Someone
told me that he believed we live in a “mad world.” Yet, has the symbolic egocentric
world ever been other than “mad”? Has there ever been a time, from the moment
homo erectus identified a “self” in his noggin, that the fictionally ordered egocentric
world was not absurd to the point of insanity? Has there ever been a century
when egocentricity has not slaughtered other egocentrics or destroyed the
environment to satisfy its “interests”? Has there ever been a time when
superstitiously paranoid belief systems have not been employed to generate and manage
egocentric fear? Was there ever a time in which egocentrics had not sought out
their own pleasure at the cost of other egocentrics and the world they inhabit?
Granted,
the big brain of egocentric mammalia has afforded him the technology to kill
and destroy in enormously statistical numbers, but the basic nature of egocentricity has
always been inclined to do so, regardless of the tools at his disposal.
Yet,
for centuries, egocentrics have also sought out ways to moderate their inherent
need to consume and destroy everything in sight, but all to no avail. They have
invented complex moral codes and laws to reduce death and destruction. But
fictional moralities are eventually bent and twisted to support egocentric
tendencies and destruction continues on unabated. When you invent, and seek to thrive, through a fictional world, that has
absolutely no resemblance to the predetermined causal order of the universe,
madness in the form of death and destruction cannot be eliminated from the
fictional constructs and must necessarily increase as the perceived world is
engaged through imaginary stories claimed to reflect "reality" and “truth.”
Death
is a valuable commodity to the egocentric mammalia and this is in direct
opposition to the natural world which barely gives it a thought up until the
moment it strikes. But egocentrics employ death to achieve imaginary goals,
because egocentrics will do anything to survive in an imaginary world.
The need to exist gives death the utmost prominence as collective leverage to motivate egos to engage all manner of absurd actions and behaviors. The threat of physical annihilation provokes individual egocentrics to engage in fictional socio-cultural games as if they were real and necessary to existence. This places egocentricity in a constant state of tension between the belief that what they must do is both patently stupid and absolutely necessary. This state of chronic tension is referred to as “anxiety” and it is endemic to post-modern egocentric society.
The need to exist gives death the utmost prominence as collective leverage to motivate egos to engage all manner of absurd actions and behaviors. The threat of physical annihilation provokes individual egocentrics to engage in fictional socio-cultural games as if they were real and necessary to existence. This places egocentricity in a constant state of tension between the belief that what they must do is both patently stupid and absolutely necessary. This state of chronic tension is referred to as “anxiety” and it is endemic to post-modern egocentric society.
Anxiety is the primordial egocentric state of existence and it is directly consequent to the fear of death. It sits heavy upon every mood you experience and even haunts your dreams. Egocentrics will do anything to relieve themselves of this existential weight, even if it means believing in fictional concepts that are laughably ridiculous.
Egocentric
anxiety rises and falls in correlation with the ego’s sense of control. The
more control asserted upon one's fictions, the less anxiety and when egocentrics
experience a lack of control of their fictional constructs, anxiety increases. Nevertheless, in both
situations, anxiety is omnipresent within the brain circuitry and self-enhancing fictional constructs are inadvertently wired up to survival-fear circuitry giving the constructs a reality that is not apparent in the causal reality of the universe egocentrics exist in and through.
Egocentrics
require anxiety as a measure of the quality of their existence. Simply examine
the numerous conditions in your own life that evoke anxiety symptoms. Hence, all your actions are directed to minimizing intensity, but you are never without anxiety. In fact,
your entire existence is modulated and dumbed-down by your valiant attempts to
avoid experiencing anxiety. Each and every action you engage in daily is an
attempt to modulate the anxiety of social existence.
If you had no experience of anxiety, would you continue to participate in the daily grind of mind-numbing meaningless social games? Of course not, because without anxiety you most likely would find yourself living in the moment, engaging reality in ways that all your needs would be easily met through highly creative methods of being in-reality and allowing the universe to direct that course. But your socio-culturally programmed anxiety will always keep this fact from awareness.
Often you cannot even identify the cause of your chronic daily tension and this is because the cause has settled deep down within dormant neuro-circuits we refer to as the unconscious or subconscious, which itself has been socially programmed. Hence, without the ability to identify causes, you have no idea
what methods might be employed to diminish the symptoms, because the programming packed up in your skull
has completely preordained every action you take and the anxiety inherent in
all social conditioning is pervasive to the very “self” you identify with as
incontrovertibly “you.”
So who are “you”? Are you no more than a victim of a world that you have been taught exists to serve you, but that has beaten you down into manageable pulp, easily shaped by social forces that seem to surround you, suffocate and press in on you? Why does anxiety seem to direct all your actions?
Anxiety
is a product of guilt and egocentric mammalia is essentially a guilt motivated creature. The natural world has absolutely no renditions of good or bad, right or
wrong, but the entirety of egocentric existence is anxiously fueled by that
dualism as opposed to the mere duality of the material world with its
light/dark, up/down, inside/outside, etc, etc. Does nature perform “evil” acts? Does the universe perceive itself as sometimes
“right” and sometimes “wrong”? Does the natural world punish itself when it is
“bad” and reward itself for being “good”? Does the universe exhibit anxiety
symptoms when it fails to complete all the tasks on its “To Do” list?
Only
dualism discriminates between these fictional constructs and is the basis of suffering.
Duality, as opposed to dualism, is the actual reality you engage with. Dualism
is your attempt to conceptualize reality into fictional categories. Hence, rather
than fully engage the predetermined causal order, you seek to transcend or transform
“what is” to meet your conditioned expectations originating from your
socio-cultural indoctrinated programming of good/bad and right/wrong.
Nevertheless,
because you cannot extract your “self” from a causally influenced reality, any
effort is pointless, because your encountering the truth of this is
predetermined long before your birth.
So relax…. kick back and just keep doing
whatever it is you do, because in a predetermined causal reality, nothing you do
is good or bad, right or wrong. How could it be when every choice you make has
been causally influenced and, hence, predetermined long before you were even
born.
Nothing is ever out of place or not in sequence. That doesn’t mean some things
that happen to you won't royally suck arse, but only because "good" and "bad"
neuro-circuits are still directing perception and there has, as of yet, been no
cause to redirect that otherwise.
Hence, your madness is predetermined....
Nice work man, was into this one very much! One thing I would say though is I guess 'madness' versus 'sanity' is another dualism, and not necessarily a natural duality that exists outside of our designating it such. If nothing's 'wrong', nothing's 'mad' either (but then you could go on like this until you can't say anything!).
ReplyDeleteThere seems (I would say) to be an intelligence to reality, however lacking in this or random it sometimes may appear (I guess to our narrowly defined egocentric view of how things 'should' make sense, ethically and intellectually); maybe madness, both individual and collective is just a working through of energies that 'needs' to be expressed for whatever purposes it has.
I guess my gut tells me that there is a 'guiding wisdom' (blurgh! But you know what I mean, maybe) that may be determining how every nuance of every experience appears, though it's certainly hard to see sometimes and quite often just appears kinda chaotic, but when you look back and examine there is quite a symphony of intricate energies playing out (as you can't fail to have noticed! Not saying anything new to you here, or contradictory to what you've said of course).
"This places egocentricity in a constant state of tension between the belief that what they must do is both patently stupid and absolutely necessary.'
That's cool, I like this! Very true! But to me it seems only sometimes perhaps. Sometimes it's just nice nice to chill with people, and there is minimal anxiety. Games we unconsciously play with each other can be seen through together and boundaries can be dissolved, as I've read you talk about too.
Anyway, good food for thought, and I like your chill resignation to what's happening! Feel it a lot more myself these days, and progressively not just when things are going 'well'! Got to be a 'good' thing!
Not sure I said much of any substance there, or was I just going off on one again... Do you know what I mean by that sense that everything is working to some sort of 'higher purpose'? I sometimes wonder whether it is just my mind coming up with elaborate iterations of 'it's going to be ok', or is that deep sense of 'okayness' you get sometimes symptomatic of the way things really are? Things are not going to be okay for this body-mind organism of course, in the end. Either way why not relax, I guess.
ReplyDeleteJust checked out your 'Reductio Ad Absurdum' page. Yeah going by that I reckon it's safe to say you're probably not feeling the whole 'universe has a higher purpose' stuff! I dunno. Fuck knows. It's just so rich in implications and meanings and apparent depth though. Maybe it really is just an extremely convoluted show of what it isn't. Like 'Maya'. Conversely, it may just be what it appears to be. But that's never clear and seems to escape grasp so perfectly as to be pointing to 'something'.
ReplyDelete"Things are not going to be okay for this body-mind organism of course, in the end. Either way why not relax, I guess."
ReplyDeleteWell said...
Thanks,
Mike