It Doesn't Matter to an Infinite Player

One of the most ineffable “spiritual” realizations you will eventually stumble upon (not by choice, however) is that nothing you can think of matters. This is because everything your mind currently holds is entirely relative to your ego-self and, therefore, meaningless.

As a result, every image, thought, feeling, behavior, action, etc, cannot possibly matter.

Alas, most fear to consider this idea and so, the same “meaningful” ideas are repeated over and over again, ad nauseam, without the slightest nick in time. You ‘know’ what you were taught to know and nothing more than that.

Fortunately for you, nothing you ‘know’ matters or is the least bit meaningful (which is true of everything on this blog).

Because if nothing matters, then everything is meaningless and every choice you make is as meaningless as any other. Finally, you're off the hook for all the stupid things you've done in the past, simply because doing anything other than what you did is as meaningless as what you remember doing.

In fact, if everything is meaningless, you no longer need to choose between what is important and what is not and, make no mistake, that is the egos only purpose. Take away the egos purpose and what do you have? No meaning and nothing matters.

You say: “but if nothing matters, then I should just sit on my rump all day and do nothing?”

You could sit and "do nothing," but in choosing to do so, you have then made that choice meaningful which places you in opposition to the choice to do otherwise.

It’s not a question of doing or not doing, but a question of the meaning, or value, that determines what you do or do not do. I merely suggest that both doing and not doing are equally meaningless and do not matter. So go ahead, continue ‘doing’ everything you do now, simply recognize that everything you do, or do not do, has no meaning and does not matter.

You say, “but if I don’t eat I will die.”

So eat! Just recognize that it’s meaningless and does not matter (we'll get to the concept of 'death,' shortly). But be careful, because if you choose NOT to eat, then not eating would instantly become meaningful and matter (this has been tried numerous times). The point is that nothing is meaningful nor does anything matter. Choose NOT to do something you ordinarily do and that choice becomes as meaningful as was the choice to do it.

“but if I don’t go to work, how will I pay my bills?”

By all means, go to work, just recognize that work is meaningless, as are paying bills (I’m sure you'll agree).

Actually, this is not a nihilistic perspective, simply because truth IS very meaningful and does matter. Only “you” (or that which you identify as ‘self’) have no idea what truth is.

Therefore, how can “you” possibly know the difference between what matters and what does not? (although the world reflects unequivocally that we ‘think’ we do). Until you can dissociate from what does not matter, you will most likely not know truth and nothing "you" know matters in the least.

This is because, TRUTH IS NOT SOMETHING YOU CAN CHOOSE.

But you say: “So death does not matter?”

Death is the keystone of all choices and, out of everything that you consider meaningful, death matters most and you will do whatever necessary to avoid it. The problem is that the only experience you have of death is actually not death at all, but 'grief' from the death of others who are meaningful to you and matter. You have not experienced your own death (assuming that you’re reading this) and thus have no idea what it is your avoiding.

Nevertheless, that’s the meaning you give it (avoidance) and therefore, avoiding death makes life really meaningful and matter a whole lot.

You say: “so I should just go ahead commit suicide?” Once again, you could choose to die, but this does not nullify or change the meaning of death in any way. It merely asserts that life was not worth living, which makes death matter more simply because life mattered less.

We could state the inverse and claim that everything matters and is meaningful (which many of the non-dualists 'love' expressing). Unfortunately, from this perspective, the ego-self manufactures seemingly infinite levels and degrees of meaning and this is exactly the type of relative ‘world’ you currently experience as ‘meaningful.’

From this perspective there can be no void of meaning, from which truth can be availed, only an ongoing array of relative choices that you feel forced to choose from, even though what is ‘chosen’ could never be truth, because truth is not a choice. However, you actually believe that some choices are better than others and thereby, make the absurd assertion that ‘you’ know truth.

You say: “So my choosing to commit murder is equal to my choosing to save someone from a burning building?”

This hierarchical value system, that we all seem to share, merely asserts that you have chosen life over death, as if you knew the difference. This only reinforces the contrast between them, because it is the choice for “life” that automatically makes death an option. If life had no meaning and did not matter, what would be the point of death? How could there be “murder”? If life was not meaningfully lived in avoidance of death, life would be lived remarkably different than you now live it. You fear death and, therefore, life matters (whether it does or not is a moot point).

The infinite player recognizes that the games we play in ‘life’ don’t matter, but can be played quite well from that meaningless vantage point, since we don't have to fear the meaningless. In fact, when the outcomes of our games no longer matter, playing them is less of a struggle because we are free from making choices based on relative meaning and not truth.

Finite players demand the need to choose so that the games matter, while infinite players find meaning in NOT choosing because any choice is as meaningful as another. Any game is as good as another whether you’re playing at being a international banker or the school janitor. Each is as meaningful as the other, simply because all are meaningless.

The finite player demands that what he does matters and, thus, the 'right' outcomes are very meaningful to him. Therefore, when he fails to achieve the desired outcome, suffering is the result, but only because the outcome mattered. If it didn’t matter how could he suffer?

Paradoxically, the infinite player can embrace everything equally, simply because no one aspect of experience matters more than any other. There is NO uncertainty or doubt (fear) in that perspective and, thus, you become free of fear and fear is the only obstacle to truth.

However, keep in mind, whether you choose to be an infinite player or finite player, in the games of life, it really doesn’t matter...

...in the end.

HA!
mikeS