The System

So who will you look to as savior now? Who will you "elect" to bring your hopes and dreams to fruition? What personality has the power to finally invoke enduring "change"? And who will eventually betray your dreams? Who will fail to fulfill as only you have come to expect?

The problem is NOT the person, but The System.

Individuality gets sucked up into The System like dust bunnies in a vacuum to be invalidated entirely. The System eventually invalidates all 'individuals' who seek to change or restructure The System.

The System is indestructible and growing exponentially day by day, year by year.

The system demands you seek the "antichrist" and provides many to choose from. Reflections of good and evil pop up like jack-in-the box clowns, easily distracting you from The System. The System actively obfuscates itself into obscurity because it cannot risk your awareness of its ultimate aims and intentions.

But your continued obedience keeps it well fed.

It's a natural symbiosis as The System feeds you, while you feed it. It gives you all your fears so that it can provide a sense of comfort and safety. Every attempt to dissemble The System merely results in a replicating substitution. For instance, did “slavery” ever really end?

Nothing can exist outside The System and even renouncing The System is simply subsumed and incorporated into it. The System distracts and engages, fascinates and enrages. With its nebulously complicated details, all the while it maintains your unconscious allegiance to its universal intent.

Your very desire to be an “individual” demands you allegiance to The System. The System is a labyrinth of complexity aiding in your failure to see its stark simplicity. The System actually reinforces that there is NO exit by providing you seemingly infinite escape hatches that only bring you back into The System.

Everything you identify with is a gift of The System (even, and especially, your "God"). The system provides what you loathe as well as love. The System is always with you, from the moment you wake until you close your eyes in sleep and even your dreams are consumed by what The System provides.

Can you feel it in you? Moving you? Motivating your actions and desires? It breathes life into you and you never tire of thinking of it in all the ways it has determined it should be considered. Because without The System “you” could NOT exist.

It is not the Illuminati or the International Banking Cartel. It’s not the Republicans or The Democrats, conservatives or liberals. It’s not Christians or Muslims. It’s not the government, the CIA, Halliburton, the Rothschild’s, the North Koreans, Al Qaida, your boss, your spouse, your mother-in-law, your dumb-ass neighbor, etc, etc. None of this matters...

It’s The System and everything is merely a part of that WHOLE, acting and behaving as the system requires.

It demands you remain pitifully weak and ignorant by installing saviors who must eventually bow down to The System. Your “Jesus” and “Buddha” were easily assimilated and injected with the chief motivating principles of The System and every leader you choose has been chosen first by The System. Why else would they now be so inconsequential and insignificant? Why else have they not saved the world?

The System invalidates ALL it touches and it touches everything. Nothing is free of The System. That which is free of The System, does not "exist."

Sometimes you fantasize leaving. Sometimes you wish you could get out from under it. That too is Systematized.

But be careful trying to identify it by its parts, because The System is a WHOLE that demands you know it by its parts. It can only be seen clearly by being seen in its TOTALITY and its prime objective is to keep that from occurring at all costs.Look around you and try to identify what is or is NOT a part of it. The System thrives on your intellectual differentiating, your righteous discernment.

The System taught you the very act of "judgment."

The “self” you love so much (and even your “love") is a product of The System. Rest assured, The System “loves” your children more than you ever could and it loves "you" more than you could love yourself. The children are its future and have inherited that role from those before them. Indoctrination into The System is in perpetual motion, never ceasing and always grinding away that which stands before it attempting to impede its goal.

Think of any one thing or entity that is the origin of The System, or that controls the motivations of it, and you will be entirely wrong. Raging against the specific parts that you loathe only reinforces the strength of The System. It is becoming very strong as of lately.

The System consumes “you” as you consume it. There is little choice, because you really have NO concrete conception of who or what “you” are, just tenuous ideas and notions that are easily sucked up into The System. Egocentricity maintains it and will defend it with its life. The System counts on this and this alone for its continued existence.

The System requires you grit and grind over the individuals The System provides. It makes no difference what personality you choose to save you, or to improve your lot in life. It makes no difference who you choose to hate or fear, because the system will eventually invalidate any and all dreams that do not support IT.

The System loves your rage and lives off your fears. To remain an active participant of The System you MUST remain afraid of something, anything. Hence, The System will continue to develop ever more ingenious methods of assuring your safety and protection and you will continue to accept this no matter how increasingly fearful it makes you.

Yet, not to worry, The System will provide you brief periods of respite through entertaining and engaging pursuits and pastimes, which IT provides as you ASK. This serves to intensify your undying allegiance to its universal intent by remaining unconscious to that intent, till death do you part.

A commitment to total unawareness is all that it asks from you and nothing more. Everything else has been taken care of...

Death is the chief control mechanism of The System, but it is not interested in doom or apocalypse, just your continued fear of an END. But the one essential variable that keeps The System well oiled and fully operational is your hope for "change."

The System has NEVER changed, but it is most certainly growing in strength and your meticulously informed ignorance insures that its growth will continue unabated in perpetuity.

See all of it in WHOLE or you simply won't see The System at all.

Artwork by Anton Semenov - "Society"

This a re-post originally posted Dec 28, 2011

The Curse of Egocentric “Care”

It is impossible to understand TRUTH while continuing to maintain goals for your world. The mind does not cease from making the dream ”real.” The “world” unravels within you even when you believe your thoughts are insubstantial and have NO effect. Seeking to quiet the mind through meditation, while still attached to the chief substance of your “reality,” only reinforces sacrifice and sacrifice must always entail suffering because you believe you will LOSE.

Deprivation is the substance that makes up the dream and deprivation can only enlist the fear that demands CONTROL.

When your “care” for another is a direct product of fear, it serves only to magnify that which spawned it. Fear always seeks to CONTROL what it “cares” for and your constant vigilance toward controlling your world is utterly exhausting you.

When egocentricity seeks to apply control to its experiences, this informs the mind that the threat of LOSS is “real,” insuring the result will be experienced as you ask and LOSS will be real, but only in your mind.

What you ask for, you always receive. Make no mistake, what you CONTROL, as a result of “care,” you will LOSE, because you have insured this FACT by the very nature of your control. This is exactly how the “world” you experience is constructed. It makes no difference if the world is real or illusion. The ‘experience’ is always a conceptual construct encountered only in your mind and no where else "in the world."

Seeking to CONTROL the concepts of experience, demands victimization to the experience itself. You are ruled by concepts, but the concepts you made up.

If you are not increased by a “desire,” know that you have limited yourself by applying conditions that only inhibit freedom. You know very well the feelings that come from fear. But you have no experience of the joy inherent to the complete absence of fear. As long as you seek to control your fears, your fears can only multiply.

What in your life do you NOT seek to control?

Fear and control are in DIRECT relationship with one another. There is NEVER the one without the other. The more fear you experience, the more control you apply and the more control applied the more fear must naturally increase. You cannot break this cycle by addressing FEAR, simply because you fear everything (apparent by all your attempts at control). But you can give up control. Until fear is banished from your mind, choices must be made to control the dream from within it.

Controlling your inner experiences from outside the mind, merely asserts the experience’s control of YOU. 

There has never been a moment from which you corresponded with your world completely absent fear and you struggle to let go of control because your fear makes it necessary. In the dream of “you,” nothing is made to last. Even that which makes you “happy” is rigidly encased in the fear of dissolution and deprivation. Therefore, surrendering control is tantamount to “death,” because you equate “life” with ever greater control of your experience of a “world.”

Control demands ‘meaning,’ since you care not for what is meaningless. Hence, everything MUST have a meaning and from that meaning an experience of a "world" unfolds within you and you seek to control that experience.

How else do you define your “happiness” if not the complete control of your environment and everyone in it? You demand the “world” conform to your expectations and concepts. Those you care for must attempt to conform to your expectations else you will extract your “care” in an attempt to make them meaningless. But a meaningless void can NOT be and so you simply change the meaning from love to hate. You invent concepts to rationalize exclusion and banishment.

But the experience is IN you and never leaves you. Hence, you always abandon only your "self."

Those you claim to love become victims of your control, just as you become victim to them in a symbiotic state of mutual victimization, because love without fear is completely unattainable to egocentricity. It makes lame and ridiculous attempts to establish a foundation of joy, only to allow fear to destabilize the foundation until the entire building must crumble of its own oppressive weight.

The infinite drive to love unconditionally must always exist because it’s a super-conscious motivation, which simply means it is not available to conscious or subconscious egocentricity, which thinks in finite conditioned terms. But you cannot deny the drive, because the super-conscious is always more powerful as your Prime Directive and is the original motivation for everything you do. Even though that motivation must be diluted and stifled by what “you” add to the mix, it never leaves you. What you add is fear and the subsequent need for control.

But you long for love from the very core of your being.

Can you love without expectation? Does your love require specific modes of reciprocation? Do you expect a return on your investment? What outcomes do you demand? Must you protect from rejection? Does the past inform all your decisions on how to "care”?

Even the purity of maternal love is momentarily withheld when violation occurs and expectations remain unmet. The only consideration is what to control and how much. But control is never absent from the “love” of the solitary egocentric “self,”seeking to pursue happiness through control.

Your love is a game with rules for controlling the desired outcomes. If the outcomes are absent, egocentric “love” becomes fear and all subsequent decisions must in some way involve attack. You have experienced abandonment before and so you believe your protective mechanisms are crucial.

The only way you will ever release from fear is by understanding there is nothing to fear. The only way you will realize this FACT is by surrendering your control. The only way to surrender control is to dissociate completely from egocentric “care.” Egocentric “care” is a vicarious means of self-actualizing through the control of another under the guise of “love.”

To care for another egocentrically is to commit another to a form of bondage, in which your care for me is a gift requiring my gratitude in return. Not to reciprocate is to expect condemnation or, at the least, complete withdrawal. My failure to reciprocate as expected makes me guilty and all guilt demands punishment.

The ego-self simply constructs religions to justify this kind of sacrificial persecution. If “God” condemns than so must egocentricity and such is the egocentric “Word of God.”

Increase awareness of your egocentric conditions by recognizing the pain experienced when those conditions are unmet by another. Egocentric “care” is devoid of equality and notes failures and imbalances in the caring of another. Give to me in the expectation of my reciprocating equally on a future date and you have cursed not only me, but yourself, to the suffering of egocentric “care.”

The ego is constantly differentiating levels and degrees through comparisons. This is a subconscious motivation not even known to super-conscious mind. But it is chief mechanism of egocentricity for self-actualizing through the love and care of others.

Egocentricity is merely a tool employed to maintain a “Dream of Existence” as separate from the dreamer. Although its purposes seem myriad, this is really its only objective. Egocentric “care” is nothing more than one aspect of this denial, but it is pervasive in maintaining effective distance between the concept of “you” and the concept of “them.”

Till death do you part…

Artwork by Ken Keirns - "Fishing"

Cosmic Mojo vs Mojo Hijacking (part 2 of infinite)

When you were “born,” you were vibrating with intense levels of high Mojo juice. You were so high Mojo, you were buzzin’ and even low Mojo couldn’t help smiling and feeling they’re own Mojo poppin’ whenever they looked at you.

But then low Mojo started cutting off your circuits and hijacking your Mojo Juice. As if your Mojo needed protectin.’ As if too high Mojo might kill yo arse! And you thought, “but why no Mojo, ma, pa?” (well maybe not those exact words). But they insisted that your Mojo go low whenever they said NO. And that’s just plain stoopid, cause high Mojo is how you know you’re ALIVE.  It’s low Mojo that finally kills ya.

Look around at all the low Mojo draggin’ they’re feet and plodding through their mundane and dreary lives like a bunch of low Mojo zombies. It’s as if they was just waiting for the Mojo to go…POOF! into thin air.

You probably don’t remember how shocked and confused you were that anyone would want to take away what made you shimmer and shine? You cried and bawled, but to no avail. They wanted your Mojo low and no matter how much you tried to jack it back up they kept draining it.

Sometimes they beat it outa you, claimin' that it hurt their Mojo more than yours. But low Mojo was persistent and demanded high Mojo always do what low Mojo wanted. Soon, low Mojo became the only way to gogo (which ain’t no way at all) and being ALIVE started to get all heavy and oppressive. High Mojo is what you’re “here” for.

But you really can’t blame low Mojo, cause they been taught that Mojo is sometimes “inappropriate;” sometimes “wrong.” They learned that there is “normal” and not “normal” Mojo, good and bad Mojo, when really there is only high and low Mojo. They think that Mojo is a product of what you DO, when really what you DO is a product of Mojo (and how they got that sheit ass backwards is beyond me, but it’s pretty epidemic at this point).

And then they forced you to get an  “education.” They dumbed down your Mojo so you could get a low Mojo “job” and idolize low Mojo “money.” Believe it or not, your stress is actually a product of your life-long struggle to keep Mojo low.

Have you ever noticed that whenever you jump into a moment of high Mojo, amazingly, you wind up shutting it down as if Mojo Joy was some kinda disease? This is how you learned to fear your own Mojo and this is why you often hate your life, cause a life without Mojo Joy ain’t really livin.’

Low Mojo taught you how to compete with other low Mojos by sapping their Mojo and takin’ it for yourself. You actually learned that the best way to get high Mojo was to hijack somebody else’s Mojo and give none back. You learned that the best way to get Mojo Risin,’ was to take it from somebody else. Can you believe that sheit??? But it’s true! Just look at all your relationships.

Now you spend your life trying to get back your high Mojo (that low Mojo stifled) by making other Mojos low. We're all nothing but a mob of Mojo Hijackers. And sure, you take their Mojo and ya get what SEEMS like a quick high, but it ain’t real Mojo. It’s an egocentric Mojo mirage, which is just low Mojo in disguise, and that never lasts and only causes real Mojo to evaporate. This is why the ego’s Mojo feels good at first, but eventually it just makes real Mojo dissolve cause it just ain’t real Mojo, it’s pretend Mojo. Pretending to be high Mojo, when you’re really low Mojo, is just low Mojo posing as something it’s NOT.

Making Mojo low ain’t the way to get Mojo Joy. Giving Mojo is the only way to get it up!

The only way to get Mojo Joy is by jackin’ up somebody else’s Mojo, creating a free-flowing Mojo circuit that naturally multiplies and gives back double what you put in. But be careful. Mojo don’t do well with your low Mojo  “rules” and once you start tellin’ it when and how to rise, it fades fast, cause Mojo that ain’t natural, is just low Mojo.

Low Mojo gets so used to taking Mojo (they don't know any better!) and having their own Mojo drained, that they completely forgot how to jump-start Mojo circuits (as simple as hooking up two car batteries). Whenever an opportunity comes up, they get all scared and start taking Mojo instead of giving it. They hold back Mojo fearing somebody’s gonna swipe it and it just stagnates, eventually dissolving into a stinky low mojo mess.

That’s called Mojo Rigor Mortis.

But then, low Mojo just wanders around always grittin’ and grindin’ over why their Mojo’s so low, when any damn fool could figger it out if he just looked at what he was doing. If he could only give up the ego’s Mojo for the real thing.

Stop protectin’ your Mojo and give it away now. Don’t pretend high Mojo when you’re low, just hook up with high Mojo and start risin.’

I know this lady who’s a Mojo Queen and her's is so incredibly high that everybody wants it. But instead of giving to get, they keep taking and give nothing back. Why can’t they understand that if they just give Mojo, they’re gonna get it right back at ‘em, times ten thousand? But she’s still really high Mojo cause, once you get filled up to a certain level, nobody can drain ya anymore.

That’s called Cosmic Mojo and it’s pretty rare to find someone at that level, but they’re out there.

Maybe you’re one of ‘em?

Artwork by Yue Minjun - "untitled"

Is Your Mojo Rising (part 1 of infinite)

The Egocentric Observer is Biased

Why would you think that you can know your ‘self,’ or even parts of the self, simply by self-observation or the use of introspective or meditative techniques?

The observer is biased and will tend to completely miss, or even deny awareness of aspects that cause discomfort.

However, others see what you cannot, because it is through others that you have defined your ‘self.’ We do not define and give meaning to our 'self' alone or in isolation from others, but through engagement with a world of others because 'they' are your world.

In fact, the deeper our engagement with that 'world,' the more 'defined' we become.

The ego-self is entirely other-referencing and is always in the process of defining itself, or 'becoming,' through others and the world. This is particularly true of the relationships that we choose for which to deeply engage with another, because it is through these 'intimate partnerships' that we define our deepest layers of the 'self.' We engage with others to intimately share our 'self' so that the 'self' can evolve.

Yet, why is it that we so frequently fail to create and maintain intimacy in our most significant relationships? Why is it that so many relationships fail to engage the depth between them and either remain hopelessly stuck on the surface or disengage entirely?

Individualized ego goals often impede Deep Spirit intimacy, since they reinforce separation and division resulting in chronic conflict from frequent interpersonal competition. The ego idealizes the love of another, not for how it can reinforce the others self-development, but for what it expects others will do to reinforce its own self-construct (you). The egocentric self-concept is an inner-absorbed belief 'package' whose sole function is self-preservation through pressing itself into and against a world of conflicting opposites. It perceives others as naturally opposing its projects and goals. Nevertheless, the ego believes that completion of its goals and projects will eventually provide fulfillment by firmly asserting it into its experience of a 'world.' Therefore, it picks and chooses significant 'others’ to join with in carrying out its plans of self-actualization. These are the 'loving' relationships or mutual alliances we attribute the most significance and expect will add to our individual self-fulfillment.

Yet, these significant relationships may be stifled and paralyzed by chronic conflict, simply because the embodied egos we choose to join with (in 'love') have self-actualizing goals of their own to give meaning and define their own individual self-defining. They expect you will comply with their plans, while you expect compliance with your own.

Chronic conflict with 'loved ones' is often the most severe, because your ego-self expects to negotiate a world of other egos it has NOT chosen to "love", all perceived as strangers, yet each applying meaning to their lives and often in opposition to you. However, in contrast, you expect that those you have chosen to join with 'in-love' will support your individual egocentric self-actualization and when that is not forthcoming the ego experiences betrayal.

Although the ego expects opposition from the world, it will not easily tolerate opposition from those it chooses to collude with in preserving and actualizing itself. Hence, inherent within all relationships are the conditions of betrayal.

The ego-self wants to experience the fullness of its existence based on what the world teaches it must experience in order to be "happy." Conforming to the world is how the ego-self realizes its existence as significant and not merely a made up fantasy of the mind's imagination. It must build and develop itself for fear of being swallowed up and nullified by the world it experiences as outside and separate from it. Therefore, the ego adopts projects and goals that the world teaches will result in an actualized 'self' and, as the world teaches, an actualized self is a "happy" self.

Intimate relationships are considered important, but subsidiary and subordinate to individual egoic actualization. This makes them reversible with substitutes easily available.

The problem is that most of the projects we engage in to achieve this ever allusive "happiness" are projects that promote egocentric self-absorption and reduce the importance of relationship as primary means to self-actualization. Intimate relationships are downsized and minimized as the means of self-realization and they can easily be discarded and tossed aside and substitute participants elected to ally with.

We can collude with another in achieving ego goals, however, they too seek egoic self-actualization in agreement with the world's definition of a self-actualized 'individual.' These egocentric pursuits, although not detrimental from an individual standpoint, are the antithesis of Deep Spirit intimacy in the creation and discovery of the deeper motives that join individuals. When ego goals of self actualization dominate the mind, relationships must suffer and often may expire simply for lack of attention.

Egocentric self-actualization that supersedes or takes priority over Deep Spirit intimacy, creates tension and conflict between loved ones who feel betrayed by one another. The 'chosen one' was not supposed to become a stranger in opposition but, instead, an ally in the self actualization and egocentric search for "happiness." But the allegiance was lost and now, instead of sharing your 'self' in the desire to self-actualize through union, you withhold your 'self' and gradually begin to hold the other in contempt as they also withhold from you.

Eventually the ego will experience increased anxiety in relation to the chronic stress of this constant withholding, or stifled extension, since our Deep Spirit inclination is to naturally extend to others. This anxiety will only increase, particularly if the ego's demand for control in asserting itself against the other is consistently thwarted by the significant others own self-assertion. No matter how hard you try to control external circumstances, another ego is thwarting your efforts in their attempt at control. These are the daily "control dramas" that are played out in millions of "loving" relationships, so much so, that it is often 'normalized' as typical of all intimate relationships.

When separation-anxiety increases to a boiling point, the ego then avoids conflict altogether by slowly disengaging from the relationship. Now there are only bodies in proximity, providing only surface communication in the performance of routine, superficial menial tasks, while the self is locked away in avoidance of seeking any depth. Adverse alienation sets in and we find we can no longer collaborate on even the smallest things. Eventually, the pattern becomes rigidly predictable, with no 'surprise' in the interactions, as engagement gradually becomes monotonous and mundane.

Yet, we will not disengage from our individual self-actualizing pursuits and in fact, the ego intensifies its efforts in the direction of individualized self-actualization, since the relationship no longer holds out the promise of "happiness."

Eventually, the ego may cut itself off completely from what it sees as the source of its betrayal, resulting in physical separation and eventually the severing of all ties.The ego then seeks out another for which to collude in its individual plans of self-actualization. It has no desire to realize its role in the circular nature of the conflict and denies the fact that it's as guilty as the one it blames. Therefore, it will reconstruct the same patterns of conflict in every relationship it engages with in the future.

Yet, if it can come to realize its role in the pattern of betrayal, it can then gradually begin to alter its perspective enough to engage the other toward resolution. Resolution is always assured through increased understanding, because seeking to deeply understand another is to automatically correspond with Deep Spirit. When you correspond with Deep Spirit, the ego recedes in silence, thereby ending its incessant chatter originating from its need to control reality (others). Now both can listen deeply to one another, easily redirecting patterns to allow an intimate center through which communication can naturally occur.

It only takes one to extend from this Deep Spirit, because such extension has the miraculous tendency to evoke the same extension from others and this is because it is as natural as breathing. Yet, we have lost touch with this deep inner nature, because we have become hypnotized by what society teaches will lead to fulfillment and self-actualization, rather than the intimacy with another we know will energize and bring joy into our lives. Joy is only available when shared.

To extend from Deep Spirit is the path to dissolving alienation. This is because you are no longer strangers to one another and embark in the infinite process of intimate awakening together.

To remain strangers is to give up all hope of understanding and thus, all hope of love. To correspond from Deep Spirit 'within' is to find yourself through engaging to deeply understand another. It is the spiritual ground of all relationships and, although few ever reach that level, the path is available to everyone.

Artwork by Kelly Hutchison - "The Secret Ingredient"

Is Your Mojo Risin’? (part 1 of infinite)

Describing Mojo is a bit tricky, so you best just experience it for yourself. But if I had to I'd say that it's like the Deep Spirit life force that pervades your deepest core and is progressively absent egocentric bullsheit. Other than that, your guess is as good as mine.

But ya know it when it moves ya…when it touches your core, you can't help but feel it.

But you can’t see Mojo, only it’s effects. It ebbs and flows with emotion fueled by belief. Think of it like electrical current. The circuit can be shut off and even dumbed down or it can be jolted with ever increasing amounts of Mojo. Hence, some beliefs increase Mojo, while others decrease it.

Your world is a product of Mojo.

But Mojo can also be victim to the world. The trick is to keep the Mojo risin’ no matter what’s happenin' outside Mojo. No matter what fool is dumpin' on yo Mojo, you just a keep on a' gogo (old Mojo saying).

Like, I paid $450 for car repairs today. Damn Mojo Dumped on me. But then, I said, “fook it man!” and Mojo risin’ again. Talked to an interesting beauty today…Mojo risin!

And once Mojo rises, you can't fight the urge to share it, which only jacks it up more. In fact, Mojo really rises, only when shared.

Mojo rises real high when circuits couple up, forming completely new and more powerful Mojo. Mojo circuits create the world you experience (and you thought it was God? Ha!).

There is never NO Mojo. There is only high and low Mojo. 

Mojo at its highest is completely free of all FEAR. High Mojo plays infinitely in a finite world. High Mojo is virtually unstoppable.

It seems that sometimes low Mojo has to pass through the rings of fire to get to the high Mojo center. This isn’t necessary, but low Mojo just thinks it is. Low Mojo thinks up all kinds of things to make sense of low Mojo, when low Mojo can NEVER make no sense at all. Some live with low Mojo for so long that they know nothin’ but low Mojo.

It’s easy to get Mojo risin.’ 

There is no good or bad Mojo. Only high and low Mojo. Low Mojo desperately wants to be higher, since it is the nature of Mojo…

…to RISE (as high as Mojo can go)

Is your Mojo…risin’?

The best way to get Mojo risin’ is to find a high Mojo Circuit and join in. However, those who deny their Mojo tend to unconsciously stifle it and that may interfere with your own Mojo (especially if you're already low Mojo).

Yet again, those who have high Mojo tend to fire-up low Mojo and that can be a thrilling experience indeed… when Mojo’s join and magnify each other. I was at a Mojo Gathering once and all these high Mojo's were dancin' around and jetting out Mojo Joy all over the place.

Mojo can be affected by a lot of egocentric bullsheit. Like...on my way to work yesterday I felt my Mojo droppin, but then realized I was dumping on my own Mojo through stoopid beliefs about work. Suddenly, the Mojo started risin’ up again. Sometimes all ya gotta do is think in terms of Mojo, and up it goes naturally. Ha! Go figger...

But as soon as you fixate on dumb sheit, down goes Mojo. Unfortunately, most things that egos fixate on are pretty dumb and result in Mojo dropping and staying low. Like money....real low Mojo in that sheit.

Low Mojo is always wanting to rise, but because of the fear associated with low Mojo, this is hard for some.

Low Mojo is always high FEAR.

Hitler was really low Mojo. Probably the lowest Mojo ever experienced. Mojo can drop to a point where risin’ seems damn near impossible. Mojo that low can be destructive and some say it's “evil.” But there ain’t none such thing as evil, only really low Mojo. But even really low Mojo can rise, if it has a hankerin’ to. But this usually requires alot of high Mojo mixed in. When you get a lot of high Mojo all together in the same place, the desire of low Mojo to connect is irresistible. See if ya don't want to! Ha!

Poor Obama’s Mojo took a nosedive, but he had high Mojo. Whadefook happenin’ to the dudes Mojo??? He was raisin’ everybody’s Mojo. Why’d he go and disconnect from the circuits? Hope he gets it back up there.

High Mojo is always associated with deep peace and wild experiences of Mojo Joy. Mojo Joy is infused with unbelievable high levels of Mojo and is essentially fearless. However, high Mojo don’t run around pontificating on itself and tellin' how high it is.

High Mojo just calmly and peacefully takes over the world.

Some peeps fear their own Mojo and this causes them to get nervous around the high Mojo of others. Or sometimes, when you’re in high Mojo, you find yourself avoiding somebody’s low Mojo. This tends to reduce your high Mojo cause you ain’t merging it with other Mojo circuits. Mojo can't stay up high on its own, because it only rises really high through merging with other circuits. But Mojo should NEVER be contingent on what’s happening in the world. That’s just low Mojo and low Mojo can be contagious. But not as much as high Mojo.

High Mojo is like God.

I like tellin’ folks when they’re raisin’ my Mojo. I say, "Dang, Jojo, you makin' my Mojo a'gogo!" Then again, I don’t mind letting ‘em know when they’re bringin’ my Mojo down. I say “Yo, leggo my Mojo…mofo!” But usually I’m just trying to get up their Mojo, cause these days its hard for anyone or anything to dump on my Mojo, but easy for 'em to bring it up. It’s usually up there and if it dumps, well, I jack it back up right quick, cause who wants to go through a whole day with low Mojo??

The highest level of Mojo is often called "Christ Consciousness" or "Buddha Mind." But then, giving Mojo another name is just low Mojo.

Infinite Mojo is simply the realization that Mojo can keep risin' and there ain’t NO end to how high the Mojo can go. 

When you reach that high level of Mojo the world tends to recede or even disappear. It ain’t actually gone, you just ain’t aware of it no more (since who needs a finite world when you’re in Infinite Mojo, yo!). But you do wind up bringing others with ya, cause Mojo can only rise so far on its own. High Mojo always needs more and more Mojo.

Infinite Mojo only wants to show low Mojo how to rise up. It tries to join with low Mojo, but low Mojo keeps on breaking the circuit cause of dumb sheit (like low Mojo "money"). Low Mojo is as addictive as high Mojo. But who wants to be addicted to low Mojo?

Low Mojo’s sometimes winds up worshiping the highest Mojo, failin' to see that it could get that high if it wanted to. Yet, what usually seems to happen is that low Mojo winds up making a religion out of Infinite Mojo and that only keeps Mojo low for a long time.

Centuries even…

Artwork by Yue Minjun - "Between Men and Animal"

Individual Truth is an Oxymoron

Do you believe you will transcend your egocentricity through means established by your egocentricity?

Do you really believe you can do it all on your lonesome? That “you” can seek out the right path and the perfect teacher? That “you” will one day claim truth for your…”self”? That “you” can and will achieve your own personal and individual “enlightenment”? That you can “awaken” to absolute truth as an individual?

Is this not the epitome of egocentric arrogance? Does this not completely and totally accentuate and symbolize separation and division? What unified oneness, what non-dual perspective, can an “individual” ever achieve?

The premise instantly negates the conclusion.

An “individual” claiming truth is an oxymoron.

The individual endeavor, to be rewarded for finding absolute truth just for “you,” smacks of total and complete hypocrisy.

But then…not to an ego…ha!

But what are “you” moving to and why? What is it you really wish to “transcend”? Why else would an ego-self choose to go it alone, if not for its deep distrust of THEM? And when you achieve your coveted “awakening,” how will THEY look to you? Closely examine every modern “enlightened master” and, contrary to the claim of “enlightenment,” the distrust is always there, based on seeing INEQUALITY.

Centuries of egocentric translation of the Great Wisdom Texts has channeled the truth to conform to egocentricity and now “you” accept it as incontrovertible FACT. But why shouldn’t you? Look at all the sheit you have to put up with, your entire life, from other people.

Make no mistake,  TRUTH alters ALL objects of consciousness and makes them completely… EQUAL… in every aspect imaginable.

An ego cannot transcend itself, just as a snake cannot eat its own tail.
Nevertheless, “you” continue to persevere in your egocentric desire for the individual rewards promised.

But who or what interpreted those promises? Who or what found them desirable in the first place? Who or what picked the vehicle and who or what set out on the chosen path? Who or what went in and who or what will come out?

Why…”you,” of course. An “individual” claiming truth. The egocentric YOU. Possibly a little calmer, a little wiser and maybe even a bit more arrogantly egocentric. But hey, you’re “awakened” and a little arrogance is part of the GAME.

So go ahead, close your eyes and ears in years of meditative tranquility and when you open them, if INEQUALITY stares you in the face…best you close your eyes again because TRUTH is not yet available to “you.”

“When the two shall become one”… has passed you by. Drat, foiled again!

Well, maybe it’s time for a change? Maybe your awakening lies with THEM? Maybe you really can’t do it alone? Maybe you need help?

“No!” exclaims the frightened ego, “they cannot be trusted. Look what they’ve done to you!”

It is NOT the world you seek to transcend… but THEM.

THEY are your world.

Your suffering is ENTIRELY bound up with the egos that populate your world. Although you like to think that you “love” them, primarily it is FEAR that determines your interactions and the limits of your “love.” Self-protecting, self-preserving, self-actualizing…FEAR. All your anxieties, all your depression, all your disappointments, worry, anger, guilt, etc, etc, etc is directly associated with THEM. Look closely at every problem that dogs you these days and recognize it's some “other” who impedes what you desire, what you demand.

You could have anything you wanted…

…if not for THEM.

You believe THEY are wrong and “transcendence” will make it better. You do not fear no-self, you fear other selves.

The government, the Illuminati, the police, your boss, your coworkers, your kids, your mother, your spouse, your neighbor, Aunt Ginny, Uncle Joe, angry people, inconsiderate people, greedy people…

…but not your dog! Fido is pure, just as nature is innocent. But the rest of THEM? Not to be trusted. THEY are clearly guilty.

There would be no need for transcendence if only THEY could be trusted. The world would be such a wonderful place if not for THEM. You could be “happy,” if not for THEM. Peace would be a reality, if not for THEM.

If that is true, then there can be little doubt that your “awakening” to truth lies entirely with THEM. Because the only FEAR you need overcome, to achieve the deep and abiding peace of TRUTH, is your fear of THEM.

The hardest path to follow is the one you fear the most. But the best path to follow is the one that faces fear head on.

THEY are your TRUTH and your SALVATION.

Fully engage THEM completely without FEAR…

…and awaken.

Artwork by Michael Hussar - "Stigmata"

The Collapse of Egocentric Time

Although the egocentric ‘self’ demands the measuring and charting of "time," it is only an experience. “You," or that conceptual abstraction you identify as "I," are consistently seeking to evolve, improve, develop and self-actualize within the parameters of time, in the belief that such evolution (mind/spirit) must take “time. This is a chronological, horizontally, linear perspective that demands “time” be involved in everything you do to self-actualize as an existing egocentric individual.

However, since time is only an experience, is there a way to collapse time?

 
“Education” is egocentrically contingent on time. But is there a way to collapse time and thus evolve rapidly through spurts of timelessness? Is time really needed for an evolving mind or does the mind rapidly accelerate evolution through experiences outside or absent time? Experiences that relieve the mind of experiencing time altogether?

You can certainly recollect experiences in which time seemed to drag on interminably. While you can also recall experiences when time seemed to speed up and hours felt like mere minutes. Hence, it does seem that experientially there is the potential to play with time since, although we measure time objectively for egocentric actualizing and development, subjectively it is pure experience and nothing more.

Is there a perspective the ego-self could adopt that tends to collapse the experience of time? Or does the ego-self need to markedly recede from the mind in order for time to be experienced as collapsed or absent?

Is the learning that comes from 'timelessness' more valuable to the mind then that which is learned IN time, through the victimization to time?

There does seem to be some evidence of the possibility that two egos might have the capacity to collapse the experience of time, make time recede, cause time to essentially…disappear.

Consider your past “love” experiences and the egocentric dissolution in moments of self-abandonment which occurred initially.  The full engagement of each ‘self’ as merged with, and deeply into another. Those brief moments when self-awareness seemed to recede as other-awareness impeded the self-protective and self-preserving capacities of egocentric individualism and “personal” self-actualization.

This is much too prevalent an experience to pass off as merely a type of infatuation psychosis completely contingent on bodily drives, desires and lusts (although the actions of two “lovers” clearly indicates such to outside observers). Although, for centuries, songs and books have been written paying homage to this brief episode of “romantic” self-dissolution, the same loss of self from non-obligatory relationships is apparent in many obligatory parent/child relationships (especially when the child has not yet fully developed an egocentric perspective to oppose and compete with other egos). Time-collapse experiences are evident in mother-child attachments in which one ego collapses time by merging with the undeveloped self of the child.

The ego-self learns nothing from such experiences, because the experience is purely timeless and the ego-self is an inherently time-bound abstraction, requiring time for which to self-actualize or “exist.” However, there is always a recollection of the experience of collapsed time, but that memory does not fit egocentric paradigms and is later interpreted as fantasy or delusional. Nevertheless, the desire to join and unify is a superconscious (beyond conscious thought) directive that even the machinations of the ego cannot resist, causing us ALL to long for it once again.

Because the ego-self is entirely victim to time, it would have little conscious inclination or desire to collapse what it requires in order to know it 'exists' and is indeed, a ‘self IN time. Hence, after an experience of collapsed time, the return to egocentricity is often quite aggressive, as the ego-self rises back up to honor its time-bound commitment to reality control, which includes the subconscious directive of controlling others. The ego-self must return to judge conditions optimal for its continued press into its world, since this has always been its prime directive.

Nevertheless, we forever long for this experience of egocentric regression and freedom from time. We pine for the “love” we once experienced in the egoless embrace in which time was experienced as absent. An experience in which the conditions egocentrically imposed, as means of controlling your personal reality, seem to miraculously disappear, if only for a brief time.

You may rigidly adhere to your spiritual practices for a lifetime and never experience the absence of egocentric time that such a collapse perpetuates.This is because it relies on engagement with another and that engagement must be left completely uncontrolled by egocentric needs. Millions leave long-term relationships in the belief that they have once again found “The One” for which to lose themselves and experience the collapse of egocentric time.

Alas, this is clearly antithetical to the ego-self’s primary commitment to reality control and many move serially from relationship to relationship in the hope of one day experiencing the collapse of time and the end of victimization to the experience of time.

Can we blame them that they are driven by a force beyond their egocentric comprehension and control?

 
Yet, the problem is always how to maintain the collapse when it is spontaneously experienced with, and through, another. How to resist the ego’s press for return and the eventual imposition of conditions as time is again re-experienced.  How to perpetuate the unconditional within the timeless.

Can two or more apply a method for harnessing collapsed time?

Possibly for another essay to be posted…

…in “time.”

Artwork by Jacek Yerka - "Nauka Chodzenia"

The Accidental Guru

The Great Spiritual Guru is historically renowned for bringing up your sheit. Making you LOOK at yourself, exposing your delusions. Why else would you seek him out?

And while you were busy seeking your Great Guru, accidental gurus were all around you.

How many did you encounter today?

Or did you miss them and, thus, fail to retain the teachings?

Per chance....an accidental guru looked at you on the elevator and one slightly bumped you in line at McDonalds (with a quiet “sorry” that you barely heard). One loudly beeped his horn at you, while another let you pass. Yesterday, one made you angry and last week one made you laugh. Last month one made you cry and last year one hurt you real bad. There were others that made you leap with joy and some you just couldn’t get enough of and some you just can't stand.

Some are happy and some are sad. Some are vain and some are humble.

But not one of them…

… is sacred.

Let’s face it, you know a “Master Teacher” when you see one!

With an accidental guru, you just never know...

Hence, you pay them little heed, as you return to your sutra’s and scriptures, mindfully repeating your “OM.”

Because you know what to look for, you will seek and find your Master Teacher and he will always meet your expectations. If not, you'll just seek out another, until you can finally make your bow.

But you will never bow to the accidental guru, because you never know they're there. They will never meet your expectations, so don’t bother looking.

Yet, make no mistake, they will FIND YOU.

They never fail.

It’s inexplicable how they always seem to be there to teach you what you need right when you need it. Although, most likely, you’ll claim the timing was bad and miss the point altogether. Then you’ll angrily demand the accidental guru find a “Master Teacher” like yours.

You can’t prepare for what the accidental guru teaches. But you can always be prepared to learn. Unless, of course, it is the Great Spiritual Guru you seek. In that case, you’ll learn nothing by accident and everything on purpose.

Probably not the best way to learn…

…that YOU are an accidental guru.


Artwork by Mark Ryden - "The Apology"

Humans Hate Humanity

A coworker recently told me how she cries whenever an animal dies in a movie. She doesn’t much fret at all about people getting shot up, blown away, dismembered, etc. But when a dog or horse is killed, she feels really sad.

Humanity is inherently guilty by reason of its purposeless existence. 

Guilt is the chief reason we cannot come together to fix our problems and the world continues to deteriorate rapidly because of guilt. But it’s not the type of guilt one experiences for specific acts, like stealing a pack of pens from work or cheating on your spouse (or your taxes).

Rather, this guilt is a pervasive, all-encompassing, deep-seated feeling of inadequacy and worthlessness. A feeling of not being ‘good enough,’ and of being inherently wrong, purposeless and meaningless. 

You could really try to do everything right in your life, to follow the rules perfectly, to be a good citizen, worker, spouse, parent, etc, and you could even feel as if you were succeeding. But this would never alleviate your deep sense of guilt for being a part of humanity. For ‘existing’ as human.

Your egocentricity is fueled by guilt. Your very existence as a ‘self’ is contingent on guilt, on the deep sense of being WRONG. You don’t know why you feel this way. You can’t point to any specific aspects of your ‘self’ as responsible for this feeling, but you can’t help but feel very WRONG.

Of course, if “you” are wrong, then clearly the whole of humanity is just as WRONG and you fully indict them as such. This seems to allow you a brief reprieve from your guilt. But eventually, the anxiety prevails over all your attempts at a cure.

There’s no getting around the basic fact that we really hate each other for what we do to one another and to our world.
 
As a whole, we mistrust and loathe one another and this is essentially why we cannot work together to solve the world’s problems. Problems that guilt created, demanding everyone take care of himself. An ego-self that does NOT trust other egos will only look out for itself. Hence, that is the world you see. A world of fear and loathing. A world of war and destruction, greed and corruption. A world falling apart. A world in which individuals seek to survive in spite of their hatred of humanity and being human. This is a world of “everybody for himself.”

Yet, we fail to see that the lifeboat is sinking and everyone on it will go down with the ship.

Nevertheless, egos like to collude with other egos and will pick and choose other specific egos to help it improve on its finite survival chances, because to an ego, survival is everything.

So why bother trying to fix a dying civilization. I will shoot you and you me and, hopefully, we’ll both drop simultaneously. Haha!

If your existence is inherently wrong, then everyone else’s existence is just as wrong. However, the dynamic of the ego is to deny its deep sense of inadequacy by focusing on specific acts of guilt performed by others. This subterfuge aids in obscuring your deeper personal feeling of meaninglessness and complete lack of purpose. You need not be aware of your sense of guilt if you can indict ME as the guilty party.

Humans hate humanity because we find our self, and humanity, as guilty of having NO purpose and what has NO purpose should be eradicated. God did not create a meaningless and purposeless world.

You did.

The fact of the matter is that seeking ways to protect the planet is absurd and useless. All technologies directed in such a way should be terminated, simply because we clearly do not have the means to cooperate/collaborate in implementing any protective measures. Of course, token measures seem to relieve us temporarily of our inherent ego-guilt. But this fails to wipe clean the guilt we feel for who and what we are and this is the guilt we easily superimpose upon the whole of humanity. It's the filter you see the world through.

The guilty do not work well together and if we can’t, then no amount of innovative technology or skills will make a speck of difference. It hasn’t made any difference in changing the course we are on now, nor will it amount to a hill of beans for our future.

Forget nature! Nature doesn’t care a spit for our techno-fixes and all petty attempts at healing the planet from our own assaults upon it. It simply waits for us to realize our own innocence so that we once again can return to nature. But seeking to return to nature, while subtracting humanity from that equation, only resigns us ALL to our fate.

Until then, the guilty must pay and we may wind up paying with  extinction. As much as you love your personal little “life,” your hatred of humanity dooms you as much as the whole.

The guilt in your mind shapes and molds molecules into the “world” you experience.

As long as we find humanity reprehensible we will avoid and not engage, alienate rather than reconcile, estrange as opposed to unify.

And the world will reflect that back at us in vivid Technicolor.


ARTWORK BY Kevin Llewellyn – “Fountain of Youth”

Show Me The Way to Go Home (I’m tired and I wanna go to bed)

Look around you and ask yourself,  "do I really feel at home here? have I ever felt at home? Is this really where I belong?"

Your delusions are highly structured and extremely complex. But you believe them, else they would NOT FEEL REAL.

You have never felt at home here and you often wonder if you ever will. You are beginning to recognize that what you NEED cannot be found here. The problem is that you have NO idea what you NEED. Therefore, you allow an egocentrically deluded world to teach you what is needed. But in all these years of “education” are you any closer to knowing? Have you become any “happier” from what you’ve learned?

You believe the world teaches what you need. Yet, the world teaches what the student demands and thus, the world gives you what you ask from it. You find this suggestion preposterous, as you go about your mind-numbing activities, blaming others and the world for what you LACK, all the while never recognizing that what you lack is has always been what you EXPECT to lack and you have NO intention of changing what you EXPECT.

Do you?

Your "world" is the world of scarcity that you make real every time you suffer through the feeling of deprivation. Hence, how can you love a home that keeps you deprived? A home that threatens to destroy you? A home where no one really gives a shit about you and, in turn, you really couldn’t give a rat’s ass about them? A home where you are coming to believe it’s safer to stay in your “house” then go out and engage the world?

The world you experience is hopeless and becomes more deprived everyday. Suspicious minds are gradually closing in upon themselves by excluding more and more of what they experience.

“Splitting” refers to the egocentric process of breaking off pieces of WHOLE EXPERIENCE and jettisoning those pieces away from the ‘self.’ This does NOT deny that these parts are still IN your mind and you continue to experience them. It simply aids egocentricity in excluding parts of the WHOLE EXPERIENCE in order to support your complete and total impotence and inadequacy. An impotent and inadequate mind must turn to egocentric schemes for salvation. But an egocentric mind MUST always need salvation, since it is comprised entirely of the fear of deprivation. The ego is only a small part of your mind and because of this, IT (“you”) must always feel deprived...

...of the rest of YOU.

When will you accept that ALL your experiences are undeniably and  irreducibly YOURS?

Nope... ego would rather believe that some experiences it controls, while others must be blamed on the “world.” This is why “you” have never felt at home in your own mind and why you most likely will never make it home at all.

DEATH will not take you “there,” simply because ‘death’ is the most profound individually exclusive, egocentric experience “you” will ever encounter. It tends to keep you locked onto the treadmill of fear that you have yet to leap off of.

When will you make that leap?

They say that “home is where the heart is,” but your gradually losing heart for all the bullshit you feel required to participate in. Yet, all that need be done is for you to accept responsibility for the experiences you encounter in your head. You will know you are HOME, when those experiences no longer effect you and you fully accept and embrace ALL of it (because the experiences are ALL yours). Do not allow ego to extract you from your own mind by excluding particular experiences in opposition to others.

It's ALL you…ALL the time.

You KNOW it, my friends, without a doubt this is not YOUR home. This is not what YOU were meant to experience. But because you wish for some part's as opposed to others, you have dualistically arranged your own particular sense of HELL.

But remember,  it's NOT OUT THERE.

Your home awaits you, and "there," you will be completely safe and protected, experiencing infinite waves of intoxicating reunification and reconciliation with the WHOLE EXPERIENCE.

Yet, make NO mistake,that “home sweet home” can be found none other than within the "promise land" of your own MIND…

…and everyone will be happy to join you “there," because without THEM...

...you will remain lost, traveling in and out of disparate experiences that make NO sense.

No one goes HOME...alone.
(even God knows that)

Artwork by Herman Smorenburg - "Journey Home"

2012: The End of Guilt and Punishment

Does the world seems to be spinning wildly out of control. Yet, how else will you learn you never had control if not through the experience of chaos?

All attempts to control the effects of delusion must fail, simply because effects can only be controlled at their cause and all delusion is a distortion of MIND. This is why your world continues to repeat the same effects, ad nauseam. As each individual mind refuses responsibility for what it "sees," what it sees must repeat because permission was granted simply by continued SEEING.

You believe what you see was there before you saw it. Yet, nothing is ever there UNTIL you look for it and you only look for what you expect to see.

Hence, your prayers are always answered, but by YOU. “Ask and ye shall receive” is YOUR truth, although you may NOT like what you give yourself. 

Guilt demands punishment and these are the building blocks of your suffering. If you SEE death and destruction then, make no mistake, you have asked and received in accordance with your wishes. It ALL belongs to you because NOTHING leaves your mind. All experience is of the mind and it can be true or deluded... but never both.

The egos existence is entirely contingent on GUILT and guilt ALWAYS demands punishment. The ego actualizes itself through seeking out the guilty for which to contrast AGAINST. Guilt divides you from your experience of a world by chopping up the wholeness of that experience into opposing parts and all opposition is entirely fueled by guilt. The ego cleaves the mind in two, demanding opposition between the parts. You hate the innocent for the guilt they make you feel, but love the guilty because through them your innocence is actualized. From day to day, moment to moment, such judgments are made "naturally" by the ego-self.

The dualism of your world is a product of guilt. Some parts are better, wiser, smarter, more courageous, more ignorant, more innocent, more guilty than others. In your mind, Hitler must oppose Mother Teresa, just as ugliness must oppose beauty. The ego seeks out differences for which to actualize itself in contrast. The darkness is guilty of hiding the light, while death is guilty of being lifeless. “Less” is guilty of not being “more” and “losing” is guilty of not “winning,” while “wrong” is guilty of not being “right.” This can change on a whim and sometimes less is more and losing is winning. It makes no difference to the egocentric. As long as opposition rules the mind, the ego is at home. As long as peace is absent, the ego is always present. As long as opposition severs the interconnected and interdependent wholeness of experience, all your separate and isolated experiences are underlined by the fear of guilt.

Governments, or the collusion of the egocentric, fuel your guilt as a means of greater control. Are you a Muslim or a Christian? A terrorist or a patriot? A socialist or a capitalist? The “enlightened” who see the unenlightened are as imprisoned as those they claim to save. Egocentricity must see a world of guilt and innocence and spend a "lifetime" sorting through those differences as a means of self-actualizing through contrast and comparison. The ego demands colliding particles and opposing forces. It cleaves and rips apart all experience of wholeness and claims parts of the world are at fault and must be punished for their guilt and so you alienate and estrange your ‘self’ from the indicted.

But what will become of "you" when ALL are guilty as charged?

It is becoming more difficult to tell the difference between guilt and innocence, causing you to experience a chaotic world spinning out of control. As the lines blur, the ego can no longer pit innocence against guilt and it must self-destruct because it NO longer has a purpose. But this requires a great deal of suffering, until the absurdity makes itself known, because the ego-self will fight to maintain its innocence by seeking out the guilty.

Someone must pay for your suffering.

Experience is a product of mind and nothing is apart from experience. To impose guilt upon your world is an indictment upon YOUR mind and you will not escape the punishment that all guilt requires. All defense of guilt supports egocentric suffering and, make no mistake, it’s NOT the world, but the HELL of your own mind that you seek to escape. There is NO world outside your mind.

There is NO “doom” scenario you need concern your ‘self’ with, because the ego will never willingly  disassociate itself from its NEED to suffer. The end of GUILT and PUNISHMENT will awaken you to the fact that you are not an ego-self, because only when you set them FREE in your own mind, will YOU experience FREEDOM for yourself.

Prepare now for the freedom of 2012, because the end of guilt and punishment will certainly change the world as you know it.


Artwork by Laurie Lipton - "Tete a Tete"

The Reason “You” Are ALWAYS Wrong...

Your greatest defeats have been your greatest victories. But "you" don't see it that way. What the ego interprets as failure MUST always be a success if interpreted by the part of your mind that does NOT understand loss of any kind and is not associated with egocentricity.

If you follow the ego’s directions you must ALWAYS be lost, because the ego is ALWAYS wrong. In its narcissistic grandiosity, it cares little for what you need, beyond what it determines. It merely demands you ALWAYS look to it for advice and you ALWAYS do.

Therefore, why should it surprise you that you are always unhappy when, in fact, you are always wrong?

Every decision made for a ‘self’ in a world must always be wrong, because the ‘self’ is always as delusional as the world that exists to support IT. Nothing from that point of view is worthy of consideration because NOTHING from that perspective can ever be based on TRUTH. Even a decision the ego evaluates as benefiting another, hence, as ‘selfless,’ MUST in some way benefit the ego, else it would NOT have been made at all.

To collapse this apparent opposition, simply allow others to make decisions for you and accept every decision they make. Of course, this is entirely contrary to egocentric grandiosity and your intense distrust of the world and all others IN it. From egocentricity, “you” MUST find this idea patently absurd. For the ego, ALL experiences of a “world” serve no other purpose than to be opposed. Your 'world' exists for no other reason and through the suffering inherent in that conflict, you know your 'self' as egocentric.

Yet you can choose for your experience of a world to serve a different purpose. Your trust in them will reciprocally reinforce their trust in you and appropriate decisions will be made from that unified perspective. This dissolves the significance of egocentricity and all the MEANINGS that such an identification superimposes upon everything “you” experience. The ego is entirely fixated with superimposing ITS meanings upon ITS experiences in order to accentuate ITS own egocentric existence as REAL.

Yet, what “you” deny is that the meaning of ALL experiences were applied before the experience was encountered, because it was the identified meaning that allowed for and defined the experience before it “happened.” Every decision an ego makes already has conflict built into it, because every egocentric decision expects to be opposed by a ‘world’ of other egos. Thus, discord must be experienced between the ego and its experience of a “world.”

Therefore, simply allow the world to decide for you and conflict is automatically dissolved. It doesn't matter if they're right or wrong, because in a delusional world there is NO need to differentiate between right and wrong when it's ALL delusional.

When your egocentric 'best interests' are no longer opposed to the meanings you superimpose upon your world, you are free of the world and the world is in turn free of what you demand to experience from IT. If another asks you to do something you do not want to do, why experience conflict in the realization that the ego manufactures the experience of both their request and your opposition. The ego manufactures an experience of a “world” for which to define itself as opposing so that it can self-actualize” as REAL. 

But if ALL experiences are manufactured delusions, what does this say about their origin? 

The ego does not trust other egos, the world and, most importantly, it does NOT trust YOU. This is why it is imperative to the ego that you remain convinced that it IS you. However, every separate mind, at some point in ‘time,’ has experienced a timeless moment completely absent egocentricity. A moment in which, what you want from your world is exactly EQUAL to what you want for your ‘self.’

There is no experience more frightening to an ego-self than the moment you encounter an experience it cannot control because YOU realize NO need for control. Hence, there is nothing more joyful for YOU than realizing NOTHING need be controlled. Yet, as long as you continue to interpret every experience from an egocentric perspective, the ego-self is assured of your opposition to that experience and as long as you oppose your ‘self,’ the ego reigns supreme. All your suffering signifies your opposition against yourself and that “you” remain allied to the finite ego right up to your death. Make no mistake, death is the most powerful experience an ego could manufacture and it maintains egocentricity long after belief in non-existence is embraced.

Only the arrogant grandiosity of egocentricity could consider the delusion of non-existence and actually seek to experience it. Ha!

The world is your experience and it has no other parameters but what you impose upon it and, since it has no meaning other than that, hence, it is completely meaningless. But you have become victimized by the meaningless in denial that ALL meaning is YOURS.

Both victim and victimizer are in your mind and can be none other than “you.” The ego demands finite experiences. Therefore, your only choice is to live infinitely.

Nothing leaves the mind.

Artwork by Lily Mae Martin - "The Unknown"

Just Moments Before Mass Extinction....We ALL Awaken.

It seems highly likely that a mass "awakening" will occur in accordance to our approaching the very brink of unavoidable mass extinction. 

This is evident if we examine the "dark night of the soul" theories perpetuated by those, past and present, who claim their own individual "awakening." If we believe this as "true," why is it hard to consider we require burning through the same "rings of fire," but on a mass scale?

"It's Not Your Imagination: The Number of Disasters Keeps Rising." (link)

If we subscribe to the Unified Consciousness theory of reality creation, we are all beginning to recognize the utter uselessness of self-absorbed, individual "enlightenment' episodes to rectify our current disparaging situation, which further erodes by the day. Therefore, we, as a collective consciousness, are no longer holding out hope for an individual savior, but are, in fact, expecting a mass awakening upon the point of mutually assured destruction. This is NO different than the Indian guru's who have supposedly experienced a "death," only to return awakened to the truth of their actual existence (or lack thereof).

Therefore, in accordance to this theoretical consideration, we should all look forward to the very point of extinction, because only such a reality-break would free us from the clutches of our delusional fixations on specific lifestyles and stoopid belief attachments related to individual self-preservation. It seems highly likely, as mass extinction approaches, that you will then do what you should have been doing all along...

...fully engaging with those around you in a swell of unconditional love, since the silly conditions through which you now attempt to love others have been useless in altering your egocentric suffering or that of the world. But what need of conditions when your days are numbered. Ha!

Freedom awaits us all and NO child will be left behind (since, most likely, that's the only way we can all finally be free of what we do to one another).

See, the game is infinite. Yet, unfortunately, the world is now inundated with finite players, ALL seeking their own individual outcomes or rewards, regardless of consequences. Their numbers have been growing gradually over time and the destruction they impose, based purely on egocentric goals, has taken a severe toll on continued human existence. Hell, even infinite players are finding it hard to insulate from their finite schemes and detach from their self-absorbed designs. But let's not vilify the finite players that we ALL are.

However, I got it from a good source (an infinite player) that we may be approaching a significant game changer very soon...

(might wanna fasten your seat belts though)

Ha!

Artwork by Michael Polomik - "The Decision"

Runnin’ With The Herd

The herd gave you everything. Even your desire to escape the herd is a gift of the herd.

Are YOU grateful?

The herd gave you your Super Bowl and your Spiritual Awakening. Your HDTV and your Eckart Tolle. Integral Theory and Dancing With The Stars. Hummers and higher consciousness. Chakras and Chocolate chips. Gurus and Gonorrhea.

The herd gave you all you desire to embrace and all you seek to escape. Everything you seek to find and everything you seek to lose is a product of the herd. Whatever you love and whatever you loathe…all gifts of the herd.

You can never “transcend” the herd… because the herd gave you that too…(hahaaa!).

The enlightened master and the pedophile. Charles Manson and Mahatma Ghandi. Adyashanti and Al Capone. The Dalai Lama and Jeffrey Dahmer. All products of the herd and all snug up in your mind. It's all up in your noggin' and all you need do is bring it into focus and....SEE...

...and you do!

But sometimes you loathe the ignorant masses and you actually hate the fuckin’ bastards out there… as if you were not apart of it. For chrisakes, the herd even gave you…your FEAR of the herd.

They gave you fear and loathing (what’d you think, you came up with that all on your lonesome, LOL). And you return the favor by fearing and loathing "them." The herd is your teacher and your mind is the classroom. Would you like to change the world? Sure, the herd gave you that.

Do you really think for a minute that the herd will let you go? That you can somehow go your own way?

Because every path you choose, was mapped out by the herd long before your membership was approved simply by fact of your birth. Without the herd, who or what would you be? Without the herd, what would you think? How would you define your ‘self’?

Are you a rebel? A non-conformist? A pacifist? An activist? An artist? A Buddhist? A Terrorist, a non-dualist, an academic, a master, a butcher , a baker, a candlestick maker? Are you conservative or a liberal? Are you a husband, wife, daughter, son? Are you gay, straight, round, lost or found? Are you depressed, happy, contented, sad, grieving, mad? Are you pissed off and not gonna take it anymore...LOL.

...don’t forget to thank the herd!

Do you follow the esoteric teachings of Zen Buddhism? Are you an advocate of Ken Wilber’s Integral Theory? Are you a Born Again Christian or a Muslim Jihadist? Have you experienced the transcendental bliss of the non-dual experience? Get a new car? Diagnosed with cancer? Waiting for Jesus? Lose your job? Win the lottery? Get laid? Get enlightened? Abducted by Aliens? Schizophrenic? Obese? At peace?

Do you sometimes enjoy reading the crap on this blog?

Just don’t forget to thank the herd for it’s bountiful beneficence and its myriad renditions of relative suffering and joy, all of which you have chosen at one time or another, and will continue to choose time and time again, always thinking your choice is "unique" and above the herd. Thank the herd for the cognitive cornucopia you conjure up and, through that, consider yourself uniquely SPECIAL.

Make no mistake, your uniqueness is a product of a collective consciousness just brimming with ideas, most of it nothing more than the same old hag dressed up in snazzy new post-modern mini-skirt.

You want to be free of the herd, to  transcend the vile masses? Yep, that’s provided too.

You’re NOT “unique,” just another member of the herd, demanding the herd approve your uniqueness. And they no doubt will...in fact, they will hand it to you. The herd will give you...

...your "self."

Because not one single solitary thought in your head is free of the herd….

Jump in and fully engage the herd, because you are never NOT engaged. You just like to think you’re not part of it all. You like to pretend that you have nothing to do with what’s out there, with what you see, with what you experience....

But keep IN MIND….ALL the shit you experience and accept as outside YOU…

Is an experience indisputably.... INSIDE YOUR HEAD….

…and nowhere else will you EVER experience it.

Hmmmm....now what do you suppose that means?

I've seen all good people turn their heads each day
so satisfied I'm on my way.
I've seen all good people turn their heads each day
so satisfied I'm on my way. 

Take a straight and stronger course to the corner of your life.
Make the white queen run so fast she hasn't got time to make you a wife. 

'Cause it's time, it's time in time with your time and its news is captured
For the queen to use.

Move me on to any black square,
Use me any time you want,
Just remember that the goal
Is for us to capture all we want, (move me on), yea,yea,yea,yea,yea (to any black square)

Don't surround yourself with yourself,
Move on back two squares,
Send an instant karma to me,
Initial it with loving care yourself.

'Cause it's time, it's time in time with your time and its news is captured
For the queen to use.

I've seen all good people turn their heads each day so satisfied I'm on my way. 

Artwork by HR Giger - "Landscape XVIII"

Collective Annihilation Through Individual Egos

Collective self-destruction by individual egos, if it ever happens, must surely be accidental.

On the surface, the collective certainly has no desire to self-destruct. But deep down in the depths of the collective mind, where we compulsively repeat the same patterns, over and over, ad infinitum...

…the collective actually loathes the individual ego and wishes to destroy it.

Yet, the individual ego equally despises the collective mass of human consciousness.

Neither wishes an end to itself, but both seek to destroy the other.

So which are “you”?

The ego fears and loathes the collective. It perceives the aggregate of human consciousness and belief as primitive, absurd and madly driven by gross fears and desires. It recognizes man’s inhumanity to man as a collective disease that only IT is immune to. The individual ego holds itself up as sacred, as it seeks its own personal awakening to a higher consciousness  and a higher truth not available to the collective mass of human thought. The ego believes it is on a “hero’s journey” to one day transcend the collective HELL that it despises.

The collective fears and loathes the individual ego. It understands self-absorbed egocentricity as the very reason for man’s inhumanity to man. It lives in chronic sadness and fear over the pain and suffering individual egos inflict upon itself. The collective sensationalizes all individual acts of cruelty as not apart of itself. It seeks to extract out the guilty and supports severe punishment.

History demonstrates that following every collective uprising, the ego takes over until the collective must rise again. This is easy to be seen, because with every political uprising, one individual ego is sought out as leader. Nevertheless, as always happens, that individual ego is eventually vilified by the collective in its desire for punishment.

The individual ego cannot escape the collective, because the collective GAVE IT LIFE.

The collective cannot escape egocentric individuality, because the ego KEEPS IT ALIVE.

The collective is OUTSIDE, seeking control over what is INSIDE YOU.

The ego is INSIDE, seeking control over what is OUTSIDE IT.

Thus, the collective will always withhold its wonder from the ego and the ego will share none of its magic with the collective.

When the ego sees the outside as inside and the collective realizes that what is inside has never left the outside…

...there will no longer be a difference to get hung up on and point to.

Artwork by Beau White - "Becoming A Man (bit by bit)"

The Intimacy of Deep Spirit or Non-Dualistic Rapture

The first definition of intimacy according to Dictionary.com (and American Heritage) is listed as "(1) a close association with or detailed knowledge or deep understanding of a place, subject, period of history, etc.: an intimacy with Japan."

Notice how this concrete and concise definition is applied only to objective and empirical, places, subjects or time periods and NOT necessarily to relationships or people. The dictionary defines ‘intimacy' between people as the typical: "(2) a close, familiar, and usually affectionate or loving personal relationship with another person or group" and, of course, "(3) sexual intercourse." The problem with the second (2) definition, as applied to Deep Spirit relationships, is that to understand intimacy from that perspective one must first define the interior abstract concepts of "close," "familiar," and "loving." This then leaves us with the objective and exterior (3) "sexual intercourse" and we all know that one real well.

This is problematic since "sexual intercourse" is the typical, conventional means of attempting to realize intimacy and because of this we all tend to overly-sacralize, albeit unconsciously, "sexual intercourse" as exemplifying or epitomizing intimacy, whereas, it essentially distracts and dissociates from Deep Spirit intimacy or "deep understanding." As we all know, "sexual intercourse" does not require intimacy or "deep understanding" and can be engaged in at the drop of a hat, and nature attests to this.

You attain a deeper more spirit-based understanding of another as you feel safer to reveal, expose and share your interior experiences of one another to one another. Unfortunately, this often requires intense and excruciatingly painful conflict to precede the dissolving of barriers.

"I can imagine the moment... breaking out through the silence... all the things that we both might say... and the heart it will not be denied, 'Til we're both on the same damn side... all the barriers blown away" (Come Talk to Me, Peter Gabriel)

We slowly realize, through a deeper understanding, that our motives (deep-seated) were not related to present attack, but more related to a collection of past 'hurts.' Trust and safety is again realized simply through the revealing and intimate nature of fearless vulnerability. This indicates your desire to attain a "deeper understanding," which demands that your self-preserving righteousness be discarded.

It is a lack of trust in your relationships that grows over time as judgments are made from a lack of intimacy or deep understanding. If you have not connected to depth over a long period of time, the dialogue remains mired in the ‘everyday' and relating becomes shallow and useless. You then fail to correspond from Deep Spirit through sharing your ‘depths' and you become more distant and increasingly more ‘separate-together'.

Unfortunately, this pattern will eventually demonstrate that you can maintain this separate-togetherness for only so long before the stress of such a solitary experience or 'being-in-aloneness' presses against you and results in episodes of dissociative communication and chronic conflict. In those moments there is no closeness, certainly no "love," or even familiarity (as in definition 2) and this is simply because, over time, we have actually lost the deep understanding (definition 1 above) of one another that tends to displace and diminish conflict.

INTIMACY AND DEEP SPIRIT

Over time we inadvertently exile one another to become strangers in a strange and absurd 'world.' This can be frightening or disconcerting, because the world has nothing we need and there is nothing IN the world that can help us reach our 'depths' or attain an intimacy with the 'self' through intimacy with others. Spiritual depth can only be accessed through each other, because "you" were not constructed in isolation from a world of others. Only intimacy through other selves will fully give you your "self" in vivid technicolor. The world can give you nothing, yet, it does seem apparent that the world can give us everything - TOGETHER. But only if the experience of ‘world' is shared deeply - TOGETHER. This does not require sexual intercourse or bodily involvement of any kind, however, it does not necessarily exclude that part from the whole.

Why continue to rely on patterns of conflict, unconscious or denied, to finally reach intimacy or a deeper understanding? Why is it necessary to bottom-out before you can see the need for recovery and healing? Why not maintain the trust and safety of intimacy through a consistent desire to know and to deeply understand one another? Why do you watch those you profess to love drift away, while failing to close the distance?

The problem is your reliance on the 'world.' The world, or reality in general, does not serve the purpose of intimacy or deeper understanding and like a vacuum it sucks up and absorbs our attention and demands we seek to comply with its values.

We have created a world to distract us from ourselves and our depths (and possibly this "creating" is as much a phenomenon of consciousness as it is a physical one). This idea is not new and many brighter minds than mine, have said as much. We expect the world to help us understand who we are, even though we remain incredulous over the degree of absurdity that we clearly see makes up our world.

Do we feel we have no choice but to subordinate the values of intimacy and deep understanding to the values of an empirical world? Is this what it means to be trapped IN the ego, when in fact the ego feels trapped IN the world? Or is it that intimacy or a deep understanding of others is so intense as to exhaust us and this makes adherence to the world's values so much more easy and seemingly effortless?

But although it seems easier, don't we often feel that adhering to the world's values is unnatural and at times even obscene? And when we finally do encounter an instance of intimacy or deep understanding with another, do we realize it as one of the most incredibly natural experiences we have ever encountered or does our continued conformity to the world's values stifle our awareness of what actually took place?

Or do we simply fear seeing our "self" in and through, another, realizing that this is the only way we can ever know our 'self'? Do we then fear finally knowing our 'self'?

Many have heard and often resist the idea that intimate relationships require work. Why is that? Why is cooperating with the world's values so much easier than cooperating with the immeasurable value of Deep Spirit intimacy? Why would you choose NOT to understand the other deeply, even though that failure to deeply understand causes you and them so much pain and suffering?

Deep Spirit (what some refer as our inner connection with Divine Mind) is NOT in the world, separate from an intimacy with that world and the only way we can encounter intimacy with the world is through a deeper understanding of one another. Find someone and go there, but don't be concerned of the form through which that relating takes place. The world demands forms, while Deep Spirit is only concerned with content.

In other words, full and joyous engagement with the world can only be experienced through intimacy with the world and that can only be had through, and with, others. The idea that God is ‘in-everything' seems logical to all spiritually inclined people. But to experience God ‘in everything' is only possible through the deep understanding of ‘everything' that only intimacy with everything can provide and this is non-dualistic rapture. More importantly, to engage intimately with the world requires intimate engagement or a deep understanding with the ‘others' that also "experience" the world, since the world is a construct of  that collective ‘experience.'

This seems to point to the 'Oneness' we so often hear talked about, but resign to the category of platitudes. Given up the idea or concept of personal enlightenment or that the "truth' will come to you if you only engage in specific esoteric and austere practices (although, I agree that this may aid in increased intimacy and may serve as 'invitation' to truth).

I suggest exploring communion through deeper understanding or intimacy with others. Of course, this starts with those closest to you, but I sense there may be a branching out from there, which would one day include the 'world.' However it manifests should not be particularly concerning to you since, as long as you can remain with the experience, it will build upon itself of its own accord.

"Seek first the kingdom of heaven within and all else will come unto you" is easy to understand when you realize the kingdom is not yours ALONE.

"You will see your value through each other's eyes and as each one is released as he beholds his savior IN PLACE of the attacker who he THOUGHT was there. Through this releasing is the world released. This is your part in bringing peace." (ACIM UrText)