Problem with this is that egos don't evolve...
...they die.
How can a self-concept ("I"), that includes a belief in 'death'...
...evolve?
That makes no fooking sense (but you believe it).
Of course, bodies seem to evolve. Intellect seems to evolve and scientific discovery evolves, etc, etc.
But the egocentric self simply dies. It may seem that the 'self' amasses greater "knowledge," thereby, inventing more ingenious techno-baubles to play with. But essentially egocentricity, and all the things egos desire and want, never ends. Egocentricity still seeks to control its experiences and make them conform to its egocentric schemes and plans. This has occured for centuries and will continue to occur unless and until...
...ego can TRANSCEND itself.
Yet, to transcend something is to leave it behind, extract it and jettison it out and away. Of course, this is hard for ego to do, because it likes itself so damn much (well, don't you?).
And so, egocentricity will continue to do what egocentricity has always done and always WILL do. This includes the grandiose notion that it is somehow "evolving" or becoming a better, more improved ego. Hence, egocentricity (the whole, not just the parts) will come up with more ingenious methods of "evolving" itself. It will continue to develop more expert self-development techniques all in the name of "evolution."
But it will continue to be ego and nothing more. Just a shinier and more compact package of beliefs to play with.
What egocentricity will need to do is transcend itself.
But, obviously, it's very difficult for an ego to transcend itself or leave itself behind by jettisoning itself out and away from itself.
Of course, to do that means you'd probably have to not give a sheit about it anymore. Like, not care what ego needs or wants, and what ego's ever gonna do that?
The great question of our times, if we ever wish to stop repeating the same horrific bullsheit ("man's inhumanity to man"), is not how do we evolve...
...but how do we transcend.
But, nevermind, "you" keep on "evolving" in your egocentricity and make note of all the new ways you can suffer being "you."
Make no mistake, egocentric evolution only means more innovative and ingenious ways...
...of suffering.
Isn't it time to transcend all that?
(and don't ask me how to do that, cause that's a question only an ego would ask and another ego would answer)
Artwork by ALMaNeGrA- "Parasite"
you say to stay with you're fear and keep looking into it and using it as a marker as to how far you are, but then say there's no such thing as progress, which would mean transcendence is as available in this second as it will ever be. but it just seems so utterly unattainable in this moment. there is this weird idea i have of just taking a leap of faith and not looking back, but this idea kind of seems impossible to actually do...i mean lately i find comfort and happiness in the fact (or idea) that ive been opening up more, but then i think progress is a delusion meant to find delusional comfort in a horrible fucked up world/life/self that seems impossible to escape and feel frustrated. you say the more discomfort the better as a marker of how you're rebelling against yourself/barriers/fear to transcend, but i seem to find the most uncomfortable anxieties while on drugs which makes me think well maybe i need to try my 'leap of faith' during one of these horrible drug sessions but thats so terrifying i don't even consider it seriously, especially while intoxicated. terrible fear i'd go into psychosis or some shit if i tried.... like i'm not already in psychosis. i mean would you agree EVERYONE is in psychosis? i mean theres people in psychosis and you say there's no ego evolution, so isn't it psychosis or enlightenment? these intoxicated anxiety experiences really make me feel like i have a serious psychological disorder.... 'anxiety experience' doesn't do justice to the extreme fucked-upness of the situations... i could see how it might be going on all the time, but its more suppressed and easier to deal with when sober... also, disassociating from egocentric care kind of seems like one of those things like
ReplyDelete'do nothing" or "become choiceless" that so called"enlightened masters" (i use sarcasm but part of me believes there are enlightened people) say to do that they make out to seem so simple to just snap your fingers and do, but is fucking impossible and doesn't help at all in the never ending search to get outttt.
Isn't it time to transcend all that?
ReplyDelete(and don't ask me how to do that, cause that's a question only an ego would ask and another ego would answer)
Good one.
"you say to stay with you're fear and keep looking into it and using it as a marker as to how far you are, but then say there's no such thing as progress"
ReplyDeleteIndeed, it is truly hopeless.
Can you find joy in that?
mikeS
Thanks Nahnni...
ReplyDelete"I'm feeling pretty self-concious here, like you think i'm just ignorantly missing what's so obviously in front of me..."
ReplyDeleteAren't we all?
I think it should be pretty clear by now that I don't have the answer you're looking for.
Sorry,
mikeS