Ego must naturally resist all your attempts to transcend it, all the while, providing assurance that you are indeed making progress in becoming a more spiritual being. Egos love to feel “advanced.”
Ego does not wish for you to realize that YOU are in complete control and NOT IT.
Seek not to control IT and it will dissolve of the weight of it own delusional system. Why seek to control what is NOT real, except by imagining? Recognize that it is delusional and it can trouble you no more. You do NOT wish to control the world but to control the ego’s experience of a world.
Therefore, control the ego and the world conforms accordingly.
HOWEVER... the paradox is that to control egocentricity, you must relinquish ALL control. Obviously, "you" cannot possibly grasp this idea egocentrically, but why resist what is NOT real and has NO basis in TRUTH?
The ego really does not know what you should “do” and this is why you “change your mind” so often. One day you enjoy your work, the next you suffer through it. Today you love those you are close to, only to hate them or feel indifferent tomorrow. The body provides satisfaction until the times it must betray your trust in it. You fluctuate between the love of being “alive” and lamenting your "lot in life." Satisfaction is never steady and there is NO consistency or logic to the irrational chaos of egocentric decisions.
Therefore, it makes NO difference what you “do,” except to an egocentric, abstract and nebulous self-concept that must actualize itself through the actions, behaviors and movements of a body in order to realize it exists. Yet, clearly, the actions of the body have never sustained you and soon the body must decline to provide you satisfaction as it approaches its demise. Eventually, there will come a “time” when you’ll no longer look to the egos advice to “negotiate” your world...
...since your experience of a “world” was constructed by the ego to be non-negotiable. Do you really think that from a position of egocentricity, you have any control?
Just sit back and simply wait for the hopelessness of your situation to dawn upon you as it eventually MUST.
In the meantime, feel free to do whatever IT demands, only recognize it is the ego that makes the request and NOT YOU or the world you see. The world, of itself, can do nothing to you (except when you insist on egocentricity).
Do anything it demands. Only recognize from where the demand comes. If IT demands “happiness,” then give it up and if it demands the opposite of happiness, do as it asks and really grit and grind in your suffering. You may think that this means the ego is in control. However, the big difference is that you now KNOW you are UNDER control. This is contrary to your previous state of mind, which was that of denial, as if decisions made belonged exclusively to some REAL entity you referred to as “me.”
To switch from ego control to Christ Control requires you first become aware of the ego and identify all its many methods of control. Awareness, in and of itself, is the most powerful weapon you have against egocentric control and it requires you do nothing at all but... KNOW. With every move you make, every action taken, every thought/feeling experienced...inquire as to THE PURPOSE.
To “Know thyself” is an admonition promising freedom from your ‘self,’ because it has always been “you” that you seek freedom from. It is not the world, but your experience of the world that torments you and there is NO world apart from YOUR experience.
“Doing” is always of the ego, because it involves the body. This is why Christ Consciousness cares little for what you DO, but only for what you THINK.
Ego controls THOUGHT only when you deny it HAS control.
Examine your thoughts right now. You feel disappointment in reading this, because egocentricity expects something more individually profound and “enlightening". You wish to be saved from the hell of your own mind and the ego informs you that what I provide is insufficient to that CHOSEN task (ego's love choices). The ego continues to demand that you learn to “transcend” IT only from those who claim to conform to the official transcendence rules. In addition, your body has not felt well for years and the ego continually reminds you of your nagging sense of angst from a general disillusionment with your routine and repetitive “life.” Hence, ego requires your frequent fixation on money, bodies and the demand that others meet your egocentric expectations. Mostly, you feel as though you've made little progress and are becoming bored with this whole silly “spiritual” game because, as the ego continues to inform, there is always a better "you" to experience. So keep on truckin' bro!
These thoughts that fill your mind are entirely egocentric, but you feel compelled to THINK them as you always have. But worry not, the ego informs you of the many ways to seek relief and so you turn to TV sitcoms, alcohol/drugs/medications, mindless fornication, shopping at the mall for shit you don't need, reading doomsday predictions, manicuring your lawn, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera, over and over, round and round it goes. And then, of course, you die…Ha! (the most fun you'll ever have!)
But these thoughts are NOT yours. They come from an aspect of mind, constructed out of fear, that has convinced you of the need for self-preservation. But that aspect does NOT exist and so these thoughts have no basis in reality. They do not exist and could not be thought at all, simply because that aspect you identify with does NOT exist.
Yet, still, you allow your "life" to be managed by that which is fucking NOT THERE.
The ego does not exist and all that is required is for you to be aware of it, in order to see it’s just NOT THERE (keeping in mind that "existence" is nothing more than an egocentric concept, no different than the "let's pretend" of childhood games)
Yet, you continue to claim that “I am me, goddammit!” Therefore, it is best that, during the times you insist on claiming to your ‘self’ that “I am me,” you simply remind yourself that you are under the egos control and if fear continues to plague your mind in any degree or level, realize that your reminder has gone unheeded and remind yourself again and again. Most of all, do not seek to control, overcome, appease, placate or punish your egocentricity for being what it IS. The ego is immune to its own control techniques and any attempts to use it against itself will only result in reinforcement and continued claims of “I am me!”
Christ Consciousness employs no forms of control, but merely watches in complete awareness. The most important tool of control the ego employs is your denial that IT exists. The paradox is that your awareness of it dissolves it immediately by admitting to its control, so that you can realize that there is nothing there. Be aware that it is NOT you who think thoughts of hell, causing you to suffer through an imaginary world.
The world appears entirely different to those who finally SEE the ego and realize it is NOT there.
Artwork by Suzzan Blac - "Bashing an Angel"
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