Thursday, December 26, 2013

Christ Consciousness: Frying the Motherboard

  “….Christ Consciousness does NOT make correct or incorrect choices regarding the body. Christ Consciousness makes NO choices at all, because it lives in absolute CERTAINTY. In certainty, there is NO NEED to choose. Every thought you think MUST be in the mind, because it has always been certain that you would think it. Therefore, it follows that every action is performed as it MUST. There is no disparity between the certainty of Christ Consciousness and the body’s acting in accordance to that certainty, since the body is only an egocentric idea. In the certainty of Christ Consciousness, no choices NEED be made, because all choices have been made as ONLY they could have been made.” (The Certainty of Christ Consciousness, 2011)

Free-will asserts that there is an autonomous “I-me” that makes choices free of influence and free of the causal WILL that directs the entire universe. Free-will asserts that there is some autonomous ‘being’ in your brain, that “you” refer to as your “self,” that volitionally chooses thoughts before you think them and that your life is completely under the control of a WILL that is owned or ‘possessed’ by that autonomous 'chooser.' Free-will asserts that thoughts don’t just arise, but that you have a personal responsibility to choose the ‘right’ thoughts before you think them and all your life you have been taught which thoughts are ‘right’ and which are ‘wrong.’ Free-will automatically claims that if you have a thought that is ‘wrong,’ and subsequently act on that electro-chemical impulse, you are personally responsible, because you should not have allowed that thought to arise the moment it did. Certain neurons should not fire and others should.

Christ Consciousness (Buddha Mind, no-mind, or whatever you wish to label it) realizes that every thought that arises must have arisen exactly as it did, directed by a WILL not your own and that “you” are not free from.

The very thought you just now had, was simply waiting to arise since the beginning of time. Centuries of preceding activities and situations had to occur, and trillions and trillions of other thoughts had to arise, in other minds, for you to have the very thought you are having right…now. There is no chance, coincidence or uncertainty to a predetermined causal order that continues to infinitely unfold in your head.

Christ Consciousness exists in the certainty that every choice made had to be made exactly as it was and every choice that will be made will unfold exactly as it must. Egocentric free-will must always be uncertain; because it believes it has a choice in what unfolds and can direct a ‘self’ outside the WILL of a predetermined causal universe.

Yet, when you understand that every choice made had to be made exactly as it was, what could you be uncertain about?

For centuries, the unawakened and progressively more unaware, egocentrica mammalia, has done everything possible to achieve certainty in his choices, only to become more uncertain as the social fictions and cultural fantasies that guide his choices become more and more complex and contradictory. He constructs huge centers of higher learning in order to increase his certainty of purpose, whilst the ‘self’ constructed fictions all around him begin to dissolve into chaotic obscurity. “I must learn more!” he exclaims, while his brain clamors for freedom from the mess of his own tangled neuro-circuitry and the 'thoughts' that arise from it. More and more “knowledge” only confirms the utter uncertainty of his existence and seems to remove him further from the predetermined causal universe, even though being separate from that causal whole is impossible.

The delusion is that your life should be different and that you can change it. The delusion is that in this very moment you should be doing something different from what you are doing and this delusion is as much a part of the causal unfolding as any other part, until it’s gone.

What you’re doing in this moment is exactly what you’re supposed to be doing. Whether you’re mindlessly masturbating to porn, while pumping down a sixpack of Bud, or actively and sincerely seeking to achieve “no-mind,” by meditating for many hours every day, neither choice is better or worse than the other. Whichever choice you have made is exactly what you should be doing simply because you ARE doing it, otherwise, based on a predetermined causal universe that you are totally enmeshed in and flowing with, you would be doing something else.

In an infinitely unfolding predetermined causal universe, the meditation master is no different or better than the beer guzzling pervert.

In a predetermined causal universe, masturbation and meditation hold no special significance to a causal order that values nothing over anything else, simply because it allows ALL to unfold and be experienced. Happiness and suffering are equally valuable to a predetermined causal order that allows both to be experienced. In the “Oneness” of a predetermined causal universe, life and death are not opposites, but equal in value.

Of course, to egocentrica mammalia, this idea sucks, because everybody knows meditation is more valuable than masturbation. He believes that life is more valuable than death and that a “happy” life is better than one full of suffering.

The non-duality of Christ Consciousness equalizes all opposites. Death and destruction are as much a part of the causal universe as life and construction. Hence, when all values exist in a non-dual equality, choices are no longer made based on free-will, but are just simply made with the understanding that they must be made exactly as they will be made.

Valuing one thing over another is also part of the causal order, until the ‘chooser’ disappears, never to be experienced again, while choices still continue to be made as they always have.

A lot of folks are getting close to this, based on their suffering from the Symptoms of Approach. These symptoms are outside your capacity to control and you will mostly likely seek relief from them as they can be quite uncomfortable and even frightening.

When the fictional realities of a fictional ‘self’ living in a fictional social order, along with other fictional selves, begins to lose value and recede, a deep sense of depression results, since there are progressively less anchor points for the fictional ‘self’ to actualize itself as real. In addition, a tendency to isolate may become demonstrative due to the extreme discomfort of participating in socially scripted interactions, through meaningless roles, masks and gestures. You may gradually find yourself no longer caring about things others find immensely important. None of this can be explained to anyone, because they do not see what you see. Marriages fail, friends fade away, as relationships become almost impossible to maintain. Many things may drop to the wayside, family, activities, hobbies, interests, desires, goals, aspirations, etc, and other things may require seemingly super human effort to even engage at all (socializing becomes a test of endurance). But you’re not approaching some watered down version of truth, but the brute, raw reality of your existing non-existence.

This path to awakening can be a lonely one indeed and some have yet to realize they are on this path. But you have never had a choice in this. You are not the driver and only along for the ride.

The Symptoms of Approach merely indicate that you are coming closer to a complete neuro-circuit overload. A frying of the mother board, burning up useless circuitry in a total shock to the system. This is not a brain disorder like Alzheimer’s, but simply the natural discontinuation of electro-chemical current that fires up circuits not related to truth. Yet, like Alzheimer’s, it is simply not under your control to alter or change in any way and all efforts to do so have been predetermined as part of the causal universe.

You cannot “choose” to take this path, because in a predetermined causal universe, all choices have already been made. There is nothing you can do to alter this path. You cannot slow it down or speed it up. However, all attempts to do so are part of the process and choosing to medicate the symptoms is also part of the process. This may ebb and flow, over many years, in fluctuating waves of engaging the process and running from it in fear, in moving forward only to quickly pull back again. You have been on this path since before you were born. Advancing toward emptiness can be a very frightening experience and many have compared it to death, because it emphasizes the nothingness of all values currently held dear.

In order to get to nothing, you must first be disillusioned by everything and that’s not a good feeling (for all the bliss bunnies out there).

There must be a shock to the system, a complete overhaul of perspective, a gradual frying of the mother board toward the realization that there is no free-willed, autonomous self making choices of its own volition, free and separate from the WILL of a predetermined causal universe.

I mean, think about it…

Who really wants to achieve that kind of certainty, in which everything you were once “certain” about is completely null and void?

I didn’t.

I wanted “bliss.”

In the end, you will die and you will “know,” nothing more than you now know in this very moment and…

…that's “enlightenment.”


  1. Well, that all sounds very familiar. It is a distinctly uncomfortable place. What was I thinking??? (rhetorical question).

    Is "Symptoms of Approach" your term?

    Old zen guy once said: "Why do you want enlightenment, you may not like it."

  2. "Is "Symptoms of Approach" your term?"

    I think so (hopefully not unconsciously plagiarizing)

    I like to coin a phrase from time to time...


  3. Good read, thank you. I want it. I used to want bliss, been there, done that. Burn baby, burn! Now I' m going to contemplate the " I" who is wanting this. Cannot be different.

  4. Mike,

    It seems in some of your past articles you argue against the idea of self-transendence. I am confused as to whether you see this as a possibility or not. What have I missed?

    I can understand conceptually that the self and free will are illusions, but are they not unavoidable illusions?

    Thanks and I appreciate all the great articles,

  5. Hi Eric,

    Certainly "self-transcendence" is a possibility, just not a possibility that can be 'chosen' by a 'self' and that self that 'chooses' does so from, as you say, an "unavoidable illusion," which immediately negates the choice from the gitgo.

    A 'self' seeking self abnegation creates a 'self' perpetuating feedback loop that has no ending (other than death) and we see this in the macro world with all the self-transcending technologies which demand a strengthening of 'self' resolve as a means of transcending the self.

    This blog merely emphasizes...let it go. Because the more control asserted, the more the ego-self is real.

    Hope this helps you understand my perspective in the shaping of your own.


  6. "Christ-consciousness" can also be called the I AM. After all concepts of what and who one is have been negated, what will be left is the I AM. That one is can not be negated completely. Who or what one is, is not known and does not need to be known in so called christ-consciousness or the I AM. Before that state of mind is not experienced, one still entertains certain concepts. And concepts can be very subtile.Being devoid of all concepts is the I AM, or christ-consciousness. And yes, that feels like dying or being dead already. And that "feeling" also needs to be accepted and appreciated...without the need for further concepts.

    "Stay in the I AM. The rest is not up to you anymore." I paraphrase Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj.

    How long it will take to stay pure of any concept of who or what one is and what reality is and where one is and why one is and what for one is....can not be manipulated by the so called individual. Because fake individuality is given up...for the sake of truth. That can feel like being in a void. That can feel like depression. That can be a scary place to be in. must be endured untill something else will be known..or not. And if not, not.

    For some that is all there ever will be, in this life-time. A leaf in the wind. But a leaf has a form...and being blown by the wind...That's more than nothing.

    Enjoying the ride can be pretty rough and some don't make it to the point where the mere ride can be enjoyed. But some do.

    JOY itself will always enjoy the ride to a certain degree. No matter how rough the ride will be. Because JOY itself can not not enjoy. That's why masochists enjoy pain. They have learned to like it. Some do reject and deny pain as being real. They enjoy the numbness of being devoid of any kind of true real emotions and feelings. Some enjoy the knowledge that this particular body-mind they seem to inhabit, is just an im-permantent state of being and they don't give much attention to it. They just use it as a means for self-knowledge and enjoy to fill it with substances...once in a while... like wine to manipulate its expressions.

    Jedem das Seine.

    Love yourself.....if you can.

    Thanks for having me.