Measuring Hell by Your Distance From the Weekend

Funny how so many people have an almost unconscious tendency to maintain a level of happiness directly contingent on the distance to, or from, the weekend.

In other words, there are people whose level of happiness is directly related to the days of the week and the closer they come to the blessed “weekend,” the greater the increase in their level of "happiness" (with an associated gradual descent into hell come Sunday evening). Thereby, associating Monday morning as the deepest descent into hell with each respective day signifying a gradual ascent up from that "burning pit," only to plunge back down again.

This is just another example of the ego-self’s victimization to TIME and how the experiential delusion of time is employed in order to construct concrete ‘experiences’ for which to self-actualize your abstract egocentricity as individually REAL in a finite world.  Time is the ultimate means of ego actualization, because without time “you” would have NO starting point from which to reference a unique past that you meticulously employ to define your ‘self.’ This is why you could never just BE and all your attempts at just “Being” are doomed to failure from the start, because every ego-self knows itself through its personal starting point (birth).

BEING is infinite, while you have a finite staring point which can only mean a finite ending and ALL your thoughts conform accordingly. Hence, to be free of time would require you simply NOT EXIST and have NO such point of origination (and what ego would sacrifice that?). But can you THINK infinitely? Can you BE without a starting point and, thus, live as if infinite? Or must you always reference past coordinates in order to have a sense of your finite ‘self’? I believe many have tried but, alas, ALL have ended up failing.

To play infinitely in a world of finite coordinates, ultimately means to be unconcerned with “existence” whatsoever. Yet, TIME allows for coordinates for which to measure, and thus know, that you exist. You started from birth and will end in death and, in between, are millions of “meaningful” guideposts for which the ego measures existence or it’s own egocentric self-actualization. Self-actualization is just a fancy word for your consistently seeking and finding proof that you are who you BELIEVE you are. Of course, the proof you locate is always reliable, but most likely invalid.

Yet the ego-self doesn’t give a rats ass for validity or truth, only that its measurements remain consistently reliable and thus, relied on consistently. Yet, if it is all delusional then, obviously, it’s invalid. Nevertheless, you rely on it because your “life” depends on that reliance. Make no mistake, every ounce of proof you find…you put there to be found, else you would never have located it in the first place. The constructs of your existence are your own and you experience exactly what you ask for.

Therefore, what you will one day understand is that “hell” is always of your making, because ‘where’ you seek to locate your ‘self’ has always been your decision. Yet, the problem is that you want hell more than anything and you are vigilant in your consistency in deciding for that all the time. Look at the decisions you make that continually thrust you into the Bowels of Deprivation (just another name for “hell”). Hell is a very comfortable place for those who live in a finite world, because at least you believe you’re REAL (and try hard to ignore the nagging doubt that you’re NOT).

What keeps the ego-self intact (and IN HELL) is that you do not believe you can think infinitely and so finite thoughts become all you “know” and finite experiences become all you encounter. Therefore, your “happiness”  is easily reserved for weekends and you find this a completely acceptable finite experience. If you seek rewards for the weekend, you must feel deprived during the week and “hell” is nothing more than an experience of being deprived of “happiness.”

This is a finite game because it embraces finite outcomes. For instance, how many actually wait for “happiness,” but only as a condition of “retirement” and thus, keep their minds a victim of oppression until the blessed day they no longer need be victim to socially constructed time constraints such as “employment”? Just one example of your daily, yearly and momentary descent to HELL.

The demand for freedom has always been pathetic, since an ego-self can never be free by the very nature of what IT IS. Yet, the infinite player can begin to alter that composition, by releasing him/herself from the deprivation inherent to time. This is the only purpose you have given to time and has nothing to do with all the other ego-games you play out on a daily basis.

So, isn’t it time, you employ time for its intended purpose?


Artwork by Todd Schorr- "The Hydra of Madison Avenue"