An ego-self does not have the slightest capacity to be honest, because it is a fabricated construct. How could what has no idea what IT IS ever be honest about anything?
Obviously, this means that every egocentric belief and every individual thought is a complete…LIE. And every thought or belief must be a lie, because “you” think IT. Therefore, “you” are a pathological liar. But you’ve really had NO choice, so don’t sweat your pathology.
In fact, for you to ever have an honest thought in your head would immediately spell your DOOM.
At least, it would predicate the complete and total annihilation of the ego-self you THINK “you” ARE. All it would take is for you to have one single honest thought, one TRUE idea, and the ego would immediately be smote to ashes and NO MORE.
This is why egos don’t like TRUTH and avoid it at all costs. Oh sure, “you” THINK truth is important and “you” strive to be honest. But, take a good hard look at your world. What IN IT is true?
There simply is no such thing as TRUTH in a world as perceived by an ego-self. The ego-self has no real idea what IT IS and, therefore, fabricates grand narratives (stories) which seem to give it a sense of permanence and consistency. Your developed “personality” is an egocentric head trip to make your ‘self’ seem REAL, but it has no legitimacy whatsoever, because you made it up from shards of a non-existent past. You could change your personality each and every day, but that would only prove your ego-self is a complete fabrication. Therefore, you cling desperately to your “personality” as if it were really YOU, because without the personality you made up, you would cease to exist. Try NOT having a personality for a day and see.
Of course, this puts “you” in a no-win situation, because to have an honest thought would be the end of you, therefore, your only choice is to live a lie or cease to exist. Ego’s are expert at living through lies and do it almost without a thought, every day…every moment in fact.
So is there a way you could live without being a liar?
Nope, "you" are destined to lie. In fact, I’m lying right now!
Best you can do is recognize that everything that comes out your pie-hole is conjured up in order for the ego-self to prove it exists.
This is why Infinite Players fail to take their lies seriously and love to play around with "truth," which is a serious violation of the game for finite players. Finite players believe their lies, and play as if the outcomes resulting from being a real “personality” were of value. But how can any rewards achieved by a fabricated ‘self’ ever be of any real value? And if your ‘self’ is a pathological liar, how can anything the ‘self’ desires be anything less than completely false?
So think of something that is NOT a lie. That you have a body? Lie! You experience having a body, but it may be nothing more than a ham sandwich for all you know, since your experience of the "body" is of the mind. That the world is round? Again….lie. Although this could be considered a “supporting lie,” since it helps to reinforce time/space coordinates, which helps you to lie about being a "body" pressed down into a "world" (once again, “where” are you ever, but in your mind?).
However, you can continue to apply profound meaning to your lies, call them “truth” and speak “honestly” about them. But why bother?
So go ahead and have a laugh whenever anything comes out your mouth that you THINK is profoundly honest and true and stop taking your 'self' so damn seriously.
Artwork by Reality Must Die - "Persistence of Silence"
If one is very, very careful, one doesn't have to go literally insane recognizing the validity of this post. The following is what saves the mind from that rather defenseless and surreal state of madness: "This is why Infinite Players fail to take their lies seriously and love to play around with "truth," which is a serious violation of the game for finite players.",
ReplyDeleteNow, the reason I see the validity of your essay, is because of what the personality can do in the case of head injury. The only thing left intact is the sensation, of being alive (pulse) in the brain, unless, of course, one is in a coma, but that has been shown to sometimes simply be an inability to appear conscious of one's environment and not necessarily asleep from it.
This is why "I think, therefore I am" is so bogus, because the mind can think anything, the "I am" is simply sensation, it holds no distinction. But, mirage always feels real, and so that is the heart of forgiveness, then. One has to forgive the story.
"I claim, therefore I am not."
This post kind of gets to the core of all you say. The only bummer is, is that the "mirage" (apparent reality) bites. There is even a cost to crazy.
Sincerely (I think),
Nahnni
beLIEve. lol
ReplyDeletecool post Mike!
I have this illusion of my head exploding...
thanks
Gil