Show Me The Way to Go Home (I’m tired and I wanna go to bed)

Look around you and ask yourself,  "do I really feel at home here? have I ever felt at home? Is this really where I belong?"

Your delusions are highly structured and extremely complex. But you believe them, else they would NOT FEEL REAL.

You have never felt at home here and you often wonder if you ever will. You are beginning to recognize that what you NEED cannot be found here. The problem is that you have NO idea what you NEED. Therefore, you allow an egocentrically deluded world to teach you what is needed. But in all these years of “education” are you any closer to knowing? Have you become any “happier” from what you’ve learned?

You believe the world teaches what you need. Yet, the world teaches what the student demands and thus, the world gives you what you ask from it. You find this suggestion preposterous, as you go about your mind-numbing activities, blaming others and the world for what you LACK, all the while never recognizing that what you lack is has always been what you EXPECT to lack and you have NO intention of changing what you EXPECT.

Do you?

Your "world" is the world of scarcity that you make real every time you suffer through the feeling of deprivation. Hence, how can you love a home that keeps you deprived? A home that threatens to destroy you? A home where no one really gives a shit about you and, in turn, you really couldn’t give a rat’s ass about them? A home where you are coming to believe it’s safer to stay in your “house” then go out and engage the world?

The world you experience is hopeless and becomes more deprived everyday. Suspicious minds are gradually closing in upon themselves by excluding more and more of what they experience.

“Splitting” refers to the egocentric process of breaking off pieces of WHOLE EXPERIENCE and jettisoning those pieces away from the ‘self.’ This does NOT deny that these parts are still IN your mind and you continue to experience them. It simply aids egocentricity in excluding parts of the WHOLE EXPERIENCE in order to support your complete and total impotence and inadequacy. An impotent and inadequate mind must turn to egocentric schemes for salvation. But an egocentric mind MUST always need salvation, since it is comprised entirely of the fear of deprivation. The ego is only a small part of your mind and because of this, IT (“you”) must always feel deprived...

...of the rest of YOU.

When will you accept that ALL your experiences are undeniably and  irreducibly YOURS?

Nope... ego would rather believe that some experiences it controls, while others must be blamed on the “world.” This is why “you” have never felt at home in your own mind and why you most likely will never make it home at all.

DEATH will not take you “there,” simply because ‘death’ is the most profound individually exclusive, egocentric experience “you” will ever encounter. It tends to keep you locked onto the treadmill of fear that you have yet to leap off of.

When will you make that leap?

They say that “home is where the heart is,” but your gradually losing heart for all the bullshit you feel required to participate in. Yet, all that need be done is for you to accept responsibility for the experiences you encounter in your head. You will know you are HOME, when those experiences no longer effect you and you fully accept and embrace ALL of it (because the experiences are ALL yours). Do not allow ego to extract you from your own mind by excluding particular experiences in opposition to others.

It's ALL you…ALL the time.

You KNOW it, my friends, without a doubt this is not YOUR home. This is not what YOU were meant to experience. But because you wish for some part's as opposed to others, you have dualistically arranged your own particular sense of HELL.

But remember,  it's NOT OUT THERE.

Your home awaits you, and "there," you will be completely safe and protected, experiencing infinite waves of intoxicating reunification and reconciliation with the WHOLE EXPERIENCE.

Yet, make NO mistake,that “home sweet home” can be found none other than within the "promise land" of your own MIND…

…and everyone will be happy to join you “there," because without THEM...

...you will remain lost, traveling in and out of disparate experiences that make NO sense.

No one goes HOME...alone.
(even God knows that)

Artwork by Herman Smorenburg - "Journey Home"