Yet, because this 'order' is nothing more than abstract chaos, compromises break down and eventually lead to utter disillusionment with delusional order. We see this happening in the world today. Structures from which the ego define itself are crumbling as egos defiantly struggle to maintain these imaginary structures from which self-actualization is achieved.
But if the structures are delusional, so is your actualization. It never was and never will be...'actual.'
The world is experiencing what seems a break down of the actual 'order,' but only because order was never there in the first place, only a belief in order superimposed upon chaos.
The ego-self can never have anything but disorder and chaos, simply because it does NOT know what its 'purpose' IS and therefore, knows NOT what it IS.
A mind without purpose, can only experience chaos and be forced to make it work. Thus, you have installed all manner of purposes upon your experience of self and world.
Are you fulfilled by your career? Your family, your finances, your possessions? Do you demand your "life" be meaningful? Do you lead a "purposeful" existence?
How will you cope when all is finally exposed as delusional nothingness? When all your significant purposes and functions become nothing more than phantasmagorical delusion. What will "you" be? How will you define your 'self'? Will you seek to anchor your 'self ' to new beliefs? Will you become immersed in your "spirituality" and religion? Will you adopt a belief in "non-duality"?
Will you become angry? Will you fall into despair? Will you struggle to make it all REAL again?
Maybe it's time to start dissembling the ego. Maybe it's time to start dissecting the self. Maybe it's time to start accepting chaos and become an infinite player. Such a game has no outcome and no purpose....
...and in that...is your only freedom.
But can you stand it?
Artwork by Luis Lorenzana - "The World is Full of Lonely People"
Brilliant, Mike, and guaranteed to scare the Bejesus out of any self-respecting ego!
ReplyDeleteOh, and I have one word for the picture - coulrophobia!
ReplyDelete"The world is experiencing what seems a break down of the actual 'order,' but only because order was never there in the first place, only a belief in order superimposed upon chaos."
ReplyDeleteYou know...you are right.
"How will you cope when all is finally exposed as delusional nothingness? When all your significant purposes and functions become nothing more than phantasmagorical delusion. Will you become angry? Will you fall into despair? Will you struggle to make it all REAL again?"
This is a brilliant post. It comes closer to anything you have written that seems to concisely to convey your perspective on all of this.
The image looks like a Fellini ghost.
Blessings~
No One,
ReplyDeleteGlad you enjoyed it. After all...I'm only an entertainer.
Thanks,
mikeS
Nahnni,
ReplyDeleteThanks!
Sometimes I feel I'm a but too negative and drive people away.
I mean...shouldn't spirituality be fun?
mikeS
Mike, Mike, Mike...So far, I've only read the title. My immediate question for you was, does this mean I should take my spices out of alphabetical order?
ReplyDeleteAbsurd thoughts, especially my own, often strike me funny. You might have noticed once or twice how easily I can be amused, or amuse myself. Like it better you made the effort, however! I will go back and read your entire creation once I can focus, stop wondering why I've made small, seemingly wasted effort to reign chaos in.
I'm going to presume the answers are included in what you prepared here, and of course, absolute, since you had the foresight to write it all down;-)
As always, many thanks,
Barbara
I must echo Nahnni's sentiments as applied to this post, Mike. Brilliant.
ReplyDeleteI'm a little giddy from the thrashing you have administered.
Barbara,
ReplyDelete"My immediate question for you was, does this mean I should take my spices out of alphabetical order?"
Ha!!
Yes, Immediately! (try organizing by aroma)
mikeS
Hey Willie,
ReplyDeleteI'm a little giddy from the thrashing you have administered.
Sorry...but i was really only thrashing myself.
(I can't be responsible for any collateral damage that may inadvertently occur).
Thanks!
mikeS
something i wrote last year:
ReplyDeletethere is a coldness
in the thought
that gets pushed aside
a dark little dread
that lingers hidden
within a grander idea
during the quiet
it appears as a stain
on my mind’s mirror
a silent agony
of life without purpose
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this past year i have been playing around a little with some of the ideas of integral - specifically - the "unique self" - those who support this notion say that there is an aware non-egoic entity (our unique self) that has a unique purpose...
but - i just can't buy it. it seems to be another egoic wishful thinking... an avoidance of the starkness of purposelessness...
i have not reconciled myself to purposelessness - even though i suspect there is "truth" there... i still grasp toward doing something "meaningful" here in the relational world. and it does seem like there are choices - albeit small ones, that can make a small difference to others and self... there seems to be "truth" there as well. another paradox i suppose.
Christine,
ReplyDeletePoem is very existential.
"i have not reconciled myself to purposelessness - even though i suspect there is "truth" there... i still grasp toward doing something "meaningful" here in the relational world. and it does seem like there are choices - albeit small ones, that can make a small difference to others and self... there seems to be "truth" there as well. another paradox i suppose."
Yep, nor have I fully adopted "purposelessness" else I probably wouldn't be writing this blog.
However, I also suspect that in dissolving all my purposes, purpose may be finally realized. However, that is a frightening prospect for an ego following purposeful scripts ("me")
Thanks!
mikeS