made at all?

How would "you" conduct your life if you knew it was predetermined to unfold exactly as it did and does? Would it matter what you do, if what you did had to be done exactly as you did it, in each and every moment, or it would not have been done? What type of 'self' would exist absent free-will? Could a "self" absent free-will even exist? What would that 'self' be like? How would you think, and react to your thoughts, if you knew you were not responsible for any of them? Would you sit around moaning that, since "I'm not a 'self' that makes choices free of influence, I'm NOT gonna do a fooking thing at all"? Or would knowing that you are not separate from an infinitely unfolding predetermined causal order result in your deeply engaging whatever unfolded before your eyes and completely without fear? Would the concepts of "right" or "wrong," "good" or "bad" totally cease to exist in human discourse?

What if we raised children to believe the fact that they had NO personal responsibility for what arose between their ears, since 86 billion neurons, and billions of miles of dendritic connections, fueled by chemical processes in trillions of synapses, are obviously outside their capacity to control? How would we 'choose' to teach them if they had no 'personal responsibility' for their actions?

There are a few who currently live under such auspices. They have no anxiety regarding the future and no guilt of the past. They tend to exist in a state of "surprise" over what unfolds before them and the individual ‘choices’ made based on that unfolding (which is, of course, part of that predetermined causal order).

They have not developed tendencies to reject reality, as that which is not wanted, while another reality would be more suitable to their tastes. Momentarily, they may not like what has unfolded but, nevertheless, they accept the emergent variables as inevitable and adapt accordingly.

They see very clearly that they are not separate from the whole timeless tapestry of a predetermined causal order, and every choice made being part of that timeless unfolding, and in that understanding they experience absolute freedom.

As a result, they tend to play infinitely in a finite world....

Finally..."Enlightenment" Accurately Defined in less than 5 minutes....

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The Electrified Goop of Egocentrica Mammalia

Alas, egocentrica mammalian wants to be more than an electro-chemical mass of grey goop, housed in a calcium shell, and so he actually formulates neuro-circuits within that goop to prove he is more than a fissured fatty deposit.

Over many centuries he developed language circuits for which to devise, and babble about incessantly, ever more complex and complicated concepts  like “consciousness,” “mind,” “thought,” “intellect,” (and even “concept”) as a means of removing himself from the mechanistic processes that he has absolutely no control over, yet cannot exist without.

There is nothing in the universe that is NOT material and egocentrica mammalia is an electro-chemical, gaseous bag (molecular material) of skin-encapsulated organic cellular tissue, entirely directed by a force, he deludes himself into “thinking,” he has control of, as opposed to it completely controlling him.

Egocentrica mammalia maintains the absurd belief that his ‘self’ is more than just electrified brain circuits. Hence, he conceptualizes all manner of immateriality, i.e., consciousness, subconsciousness, mind, thinking, conscience, soul, spirit, non-duality, enlightenment,  etc, etc, as a means of reinforcing his innate programmed narcissistic drive to assert dominion over all he surveys and, obviously, grant himself permission to destroy all he surveys, based on whatever sociopathic whim takes his fancy, directly associated with the socio-cultural programming of the time period he was thrust into by no choice of his own, but that he cannot disengage with (since it's tucked up in his skull).

We have electro-chemical impulses wildly dashing, hither and thither, through neurally charged gelatinous tissue and those impulses entirely influenced by external stimuli and, subsequently, influencing other previously formed circuits, respond as programmed, thereby, acting upon the universe in ways decreed by that causal order.

Hence, all ego-centered experience is nothing more than an electro-chemical 'experience’ of brain processes or the brain experiencing its own electro-chemical transmissions. These 'experiences" are then run through language circuits to provide "concepts" for which to superimpose upon the experiences and make them all peachy keen special.

Your entire life is made up of experiences you apply concepts to as a means of actually knowing the experience, but only conceptually. You have never really experienced anything at all, because thought happens before you think it. Therefore, a fearful thought is devoid of the experience that caused it and what is feared is the concept superimposed upon the experience.

The "thought" impulses that led to Einstein's E=mc2 are no different, electro-chemically, than the thought processes which demanded he perform his morning bowel movement. Neurally charged electro-chemical impulses transmitting through miles of microscopic dendritic wiring, subsequently, arriving in the brain’s language centers with the conceptualization, “damn, I gotta take a shit.” Language has always been egocentrica’s greatest curse, because it demands every brain stimulated impulse have a label (like “shit”)

Sorry, but you really aren’t the awesomely unique snowflake you’d like to think you are and, it’s that narcissistically unique circuitry that is your main obstacle in experiencing the causal order on its terms and not based on the symbolic concepts you superimpose upon your experience of the predetermined causal order. The natural order reflects no such narcissism and it is unique to egocentrica mammalian condition, but only in relation to overpopulation and self-extinction, which their narcissism immanently portends as a future inevitability.

Hence, even a "concept" itself is material, being made up entirely of electrified chemical transmissions that the electro-chemical “self” has no control over. A "thought" is an electrically charged impulse and “mind” is itself nothing more than aggregate brain processing in electrified goop, obviously experienced in your head. As neurons fire off in my language centers, allowing me to string together concepts from my memory banks, I can feel my cranium encased thinking-cap hard at work, in this very moment, making some kind of fooking sense outa all this sheit.

However, I have no delusion of some nebulous experience called “mind” or “consciousness,” simply neuronal transmissions zipping around in my skull and so, I have little to worry about in terms of what pops up in my head, since what pops up will inevitably pop up with no help from “me,” as is always the case. I just sit back and wait to see what arises because something always does. It’s guaranteed!

The same impulse transmissions that bounce around in a cat’s cranium dance around in your head, except you apply language circuits to experiences that allow you to conceptualize fictional realities, or symbolic fabrications, that are meaningful to a fictional “I-me,” but mean absolutely nothing to the cat or any other entity in nature. Clearly the natural order takes a long hard, but totally indifferent, piss on your self-actualizing fictionally symbolic parade of dreams, goals and aspirations.

Yet, egocentrica mammalian’s do not wish to be deconstructed into nothing more than electro-chemical processes in membranous grey goop. Egocentrica demands that, somewhere deep in his neuronally charged thinking-cap there exists a sacred “soul,”  or divine “spirit” and he proclaims that much of his thinking is not normal impulse transmissions, but truly “spiritual” and sacred.

When he “meditates,” (concept) and thereby, seeks to control his neuro-circuitry, he attaches grave significance to this goal as a means to further increase his narcissistic, self-absorbed fictional self-actualizing through empty symbolic practices. Yet, he merely need observe the undaunted repose of a stationary house cat to realize there is nothing “spiritual” about it, since the domestic house cat has no prescribed ritualistic practices and simply sits still until some instinctually programmed demand takes over.

But, alas, and to his detriment, egocentrica mammalian’s cannot simply sit still. On the contrary, their predetermined role in the causal order is to invent symbolic realities for which to perform activities so as to self-actualize a fictional self that has its actual origin in brain circuitry. 

Egocentrica’s neural programming demand actions and behaviors be productive (thereby, reinforcing fictional realities and associated symbolic actions) and have meaning outside that as provided by a predetermined causal order that caused his very existence to ‘happen’ in the first place. Hence, he must devise a constructive concept to give meaning and purpose to any stillness he proposes to engage and he does this, over and over, ad nauseam, until he loses focus on what anything means.

To sit on your fat arse and do nothing must have a productive outcome or product, hence, egocentric stillness must be sacred and have profound implications. Egocentrica can’t just sit his ass down and stop fooking with everything. On the contrary, his not fooking with everything must lead to something special that only he finds productive, because his patently absurd symbolic meanings can be found nowhere else in the natural world.

As a result, egocentrica mammalian’s ‘sitting still’ has now become a purposeful endeavor called meditation, involving all manner of hocus pocus, voodoo “chakras,”  levels of consciousness, enlightened states, etc, in complete ignorance of the fact that all this empty conceptual sheit is happening right there in the 3lbs of fat packed tightly between his ears.

Egocentrica dances about in euphoria over his newly found “spiritual awakening,” never once considering the neurochemical interactions of dopamine and serotonin, swimming around in his skull that made this bliss bunny state possible. Nope, it definitely was not the actions of neuro-circuitry, but the Great Pumpkin of Universal Divine Cosmic Oneness that gave him his “enlightenment.”

But fear not egocentrica mammalians of the world!

Your ludicrous conceptions of an immaterial universe are part of that predetermined causal order. Your silly conceptual babbling about enlightenment, awakening, non-duality, etc, are causally ordered for cosmic joviality. Your inane meanings and purposes have provided the always unfolding causal order with centuries of comic relief. Your constant need to self-actualize a symbolic entity you call “I-me” has always been on the predetermined causal menu and the universe absorbs all your symbolic sufferings with complete indifference….and maybe a few shits and giggles.

Can you see your purpose yet?

Doesn’t matter though, you’re doing it whether you see it or not.

Artwork by Christophe

To Live Meaninglessly May Be The Only Hope for Mankind

“Let’s face the truth. Life has no meaning. Each of us has meaning and we bring it to life. It is a waste to be asking the question when you are the answer, says Joseph Campbell. I think we should stop asking ourselves existential questions. In order to escape the brain’s complexity, let’s start asking ourselves these simple questions instead: What meaning do I give to my life? What is the purpose of my life? What is most important to me in my life? What are my deepest values and beliefs? Adding purpose and values is the only way to live a meaningful life.” Read more: http://www.exposingthetruth.co/what-is-the-meaning-of-life/#ixzz2czGwh87Q

This author appears to conclusively answer the ultimate question and claims that the answer is the “truth” that we must “face.” Yet, the author then goes about negating that very truth she claims we must “face” by suggesting we should construct our own relative meanings by “adding purpose and value.”

Wait. What?

How is that “facing truth”? Is it not realistic to state that, if life has NO meaning, then to live as though it does is to live a lie? If this is true then everything that egocentrica mammalians do, other than eat shit, sleep, fuck and die is absolutely meaningless and fictional.

If the truth is that life is meaningless, who are we to alter that fact? If life is meaningless, and this has certainly been the conclusion from centuries of eastern and western philosophy (so it’s easy to see why this author claims it as truth), then why are we not living in complete accord with that truth?

Should we not be living as meaningless a life as possible if, in fact, the truth is that life is absolutely meaningless? Why attach relative meanings to an absolute meaninglessness if they are false?

Could it be that centuries of “bringing meaning to life” has resulted in the current state of affairs in which it has become abundantly apparent that we are progressively hurtling toward our own inevitable doom through a confusing confluence of conflicting meanings all crashing headlong into one another? For a belief to be meaningful it must be defended, else why adhere to it and live by it as meaningful. For every belief defended there is the opposite belief also defended and this creates all manner of havoc.

For instance, we have accused Syria of gassing their own people and thus we find it meaningful to drop bombs and kill people to punish them for killing people, because we believe there is clearly a meaningful difference between killing a thousand people with gas or killing a thousand people with bombs.

It appears that if only life could be absent meaning, we’d all be alot happier.

Possibly, what humanity requires is a little bit of nihilistic meaninglessness, because all our meanings are slowly killing us.

If the truth is that life is meaningless, then who are we to oppose or negate that truth by conjuring up fictionally symbolic meanings that really do nothing to alter the truth whatsoever? Should we not pray to the meaningless and practice rituals that have no purpose?

Note that the author claims that life’s meaninglessness is the truth that we must face. Yet, how does one face that truth and learn from it (enlightenment?), if we’re all running around defending fictional meanings that do nothing to debunk the stark truth that it’s all meaningless? If the truth is that life is meaningless, why pretend it isn’t? Is the way to a meaningful life pretending it’s not meaningless, when in fact that is the truth?

Why would anyone want to live in ways that oppose truth?

However, this raises a question:

Is it even possible to live a meaningless life?

If your life is meaningless, why would you want to live it at all? Are egocentrica mammalians the only species with an innate need to seek out patterns, superimpose meaning upon them and then live as if that were true?

Nature is completely indifferent to your meanings and does whatever it does regardless of what it means to you. It follows a causal order or WILL that can and will easily crush your meaningful fictions like a handful of grapes. No matter how many fictions egocentrics superimpose upon nature, nature is meaningless and exists as such. Nature does not care what you find ugly or beautiful. It is not even aware of your sense of right or wrong and it apparently does not have the slightest inclination to conform to what you consider good or bad etc, etc. Nature kills, but never murders. Although you’re all jiggy with how ‘awesome’ you are, nature couldn’t give two farts in the wind about your self-esteem, your values and morals or protecting your precious “lifestyle.” To nature, you are as meaningless as a baby antelope being ripped to shreds by a pack of hyenas.

So now that we know for certain that life is meaningless (as the above author correctly informs) shouldn’t we find a way to live in conformance with that truth? If it’s all meaningless, then all meanings are equally sheit no matter who believes in them or doesn’t. Hence, if life is meaningless, then there is absolutely no purpose to it, making each and everything you do in your busy day as purposeless as anything else anyone else does. Whether you sit on your butt all day and watch soaps or volunteer to feed the homeless, both are equally of no purpose, simply because life is meaningless. Your life is as meaningless as your death, so why are you struggling to do important things with your life? Or maybe death is more meaningful than life…

Nevertheless, because egocentric mammalia has no free-will, he cannot shake free of his need to make meaningful stories as the universe has so endowed him. Thus, he cannot live a meaningless life and any attempt to do so would be packed with meaning, thereby, negating the purpose of meaninglessness which, obviously, must have no purpose in order to conform to meaninglessness. Hence, to avoid the excruciatingly painful vacuum of empty nothingness (imagine living a life for which the only purpose of that life was to eat, shit, sleep, fuck and die) egocentrica mammalians have spent thousands of years constructing fictions for which to fill that void, regardless of the truth.

And not one of their fictions has ever altered the truth even one tiny bit...

Artwork by Greg Simkins

Relax…You are Only Receding

You were taught symbols to superimpose upon a material world as a means to enhance the meaning of your egocentric existence. Cars, houses, money, sex, possessions, work, bodies, clothes, food, relationships, entertainment, etc, etc, are constantly being formatted and reformatted within your gray matter to increase symbolic value and, thereby, enhance you existence by making "you" special, unique and more meaningful.

The symbols experienced are nothing more than ‘thought' or electro-chemically induced synaptical currents (did you ‘think’ it something more mysterious?) and you have millions of miles of networked dendrites all generating random electrochemical "thought" currents, circuitously linking up to numerous other dendrite branches to become the closed circuits referred to as “belief systems.” There are numerous belief systems within your cranium and, because you have so many, you often have difficulty making correct decisions because of the tangled up mess in your head. Your daily "stress" is nothing more than  the constant battling of neuro-circuits, each vying for the most electrochemical current for which to pull your puppet strings.

Yet, no need to worry, since you will always do what the programming requires. You have no other “choice” but to make the choices your programming requires and, no matter how intensely you seek to claim ownership of your choices to assert your unique specialness into a  world that doesn’t seem to give a crap, what other choice could you make than the one you will make? There was never a better choice than that. Based on the development of your cranial circuitry, that was the choice that had to be made.

Of course, the exalted “Return to Pure Consciousness” folks have a problem with such a deterministic equation. They want all solutions to be 'mystical.' Nevertheless, when you do finally return to “pure consciousness,” after all your years of diligent efforts to shut off your neuro-circuitry; will your brain still function well enough to get you to the toilet on time? Will engaging with pure consciousness cause you to forget how to drive a car, ride a bike or even walk? Will sex still feel good in your brain? Or will you simply exit reality for the the magical nirvana of Shangri La? (actually this, or something very close to it, is the conventional belief taught in most new age seminar/retreat groups)

Hence, “Returning to Pure Consciousness” has its drawbacks. But, how ‘bout giving a little credit to the neuro-circuitry that, fortuitously, linked up the exact dendrite branches, thereby, allowing you to ‘think’ about “Returning to Pure Consciousness”? (otherwise, you might be drinking a Bud and watching NASCAR).

Nevertheless, cultural programming requires no conscious effort, because recognition of the programming is instantaneous and unreflective, making the symbolic representations in your occipital lobe patently obvious to you, based on the herd mentality through which you identify (not to mention that any effort made is based on conditioned neural impulses anyway, so why bother). You will always do what the circuits demand. You will think the 'thought,' perform the action, behave as directed, speak the words you are destined to utter and take offense to what others say and do just as your programming requires.

This begs the question, can people change? No, they cannot. Particularly if we mean by "change," altering circuits outside or external to the already conditioned circuitry through free-will. Which is to say, the script of your destiny was written in your formative years. Now you're just reading the lines someone else (the world) wrote, in direct accordance with your experience du jour.

However, if this cultural programming is somehow short-circuited by a traumatic event, the symbols that make up your comfort zone could suddenly be smashed to smithereens, causing neural networks to short-circuit and electro-chemical currents to cease firing, resulting in varying levels and degrees of irrational fears, delusions of grandeur (Eckhart Tolle), phobias, nervous disorders, mood instability, behavioral compulsions, addictions, mental illness, suicide, murder, institutionalization, etc, etc, etc.

However, there are egocentrics whose cultural programming has resulted in a compelling desire to generate circuits for which to judge the existing network that reflects the symbolic representations of self and world. This is not a choice, but simply the result of years of evolving circuit formation literally directing "you" to a point where the symbolism can no longer be relied on for accuracy and so they actively begin to question the symbols that the world relies on for meaning. Indeed, this can also result in trauma symptoms, due to the fact that many of their most basic assumptions about ‘self’ and world will be totally smashed to smithereens. But, based on the preceding influences from already formed circuits, they've had no choice in this whatsoever.

Some neural networks must remain “asleep,” lulled to complacency by the conditioned cultural programming, and we see this fact in the majority of egocentric mammalians existing today, demonstrating the incredible power of conditioned brain circuitry to fully direct every aspect of communal herd existence. While others, due to the direction their programming has driven them, will burn away circuits one by one, all the while feeling that they are somehow deviant or deranged, because they have no desire to graze with the herd.

Apparently, when certain symbolic meaning circuits lose electro-chemical current, they cease to fire and, thus, the symbolic meanings are no longer experienced as before. Obviously, this impacts other circuits causing radically new perceptions of sensory data input, which completely alters interpretations, thereby, changing responses. This is similar to altering neuro-chemical composition through various drugs such as LSD, psilocybin, peyote, mescaline, ecstasy, etc, but unfortunately, altering neuro-chemistry is temporary, while altering entire brain circuits is more consistent and, hence, “abiding.”

Nevertheless, for this very reason, there are those among us who can SEE the dream consistently and are no longer controlled by the symbols within the dream. 

Even though the experience must be different for each separate, individual neuro-circuit network, there do seem to be signs of this type of neuro-network development.

Maybe you are one of those who seem to interminably question everything even, and especially, that which is most obvious, to the constant dismay and agitation of those around you? Maybe you find it a struggle to participate in the symbolic socio-cultural games that others have been programmed to believe crucial to achieving “happy” and meaningful lives?

Have you become overtly aware of the social games as vapid and vacuous? Do you find yourself avoiding most interactions even, and especially, with those closest to you, due to the shallow verbiage necessary to maintain social engagements? Do you find yourself barely able to control fits of laughter at “inappropriate” times, because the symbols tend to lose boundaries and merge into one another in a strange purple haze? Do you often have absolutely no motivation to perform the symbolic functions of life and feel no guilt about that failure in recognition of its meaninglessness? Have you at times realized that everything you do seems consistently repetitive, as if your reactions and responses are not of “you”? Does everything that happens in your world, no matter how sad or happy, often seem exactly the same?

These may be signs of the direction your circuits are taking you, with no volition on your part, and this is why there really are so few  individuals who can consistently ‘abide’ in this state and most only have brief experiences, which they then refer to as "enlightenment" or "awakening."

Without your culturally programmed symbolic representations of the world, there could be no “self’ to exist in that world, because the self is nothing more than a total composite package of symbolic representations. It is the symbolic ‘self’ that must accept a symbolic world, for without the symbols you would exist no differently than your pet dog or cat, completely reliant on mammalian impulses and instincts in relating to an outside world.

The truth is always behind the symbols and a symbolic existence can only be false by nature of its symbolizing. What is "real" when  the real is unknown? Yet, Egocentrica Mammalia recycles and reformats its symbols because there must always be meaning in its world for IT to exist as meaningful. Egocentricity cannot fathom its abject meaninglessness and still function.

So if you are one of the very few in which the symbols seem to be gradually failing you, one by one…

…relax, it only means “you” are receding.


There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown
The dream is gone
And I have become
Comfortably numb


Artwork by Sam Weber

I Don’t Know Why She Swallowed The Fly…

 
I know an old lady who swallowed a cow
I don't know how she swallowed the cow
She swallowed the cow to catch the goat
She swallowed the goat to catch the dog
She swallowed the dog to catch the cat
She swallowed the cat to catch the bird
She swallowed the bird to catch the spider
That wriggled and jiggled and tickled inside her
She swallowed the spider to catch the fly
But I don't know why she swallowed that fly
Perhaps she'll die?

So, how the hell did you get here?

Was it something he said?

Not entirely.

More likely it was what she said that brought you to him that got you here. But even that isn’t the whole story.

Because... if that event hadn’t happened when it did, you would have never been in the ‘place’ to hear and understand what she said that brought you to him that got you here.

But wait!

There's more...

If you weren’t in that situation when the event happened, you would have never been in a ‘place’ to hear what she said that brought you to him that got you here. But more specifically, if you hadn’t been in that mood, while in that situation, when that event happened, you’d have never heard her, which brought you to him that got you here. But being in that particular mood stimulated a specific emotion while in that situation, in which that event occurred, causing you to hear what she said which led you to him that got you here.

But then, why that specific emotion?

Well, obviously to have that specific emotion there must have been a preceding interpretation in the form of a concept, which only arose because of the mood you were in while that event occurred, during that situation which motivated you to listen to her that eventually brought you to him and then here.

But from where did the particular concept come from that caused the interpretation, while in that mood, which led to that emotion due to that event happening in that particular situation, which caused you to hear and understand her that brought you to him and got you here at this very moment?

When you were a child you learned that concept. You don't remember how, why or when, in fact, you're not even fully conscious of the concept itself or that it has the peculiar capacity to evoke specific emotions in certain situations and events.

None of this has ever been available to you...

Nevertheless, it is the reason the mood arose that evoked the emotion due to this event in that situation that allowed you to hear and understand her, which brought you to him and that eventually led you here.

This is precisely how your entire life has unfolded and transpired. It may seem random at times, but there is always a pattern for those who can pull back the curtains and SEE. Notice that "you" had nothing to do with any of this and it all unwound simply by nature of your ‘birth.’

Isn't it "true" that your existence is contingent on making choices, because it does seem that making choices is something you do everyday?

Hence, if no 'choice' has ever been made by you, and never will be made by you, therefore, do "you" even exist?

When the time comes, after a series of non-volitional "choices," made by what certainly seems distinctly "you," there will pop-up in your head an answer to that question.

In the meantime, while dreaming seems "real," there will be an apparent feeling of being controlled by it, instilling a desire to struggle against that control. The belief that you have even the slightest, tiniest control of your “destiny” is probably cause of all your suffering. Just as the belief you can choose other than suffering has the same net effect.

Egocentric Mammalia is the only species intently focused on altering its destiny. If you are seeking to control your destiny to achieve a state of future “happiness,” then clearly, you are destined to succeed in failure.

It seems to take many years before achieving this degree of 'understanding' and most never make it because they believe it requires a correct ‘choice' be made in order to 'understand.'

But be of raucous and jubilantly good cheer!

You are not the cause of even that….

Hence, you may construct a volitional, choice-based context for why you are here at this moment and, because of that, the real reason will only elude you. The invisible oscillating patterns that direct your movement are beyond the capacity of most to detect. Hence, they must fabricate comfortable theories of God, universe, ‘vibrational energy,' etc, etc, to make it all seem... reasonably ordered and not chaotically absurd.

Nevertheless, no need for guilt or regret. No need to worry about what to do, because you will no doubt do exactly what will be done each and every moment and, even though you may rate these experiences as “good” or “bad,” they will happen regardless of what context you wrap them around, as a means of emphasizing the wonderful conscientious decision-making skills that you diligently honed to perfection your entire life through various positive "choice" reinforcing educational experiences (but that have failed in teaching you the best choices for which to be "happy," because you have yet to experience that state with any considerable consistency worthy of such grand educational endeavors).

Right now, at this point, in this very moment, on this exact spot, some of those who came here, through whatever experiences they had no choice in experiencing, are beginning to understand that there’s no reason to consider what will happen after here (because of meeting him due to hearing her, etc, etc, blah, blah, blah...). It most certainly will lead to something, because everything does, just nothing you could “choose.”

But if you’re not choosing your destiny, then who the hell is?

Ahhh…

...allow the meaningless nature of your egocentric self-absorption to flow over you like cool rain on a hot summer day...

So that, if the time is right, you can get the answer to that question and you will be one of a very rare few who now KNOW...

...why the old lady swallowed that fly.


Artwork by SheerHeart - "Where is my dream"